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Saturday, June 18, 2011, 6/18/2011 12:46:00 AM ♥ cried so many tears during this exam period.... i've concluded i suffer from depression... sigh.. i'll tell you my story for today.. had my pathology exam.. mb i should have eaten... i dunno if i can blame it on that.. what happen was... i forgot to write my student name and number on each page of my exam paper.. because after that they goin to rip the papers apart and give to different examiners... and i only found out after ernest complaint about how he was so tired having to write his long name all the time! ahhh!!! that was during dinner!!! den something in my head just broke.. i did not remember writing anything.. and apparently they announced at the beginning of the exam and at the end of the exam to remind us to do it.. but i was too focused on exam to even listen to what they were saying... another stupid thing was.. i saw somethin red and bold but i was like how come its red suddenly but i didn't bother reading it n just continued doing my exam.. and guess what? the red font bold and capital letters was to also remind us to write our names and student number on the exam paper... ah!!! to be honest.. i did not eat the whole day.. n the exam was at 2pm.. so in the middle of the exam i actually had gastric, dizziness and pins and needles in my writing arm... i remember hearing them say if you feel ill in anyway to raise ur hand up and they'll take you to the medical centre for checkup.. but i was thinkin to myself.. omg i feel like im goin to faint but told myself nah i can do this! water!... kept shaking my arm to get some blood flow too.. and drinkin the very little water i had in my bottle to keep my brain from fainting.. i also felt so cold from the wind that was coming from behind me and! i wanted to go toilet too!.. and dennn after the exam, i also remembered reaching into my bag for a starburst chewy straight away!! because im guessing my brain needed some sort of energy boost.. from being so numb.. moral of the story: jasmine has to eat before doing things.. please remind her if she doesn't.. if not she becomes extra blur -_- i emailed the coordinators to advise me on what to do... i really hope i get good news... that everything is alright.. i wouldnt want to repeat the whole unit again... sigh i did not do any study today because of what happened... and i was alright.. during dinner.. i was sad but i held it together... n den when i got home and found out no one was actually there to talk to online... coz kath told me she going to slp and no one was replying.. i broke down... crying and thinking no one's there and i'm stuffed... den sammi called.. n cried wid me and offered to talk to the ppl for me.. so nice.. lol she's so cute.. den vic replied and told me what done is done.. which was wat i told myself too but i still broke downnn.. den ways of organizing myself in the future and tokin bout it made me feel better, den mish asked me for my student details, offered to call them for me and ask them wat to do and also asked her fwen for opinion on wat to do.. so nice.. felt better, den ama told me she think someone did it during undergrad n was ok.. so i felt better again.. den adam woke up and was like why are u crying again!? den i explain to him n he said all i can do is jus wait and go n slp stop waiting for reply... den charm told me the importance of food lol.. thanks guys!! felt so cared for actually.. which made me cry evn more.. =x sigh! i think my brain too dead now.. i better slp.. toml mornin wake up and study!! u can do it jas!! :) wait for good news.... sigh.. learnt my lesson... LDR Monday, May 23, 2011, 5/23/2011 04:04:00 PM ♥ woooo long time no blogggg~ lols neways.. nothin much been happenin.. major assessments are over for us woohoo! im in a mini holiday for myself.. 3 days of not doing nething but work... lol! oh! and i also succeeded in cuttin erwin's bush hair :D evrything is going great! hahaa.. which reminds me... ama was talking about how she wouldnt recommend long distance relationship.. to be honest i wouldnt either.. it truly is hard.. yet again i got myself into another one.. n this one was even harder coz we dun talk to each other very often.. about one month into it.. i wrote an email to break it off.. but never sent it.. ive had my downs and complains.. i still dont know him as much as i would like to.. but i can see it i guess? dunno if im blinded.. but i see a future.. :) now it's been 3 years and i've finally gotten used to it.. I googled long distance relationship just coz i wondered how everyone else copes wid it.. and came across all these benefits of LDR which i think.. is so true.. i ust copied n pasted this.. You get to be involved in an intimate relationship while still retaining your individual space and getting a lot of opportunities to enjoy solitude. i like my space coz i'd prob be sick of seeing someone day in day out.. lol.. i hope this doesnt become a prob in the future.. however i dun like the solitude life.. not all the time.. lols You are able to really draw out that initial spark of romance since you’re frequently seeing each other again after long absences. so true! that big giant hug.. so warm.. i melt whenever i see him for the first time again. You are able to stay in the place where you live even if the person you love doesn’t live there. no difference.. You get to have more time for yourself. yup! and studies... -_- You’re never the friend who’s always with her boyfriend. this is actualli why i like ldr.. im afraid of not being there for fwens at times.. hope tts not goin to be a prob too.. lol You might miss out on nightly sex, but when you do have it, it’s really great. err haha! You can actually keep up with your plan to eat healthy and work out more. i always plan to do this but really.. yea.. haha! There’s always something to look forward to. yupsh ^_^ You may not have a lot of time together, but the time you do have is extra special. i remember more than usual.. lol! You have the whole bed to yourself! xD You actually get to miss each other. ;) http://www.coupledtogether.com/blog/category/blog/positives-about-ldrs/ so that's all i can say wid LDR for now.. got to get ready for work.. :) LDRs do work.. if u value all that.. :) Love, Jasmine Thursday, April 28, 2011, 4/28/2011 02:44:00 AM ♥ mummy's birthday in 2 days! woot! Emo 4/28/2011 01:52:00 AM ♥ this rainy gloomy weather makes me emo everything nowadays makes me emo... dunno if anyone's noticed my change in behaviour coz i have! like evrything is bleh.. and i'm just in no mood to do nething.. i'm so straight forward it's terrible.. i always scold myself after doin it.. and i dun remember always being this way.. i used to be the cheerful type u know, person that admired the little things, filtered the weirdness in ppl.. wat changed.. stress.. repetitive disappointments.. i guess "im sick of it" sometimes i think i need psychiatric drugs to keep me from constantly battling with myself.. isit normal to always think about why stuff happens, how i let it happen, why i let myself feel the way i feel, not understanding myself or other people's actions.. sometimes the matter isn't even about me but i get worked up so much that.. i just can't concentrate on anything else.. and my poor friends hav to listen to me complain~ ah! why... i also feel like i'm losing friends.. there's only a few people in my life right now i can open my heart to.. actually they're the only ppl who really asks how i am n wats goin on in my life... whereas i used to trust everyone else back then.. i guess after a while you know who really listens to you or really care about you... n because of this.. i also have to learn to keep other ppl's personal issues to myself and not tell other ppl.. jasmine is goin to try not to be a blabber mouth :) today i went to broadway to get dinner.. fairway was pitch-dark.. windy n cold too hence great stab spot.. i deliberately took the darker way slowly as it was also the shortest way around to the shops hoping that someone would actually come at me.. and stab me.. (too much stabbing scenes in scream 4 - i think it got to me) i really wanted to feel how tt felt.. to be stabbed n really feel that pain from inside - i really wondered wat i'd do.. stand ther like an idiot or go to someone's house.. dun get me rong i dun wanna die or nething but if some disturbed soul wanted to stab me -oh help me lord i can't do much about it~ it's happened.. i say this now but i know if i do get stabbed one day.. i'd regret i asked for it~ i think that's all i have time for today... shower n slp time! didnt manage to finish all my medchem notes today.. but i got one left for toml~ argh this study break is going so fast yet slow.. as always the case.. no motivation.. random rants. love, jasmine. sucha loner... 4/28/2011 01:43:00 AM ♥ Being with you is lonely. My friends say that I should leave you behind And stop wasting all of my time They tell me that I'm outta my mind But I know that what we both share is real And I've been willing to deal With the way that you're making me feel 'Cause if being with you means being alone And never knowing when you're coming home Then I guess I'm better off on my own But I can't move on 'cause that means forgetting Forgetting everything we had Instead I keep running, keep running I keep running back Jessica Mauboy's - Running back.