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Tuesday, May 20, 2008, 5/20/2008 06:41:00 pm ♥
my confidence n esteem levels have realli gone downhill... i've done many things this year that i never normally do..- forgetting dates - misplacing things - failed my gamsat again - waking up late for exam - going out too much (failed to manage time) - lack study and preparation for uni assessments need someone to pick me up =/ i've decided i'd do pharmacy masters if i dont get into medicine next yr. maybe medicine is just not for me.. i can imagine myself being a doctor at the end of everything.. but i cant imagine coping with the stress.. tho i know i can go thru it.. coz i oweis do.. it doesn't help if i have ppl disagreeing wid me.. that they don't see me as a doctor.. tho friends compliment me on my kind and passionate heart.. its not that easy to get in.. the gamsat i jus dun see the point and the interview process is mainly more on how u self-perceptionalise urself.. u could be jus in it for the drugs n it wouldnt matter.. my seminar today was horrendous. couldn't help but stutter away. my mind was just everywhere. tho i blame myself for not preparing well enough. i was too confident and ignored the fact that practice was the one reason that made me feel orite after any speech. tomorrow's will be better, i promise. i shall not get distracted. this feeling sucks majorly. i not only disappoint myself. but my professor and my parents. worst off. my parents. i was thot to be the responsible one out of the three. but slowly. i start to see myself becoming more like them. irresponsible and useless. i don't want to be like them! =x hais. having cup noodlessss.. havent had it in a while.. feels so unhealthy but oh wells.. i onli had icecream and mocha the whole day today.. should be able to allow myself a cup noodle rite hehes xD ok den i shall go prepare my seminar for toml =) love, jas omg omg omg
5/20/2008 01:21:00 am ♥
omgomgomg!! its been omost a month since i updated!! mmmm im in love with this guy's voice... KYUHYUN <3have a lookkk!! in love i tell u.. lols~ wat has been happening.. more road kills.. stressing for assignments... application for medicine... i failed gamsat... realli didnt want to.. i keep disappointin my mum.. mb i should think about nursing or pharmacy if i realli cant.. =/ mcat is soon.. gotta finish my stuff first tho! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh stressssss n start studyingg michael wong. my current happy pill. i miss his laugh.(hurhurhur)this is such a quik post.. coz i gotta slp sorryyy update soon i hope! xoxo love, xia0zhen |
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