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Sunday, May 29, 2005, 5/29/2005 02:16:00 am ♥


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no motivation to start studyin..
Saturday, May 28, 2005, 5/28/2005 03:37:00 pm ♥

i hav a problem studyin again.. so i decided mb do a fill up thingy.. lol.. stole it from angel in friendster.. here goes.. hehee

what do your friends call you?
:zhen, jas, jassie, jaz, jelli, jizzles, jazhen, ahzhen, zhenzhen..

is your bestfriend a girl?
:yahz.. ppl boi shy.. how to make friend with boi? lol

do you wear make-up?
: ehh? lol natural lookin makeup.. sometimes.. so i look like i dun wear..

do you wear shoes with high heels?
: not realli.. i like slippers and sandals.. lol

do you like wearing dresses?
: eh? when i was a lil girl yah.. haha.. now.. dresses look bad on me.. =x haha

do you have short or long hair?
: short short.. haix.. at least its growing~ hahaa

one length or layered?
: layered.. oweis has been since p6, yr8

how long does it take you to fix yourself up?
: hahaa one hour.. shower thn change thn put lotion in hair, thn put cream on face, thn powder on face, thn blowdry hair thn pack watever hav to bring go out and thn tadah ready.. haha..

do you have a makeup kit?
: yah =x i get free samples..

if yes, what's inside?
: i oso dunno.. mainli is lipsticks and eyeshadows n lip gloss plus foundation..

how long do you take a bath?
: 15 - 30 mins..

do you use conditioner?
: yupshhh smooth n silky pantene proV.. lol

how do you dry your hair?
: hair dryer.. i kno its bad.. but thn if dun dry.. will get curli.. veri hard to keep out of the face...

what's your usual hairstyle?
: nv comb ler..wake up go to sch hahaa use hand comb..

do you panic if you have a pimple?
: mb.. i get obsessed n try curin it.. haha..

do you often go to the salon?
: not realli.. but i went 3 times when i went bak to singapore the other time..

when was the last time you went to the salon?
: singapore.. some jap salon in orchard...

what did you do in the salon?
: cut, bleach, wash, dye, wash, dry, cut...

have you ever colored your hair?
: twice onli sia.. lol

rebond? have you tried ?
: yahz.. rebond alot of times ler.. veri bad coz kenah split ends.. no gd..

do you paint your nails?
: if got time n nothin to do.. lol

what's your usual get up?
: get up ? of bed? haha.. sit up.. n thn look around thn get out of bed go toilet.. haha...

rubber shoes or sandals?
: sandals

how many piercings do you have?
: one on each girl hehe.. so guai..

what brand do you use?
: pantene? lol.. n libra haha.. n others...

do you have "rituals" before sleeping?
: do at least 30 situps? haix.. but i herd it makes u more fat... boohoo

do you put cucumber on your eyes?
: nopshhh i try b4 tho.. coz i see tv they put.. wat isit for?

do you fix yourself anywhere?
: haix no use.. fix oso no nice.. oh yea! i try to fix my weight.. 70 to 60 k.. lol

do stay inside the toilet for a long time?
: ee i dun like toilet..

do you have crushes and share them with your
friends?
: yea..but at the moment no crushh..

do you blush whenever you see that special
person?
: if ther is a special person i would.. lol.. >.< hehe

well tts the end of this fillup thingy.. yay.. haha.. comeon.. i hav to gooo n do somethin.. 4 - 12.. 8 hours.. so 4 hours on each subject go jas! haha.. well takecare everyone and keep smiling *hugss* gdluckx on examss ^-^




Friday, May 27, 2005, 5/27/2005 03:54:00 pm ♥


g0o0KKkUuUu~i will draw thMz one Dayz.. lol.. Posted by Hello




ExAmz Are hEre >.<
5/27/2005 03:34:00 pm ♥

oh oh oh.. suspense.. eeki first week.. english was all i had.. n thn study study study.. nothin much actualli happened.. thn jap oral.. thn study study study.. this blog is so short.. i dunno wat to rite.. haix.. come on jas.. think.. haha...

ahh its gettin cold.. haix... boring lah.. ok jus now went out with jev after my jap oral.. n thn.. carousel.. we played two games of DDR and play a game of pool~ .. both of us gong one.. haha.. hit the ball go sengek.. jevina so gd!

oh yeah we went to tiffs for english prac the weekend b4 english.. to watch the documentary and romeo n juliet.. tts a nice show nia.. lol.. nice love story.. its modern version.. lol different from the classic version i saw when i was in singapore can hardli remember but the colours were duller...

thnnn library on saturday.. yeah... lol.. i nv knew the library in the city had pass years' TEE exam papers.. lol.. so cool.. lol.. well oki.. hehe.. yups.. veri productiv ok.. lol.. n oso.. we had lunch in city..mr samurai.. haha.. n n n bubBBle teAa~!! hehee.. yupshh.. evrywhers happy when ther is bubble tea.. hwahwa.. >.< kekeke hehe..

tts about all the interestin stuff tt happened.. oh yeahhh n my mum got a sandwich maker for us... haha.. so we used it like alot of times for the first two days.. now we lazy... hahaa.. wahh excitement onli lasted 2 days.. poor sandwich maker.. lol... i gtg start work soon.. gdluck for exams evryone.. singapore and perth and malaysia? lol.. takecare.. keep smiling hehe.. huGgzZz




quizzes~
Sunday, May 15, 2005, 5/15/2005 02:01:00 am ♥

Your Love Style is Agape



You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.

Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.

You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.

Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.

For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

What's Your Love Style?

i act 14, die at 73 wat else.. aiyoz i did alot but thn din copy the html..ok i copy from convos tt i paste hwahwa..

Your dreams seem to show that you're a bit disturbed... but nothing serious.
You may have a problem you're trying to work out in your sleep.
Your dreams tend to reflect your insecurities.
You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind.
You secretly want to hide your dreams from your waking mind.


Your Seduction Style: The Natural
You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen.
Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people.
You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find!
People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast


Your Deadly Sins
Gluttony: 40%
Sloth: 40%
Lust: 20%
Envy: 0%
Greed: 0%
Pride: 0%
Wrath: 0%
Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%
You'll die from food poisoning - and then the natives will feast on your fatty limbs.

so sad.. i jus had food poisonin thn they say i goin to die from it.. haix.. haha....
This is my disorder.. haha

You May Be a Bit Dependent ...
You're more than a little preoccupied with being abandoned.
You need a lot of support in your life, at all times.
It's difficult for you to survive on your own...
And you don't reallly think you ever could.<




Saturday, May 14, 2005, 5/14/2005 04:01:00 pm ♥


chiBi gAara~ juSt watched naruto.. :'( sadzzz  Posted by Hello




FriDay - YEsTerDayy
5/14/2005 01:36:00 pm ♥

sCh.......
human bio test was difficult.. i basicalli guessed all the multiple choice...
english... i din kno wat i was ritin and i got all the names jumbled up..
kumon.. lol was the funest kumon lah.. we din do ne work.. jus tok and look at pens.. hhwahwa
home.. eat ler thn we go garden city to get the medicare refund n adam's game.. lol bought a cake for danita's/jodie's famili.. hehe so after garbo drove to their place.. haha.. thnnnnn go home ler... went online...
jevinas house... lol... played boggle~! thnkux jevin f0r f0od n HavinG uS oVer lol! wEll we watcHed Raise Your Voice.. lol coz last time i went to the house half way so i onli saw the ending half.. lol nice movie.. keke... lol jienni so cute.. keep on sayin " he's so cute!! " after the movie.. haha..
sowii i jus wokeup so this blog abit boring.. cannot think first.. me goin to do hw after... lol takecare n enjoy ur day~ *wAveESs**




yEt an0thEr onE oF th0se..
5/14/2005 04:35:00 am ♥

another strange encounter dream.. haix... i feel like a mental patient.. thers somethin rong with me.. i cant seem to differentiate dreams n reality.. wat happen was i was studyin till quite late at nite so slpt quite late lah.. n thn when i was lying down... i could hear like sounds... haix... so i told myself.. must be these things again.. like u kno how i said the body tired but brain isnt.. yeahh i had another of those stupid encounters.. well the thing is i told myself tt this was goin to happen but thn i had forgotten while it was takin place.. i felt my body cease to move and something pressin into my chest, it was as if i couldnt breathe... and then my legs were lifted by nothing.. i jus felt my legs lifted and i was like thrown to places.. my cousin.. who isnt even here... were sorta like possessed by evil or something coz i could see it in her eyes.. she was hittin me n i felt miserable... i manage to run away to seek help from adam in his room but thn he had those same eyes too and thn both of thm would be pulling me.. i felt like i was goin to be ripped.. on my bed, i herd some footsteps in the kitchen so i was screamin on my bed but found it omost impossible to move and thn i woke up and ther she was again and yet again i ran to adam and yet again ther was tt tormented torturing... after a while they left me alone and i asked my cousin why she did it.. she said "for fun" so i cried in my slp and finalli woke up in reality sayin the words sorri for omost a million times assumin i did somethin rong for this punishment i had to suffer and so i ran to adam's room in tears.. n slept with adam in his bed thru the nite....

one advice.. dun slp too late.. the brain can play tricks on u when ur tired... while in this other world... i thot i was goin crazy coz of my seeing things and also believin thm.. coz b4 tt i told myself not to get affected by wat i see n yet i did... i had no control watever of wat i was seein, doin and hearing... n it all happened in 10 mins which felt so long for me.. next mornin i asked my uncle whether he was in the kitchen but he wasnt ther.. was tt in the dream? i hav no idea.. the next nite i was so afraid of my bed... but i forced myself n told myself i hav to hav faith in god n he will protect me from evil thoughts.. n so i slept well... i realli hope i dun get ne more of these experiences nemore... my blood pressure increased.. i think my heart condition is lower thn the average human.. considering my emotional side of the brain.. im lucki i hav the abiliti to halfly forget stuff n replace it.. if not i dun think my life would be peaceful... id be paranoid n troubled... since tt day.. ive been feelin my brain has been heavier and feelin like a mental patient now.....

oh wells.. ther's my stupid n uncomfortable experience id like to share.. pls dun be slp deprived.. i dowan neone to go thru wat i did... the torment is realli indescribable... so yea.. thnx for reading if u did.... pls takecare and remember to slp well~ hehe.. takecaree sweetdreamss nitenite~ buaixxx ^^




mEm0riixxXx
Tuesday, May 10, 2005, 5/10/2005 11:38:00 pm ♥

oh yEa.. u kno the food poisonin thingy.. i was just like lickin the seasoning.. it reminded me of my childhood "bf" lol he's name was joshua.. n u kno when u were lil.. u din kno wat was goin on... yea.. well.. i was oweis just wearin undies n a tshirt.. so he would oweis ask.. y wasnt i wearing pants.. n they would jus laugh at me... he n my bros.. keke... oh wells.. all i remember.. we used to hold hands n he would take care of me.. we walk to each others houses.. holdin hands walkin up n down... he was not much older thn me.. like 1 or 2 yrs apart? yea.. thn he had those mushroom flavored sachets of seasoning.. thn we would share it... lol imagine stickin our lil fingers in the lil packet.. n thn in the mouth it goes... lol.. thn we climb up on the cars n had so much fun... lol... thn came the day we hav to move out of the neighbourhood... so sad... n thn for some reason i remembered his phone number.. thn at tt time we temporarili stayin at my granmas house arh.. lol.. yea.. so picked up the phone.. n automaticalli pressed the numbers of his phone number.. only to hear the words "im not ur friend anymore" i guess he was angry.. confoosed y i left without tellin him mb? haix.. so i put down the phone with tears in my eyes... n life went on.... y i still remember this... dunno.. mb it was the first boy i had a relationship with.. lol..

anotheR memMorii thAt hiT mE durin my unblogged days waS... the time lil johnny asked my mum.. why do we live if we hav to die... tt was a veri difficult question comin from a 11 yr old boi.. well rite now.. i believe.. we live to have a happy ending.. so wat i value.. my famili, livin life with no regrets, friends, n happiness.. tts wats important to me...

todaAy.. haD mAths test.. i was late.. wat happened was.. i woke uP at 7 rite.. so i was like ok.. 5 mins... n thn i ended up slpin n dreaming.... yet another time i was confoosed between wat a dream is n reality as it is.. i dreamed that i wokeup at 7 rites.. so i thot i had heapsa time.. so i began doin stuff at home slowli.. n thn by the time i fin i was like 7.45.. so i went to change n it was 7.58 wah.. the weather was like all gloomy as well.. i started cryin in bed.. feelin sad for myself.. n was thinkin.. y my life so stuffed up all those crappi stuff lah.. thn i wokeup n it was like 7.32am... ahh.. so i chucked on my jumper n skirt n chucked my pencil case n calculator in my bag... n rannn to sch prayin to god tt evrythin will be alrite.. heng luckii evrythin was ready when i arrived.. n soo lucki the test was a short one.. so yea i manage to finish it.. after applic test me ran home to get change n pack my bag.. n thn went to sch again.. lol..so tt was my climax for the day.. lol.. thn we had english after sch arh.. lol.. tts all... yeah..

aFter having dinner with jodie's famili for mother's day, we watcHed Kingdom of Heaven at carousel.. nice nice.. alot of fightin.. lol n the person sittin next to me rite.. evrytime there was like a scene with dead bodies.. he would go "tsk tsk tsk tsk tsk" 5 times! it kinda got on my nerves.. haha oh wells.. oh n b4 tt.. me played ddr.. lol.. im gettin bad at "if u were ther - jenny".. oh wells.. n durin the trailers.. was sent to get chips for uncle n adam.. so yea.. i went to the bak counter.. the counter guy was realli friendli.. lol.. well he toked alot.. the way he tok quite sweet lah.. lol.. until he said " enjoy ur movie madam" haha madam! i veri old meh? hahaa no lah jkjk..

hav n0t donE anY wOrk tOday.. pLanNnin noT to.. lol should i? nahh >.< i wanna slp~ haha.. tired lor... got chance to dream of chenfeng.. haha.. do u think its sad replacin someone with someone u'll n v b with to hide away ur sorrows.. seems to be workin somehow.. but thn u snap into realiti once in a while.. haha.. oh wells.. i dunno.. i realli think i need someone ther.. kept me motivated last yr.. im so slack this yr.. save me.. lol nahHh i think i'll be orite.. oh here i go tokin to myself again.. see lahz... better go ler.. u nv kno wat will happen if i stay longer. hahaa... ok lahz.. hehe.. takecareeee ntieniteeee.. sweetdreamzzz~~ *huGsszz**




an0ther weEk pAss lia0z >_<
Saturday, May 07, 2005, 5/07/2005 01:52:00 am ♥

ehohz ehohz~!! eh?! another week pass... got sufferin n oso got gd times lorz.. wednesday was jessicaca's birthday1!! yay!! hhehee HapPi bIrthDay~!!! lol~!!!
well that night.. i kinda ate somethin rong.. well.. me n adam was watchin naruto movie hor.. thnz.. thot itd be nice to hav some snackies lorrr... i see adam eat the instant noodle like so nice like tt so i follow him eat.. the thing is tt hor.. we eat it without cookin.. like mamee noodle style.. u kno.. put the seasonin in the packet.. shake shake shake.. hahaa... thn eat it raw like tt... so next mornin... both of us vomited.. thn me n my stupid self.. say.. must go sch.. so go sch ler.. wah.. first lesson.. so uncomfortable.. i started cryin.... scare ama n tiffani.. haix... sowiii... when i feel helpless i cry =x sowiiiiii yah.. so ama brought me to the nurse... thn i saw adam ther too.. haha... so funni

so we slept in two beds rite.. n i was like " yang, i feel my internal organs becoming cold, means thers no blood flow nemore.. how? " thn he say... " oh no girl~ your goin to die!!!" haha so sarcasticalli.. so funni tho.. thn i was like.. i wanna pink coffin... hahaa.. thn he was like..purple?? thn i say "noooo pink!!!" thn i asked him wat coffin he wanted.. lol he said " i want a NORMAL coffin" hahaa.. so funni... i jus cracked up laughin~ we're jus lyin ther in pain~ hahaha.. thn uncle rick brought us home..

me went to doctors... to book appointment.. thn went home slept... thn went to doctors for the appointment.. she said i have a virus!! ahhh.. so scary.. tt it can spread... tell me dun go sch next day... =x but i still went.. i mean i din feel tt bad nemore.. but thn the whole day.. my lips n tongue dry de... stomach was full of air... like twistin n turnin... thn when press.. veri painful~ but i recoverin! no vomitin.. hehee thn mr hart n mr quakernaat like so concern like tt.. ask me whether i was fine~...

jienni met at kumon thnnn walk bak to my place wait for jessicaca to bring us to sizzlers!!! yay!!! had so much fun ther... appetite wasnt like usual tho.. but oh wells.. still had fun~ hehe.. so weird... evrytime i got up.. i was dizzy... stupid girl.. used to be strong n immune to all these germs n stuff... haix... oh wells.. after all im still human.. heheee!! yeshh uncle sumin is here now! so excitin! hehee... yay! >_< welllll~~ tts it for today`~~ hehee.. takecare everyonee~~ keep smiling n realli arhhh takecaree~!!!! *huGgzz* nitenite~ sweetdreams!! ehheee




Friday, May 06, 2005, 5/06/2005 02:07:00 am ♥


cuteyy babiess Posted by Hello




*`+ wo xiang xin *`+
Wednesday, May 04, 2005, 5/04/2005 01:35:00 am ♥

harlL0zx yasH.. one week of sch had pass.. had my english tok.. lol.. went first.. was like.. wahh.. haha.. now i get wat she was tokin about my hair in the way.. today i was lookin at lee-ann n she had her hair like coverin the face.. i couldnt stand it.. haha.. oh wells.. tts somethin i hav to keep in mind.. =x hehe

ehh.. nowadays... ppl arh.. pattin my head, rubbin my head.. dunno lah.. feelin my flat head.. haha.. my head........ hahahaa.. i got funni shape head.. thn yesterday i was tellin thm tt me goin to shave head in uni rite.. thn i realise.. i hav a flat head.. ahh.. how leh? its goin to be realli disgustin too.. like scabs evrywher.. yucki~ mum came on sunday goin bak today rather (wed) waste money.. but wat to do.. she has to work on thursday... cant wait till they retire.. hehe.. havent called my granma yet... haix... i called the other day but it was engaged..

funni thing happened in sch.. i put jevina's cd in laurens bag.. mistake nah.. but thn hor.. the thing is.. lauren was like askin who lost cd at recess.. but thn i din kno wat she was tokin about.. haha.. thn had to go all the trouble to get it bak from the library at lunch... coz she put it in the library jus incase neone come to get it.. hahaa... thn jevina say i cannot unprove my blurness.. bleh.. one day i will.. haha... wouldnt u like to be ther?! haha my applic is gettin so bad.. i hav no idea how to do the countin techniques.. jien so smart! lol she became my tutor for tt liao~ kekee.. >_<

oh yea. had a slpover at my place saturday after library... tiring nite i say.. we did heapsa work... oh yeah! thnkuxx jienni! i din kno u cleaned up after eatin mee goreng?! tHnkuUxX!!! hehe.. thn umm tammei wrote a song n thn we sang it.. makin a new tune.. haha.. quite fun arh~ hehee thn chat online n yah.. internet was dyin~ haha

recently been recordin voice again... mum say gd idea.. haha.. so she evrynite tell me to sing n record.. i sang "someone's watchin over me" by hillary duff n recorded.. sounded so weird.. haha.. din get one of the melody rite.. oh wells.. =x hehe.. nvm lah hor~ hmm.. so yahhhh..

okii wells this is the song tammei wrote:

Thinkin about your love for me
thinkin about my love for you
its absolutely wonderful
wondering about where you are
are you wonderin about where i am?
you left without a word and
never returned.
one look and never returned....

chorus:
you of all of all of all
is the love of my life
tell me the truth honestly
why did you leave?
why didnt you turn bak?
what have i done what did i do
just tell me, dont hurt me, just here me, dont leave me here now

crying in my heart cryin in my mind
feeling sore and numb from all the pain
lookin at the article and your photo
realisin you're there without me
heaven will be my next destination

chorus

Bridge:
Left me alone in this lonely world
left me in the dark
for one moment i had everything
but now its all gone
sorry i couldnt be there with you yet..

chorus
tell me tell me tell me
why did you have to leave now?
it wasnt your time and it isnt mine
sorry i couldnt be there with you


doesnt it sound sad.. woahh she can rite rite? hehee... so gd! yupshh well we onli got the chorus n the first verse tunes.. lol~! need to continue some other time` >_< hehe.. OZAKI... thats the brand of my speakerrs.. haha.. err... so random.. haha.. okii.. wells.. its omost 2.. i needa wakeup for sch hei? haha.. ok.. well nitenite.. takecares evryones.. hehe.. naruto the movie is dled by my bro! cant wait to watch! umm~ well.. i hope everyone will be filled with happiness.. and overcome your fears and sadness ^_^ takecaree n be healthy~ *huGgIeSs**