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Saturday, August 19, 2006, 8/19/2006 12:39:00 am ♥ cRushEd from a cruShh.. he took my breath away... i see him everywher i go... he made my heart skip a day... chances of being together is low... he's so cuTe!!! i cant take it~!!! siGhhhh.... Thursday, August 17, 2006, 8/17/2006 02:09:00 am ♥ pictures can mean a thousand words... 8/17/2006 02:07:00 am ♥ my foundations of love.. 8/17/2006 01:16:00 am ♥ L.O.V.E wat do u think about this word? wat do u think love is? isit somethin u feel, someone u cherish or something u cant explain in words? today.. i watched LakeHouse.. about time and love.. love stories oweis ask me the same question.. is ther realli someone out ther who can make u happy.. not jus that.. but both partners making each other happy.. not jus any happiness.. but in a way whom which no one else can share with you?.. sometimes movies jus develop a sense of false hope for the ordinary ppl like me or u?.. love.. realli isnt tt easy.. i kno movies jus giv us a hope of wat may happen.. but.. my point is angled slightly away from tt hope.. it is the chances of that hope? some may wonder wat im on about.. im jus lettin my mind wonder around the topic.. wat is love? wher is love? when is love? i dun think the definition of love has even been identified to its very essence... love can be expressed in a form of happiness, but oso anger.. love.. i see it as alot of things... love to me is.. an expression of greater devotion n gratitude, a person u can live with and cant live without, a person who gives u happiness at a level beyond others, a time wher two people share momenTs of caress, trust and companionship... wher u can imagine that without the universe, he/she is all u need to survive.. however, love can be expressed to different groups, love for family, friends, pets and passion for ur interests and beliefs.. the love im tokin about is the love beyond all of these.. the love for one individual.. asking myself.. will i be able to be devoted to one person.. at the moment.. when i ask myself this question... the answer is.. no.. mb its the many crushes i've had? but it is still unknown wat the future brings for me.. how i wish for a fairytale to happen.. should i wait ? mite feel like im livin a script from a moving picture.. but i'll grow out of this wonderland.. i kno i will.. one day.. some say it is not good to be dependent on someone... therfore.. my definition of love will be invalid for the majority who think tt way.. but it is true in a way.. that it is human nature to lie and deceive. the woRld we live in.. is filled with sins in which some i may not comprehend.. and if that were to happen.. journey in life would result in difficulty.. dependence on someone may be a disadvantage in being in love? but when do we know its love? does this feeling come as an intuition? or is ther a distinct way of findin out? guess we wont know until its experienced.. i've felt like that.. but mb its the "cant-get-over" factor.. not the "cant-live-without".. i still miss him.. tho is he the foundations of wat i know of love? those firsts words, look, smile, gesture, date, touch, hug, and kiss...to compare.. so far.. is incomparison to any other... now i realise the purpose of first loves.. Love Only till the Very End... written by a love`sick/ lonely/ mind-wandering girl.. xia0-zhen <3 Thursday, August 10, 2006, 8/10/2006 01:38:00 am ♥ sunday was a very memorial day? manY many ppl tt i havent seen foR a loNg timE i saw thHm at tAuRus~ wat a small small woRld... i saw simonne... n church friends a whole group of thm n my primary sch friend from singapore oso.. all in one day in taurus.. wow~? isnt tt jus coincidental? hahahaa but i din say hi or nething.. coz.. they alll dun recognise me >.< i change alot mehx? wahhx hahaha so i jus serve thm food and go collect empty plates etc~ so sad... hAha oh wells it was nice to see thm again~ hehe well nothin muCh has happened its the 2nd week of the semester.. n it feels like the semester has oledi been half gone.. haha.. i havent done nething.. so relaxed ... no essays this sem! hEll yea! ahahaha so freeee~ ok so i hav alot of timE to exercise.~ =x lOlx toml i wanna go gYm hei~ haahaaa make up for today.. i missed body combat .. i shall go 2 hours! see how much i lose.. evn tho i dunno how to use the equipment lolx.. still gooDd! i shall tRY.. hehe sooo yahhh im realli tirEd lErr.. haha sorry about my last blog.. quite sad huh? im not bloggin coz i wan others to feel sympathy.. its onli coz.. i cant realli understand myself unless i write it down.. its like maths but not.. hahaha i know im weiRd.. but tt makes me who i m.. hahah i dun make sense.. cozzz im slpyy =x HAhahahaha oki laaaa u all takecare and nitenite ler~! sweetdreamsss and xoxo love, xia0-zhen Saturday, August 05, 2006, 8/05/2006 02:16:00 am ♥ today... some middle-aged man and woman said tt i had a "cute smile".. made my day actualli.. i started smiling more.. even on this tiring day.. it is the small things in life tt makes a person happy.. well.. me... i guess.. had a random cry jus now... jus felt alot of heart ache.. i feel sad for myself.. is tt weird? do i hav such a sad life tt all i can realli do is cry..? i miss YOU. [haiz...] 8/05/2006 01:20:00 am ♥ the no. of times i see red on me.. in less thn 7 days.. jab my thumb into broken glass.. (broke a glass at taurus..) 2 holes in one finger (haemoglobin in blood- test) 2 holes in another finger (plasma/hematocrit in blood - test) >> became mini bruises NOOOOOO! lolx :D red dots from blood pressure test.. (friend put too much pressure on my arm.. -_-'' some blood vessels popped~ ) sliced the bottom of my thumb.. (with an onion knife~ taurus..) i've been clumsyy- - - - - xia0-zhen. Wednesday, August 02, 2006, 8/02/2006 11:45:00 pm ♥ oweis on the outside.. sigh... i need somebody to love (singinG) hahaa im so boRed.... lOve, xia0-zhen