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cries and lives
Tuesday, May 15, 2007, 5/15/2007 12:46:00 am ♥
crying... raindrops from the sky... my eyes are the clouds and the tears gives rain... as i laid next to my mum in bed... tears began to fall... tts when it all started... she was goin bak to singapore the next day... i cried.. like i nv cried in ages... jus over the fact that she was goin bak... when u cry.. i think all the random thoughts that made u cry before... they come in.. and somehow.. ur tear gauge volume jus increases... thing was.. i was cryin yet.. nobody was ther to comfort me... i curled up under the blanket .. still cold and sick... mummy prob thought i was jus sniffling from my cold.. i wokeup cryin again on mothers day... n oso started thinkin about my granpa... later that day... my fwen tells me his fwen's mother and granpa passed away... ... tt made me think more.. and seeing as to how sympathetic i m.. i started cryin more.. like my day could not be more depressin cryin... the boi i used to like.. he calls... tho i was happi he called.. the contents in the conversation was depressingli sad... i cried more.... do u beliv somethings happen for a reason? well im glad to say... finally.. i can move on without thinking of him... his attempt to get me to hate him.. well.. i think it took its toll.. i dun hate him.. but being around him is.. depressing.. i shouldnt have to feel this way.. but.. oh wells... guess its finalli over... i did one last thing.. a letter gettin my thought out in the open.. a birthday present and me leavin him alone... if tts wat he realli wants... time to move on.... i've learnt.. tt ther's other ppl out ther tt can make a difference in life... and jus waitin to be part of it.. "thankyou for shaping my life" and oso sharing it~ everyone i kno will have an impact on me.. slowli gradualli invariably shaping my virtues and attitudes, values and everythin about me... everyone plays a part in shaping me.. who i m and wat i m... to be honest.. im not totally loving myself right now.. but i wanna thank everyone for being part of shaping my life.... love, xia0-zhen. |
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