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Wednesday, November 28, 2007, 11/28/2007 01:50:00 am ♥

i dunno why but i love this new blogskin =x lol! todayy... went to visit the house again.. lol... rite now im actualli suppose to be packing my room.. but i realli dunno wher to start... i've done my clothes... and yeah... bags... and... that's about it.. everythin else is in lil containers.. i jus took pictures of my wonderful room.. sighss.. i'll post it up next time.. i've got previous house's aulberry parade, leeming one.. lol! .. let's post those up... i miss tt room...





hahahaa omg so messy~! oh wells... im goin bak to singapore on the 9th dec apparentli.. hav to do some work experience with mum and den write a report on it too.. aiks~ so yeah... i think im not goin to be able to go out as much.. still ther at least.. neways..
i wont have internet from 29th november to the 5th decemeber.. coz we moving house.. the line will be cut off.. and transfered to the other side.. LOlx x/ sighs.. unless i can steal wireless from the neighbours.. provided they dun hav security lock on it.. lol.. but i will use that time to try finish my first report... :) and study for gamsat... yes.. i'll be studying these holidays... joy for me.. T_T lol

ohh i jus uploade d my current room.. quite messy still.. but yea... puttin it up for memory's sake! lol




hohoho!!! my other messy room.. will show u my new room soon :P

post post! this better work! haha... =x

goodlucks for murdoch ppl still having exams!!!!!!!!!!!!! n kenni goin to take his jap exam on sunday.. goodlucksss goodlucks!!




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Tuesday, November 27, 2007, 11/27/2007 05:02:00 am ♥



lol i feel like typing more and putting a pic in... well nowadays... sad to admit but i feel lonely... everyone feels lonely at times... sometimes i wonder when n wher it may be that the someone special comes into ur life... itd be easier if he/she jus drop down from the sky and ... u never hav to live alone worrying of any heartbreaks &/or disappointments... do u beliv that someone out ther is realli so-they-say "made" for u?
jus want to be in someone's arms again T_T...
i'll be a good girl n wait patiently...
love, xia0zhen




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11/27/2007 04:56:00 am ♥

newblogskin everyone :P

its 6am again.. i stole stuff from other blogskin and edited this myself.. tts why take so long.. lol! well.. i visited the house today.. its full of gadgets hehe.. the fridges are hidden in the cupboards lol...

toml (which is today.. when i wakeup.) we're goin to be given boxes to pack stuff.. lol.. packing is not going to be fun... oh and i need to do that report T_T sighs...

ok well this is jus a lil update...

my eyes are dying... couldnt decide on a blog.. but this was simple enough(:

love, xiao-zhen




update!
Monday, November 26, 2007, 11/26/2007 03:27:00 am ♥

okiii im glad to say i figured out Saw 4 movie.. the storyline.. it all makes clear sense.. lol.. n yes.. exams are over... OVER! but i hav a report to do.. sighs.. tt will be haunting me till i finish it.. so im tryin to finish it asap! lol! 2nd exam was coolies.. i celebrated by doin major shoppin =x.. spent too much for my own good i think.. =x well im not goin to shop for a while now.. unless i find somethin i realli realli wan.. second exam was quite easy ^_^ glad to say.. third one.. was.. zzz... mcq was soo confusing.. and more over... i finished jus on time.. and din get time to check... i hope i did well in that.. tryin to get 3 HDs this semester.. hopefully... =x lOL! doubt i'll make it.. neways.. for the third exam i celebrated it with amanda... we had lunch at nishi and we tried the myaree utopia - it had a wat seem to be like a mini- bread talk... lol.. how ama put it was.. "omg la its the closest thing to breadtalk here" lol!! well she said somethin like tt.. after that we went to visit serene and thn got eaten up by the house.... serene... didnt pick up my calls so we went to the door... mmm.. her mum... i think too friendly for her own good too! lol!!! she toks alot.. x= so we were stuck ther for about one n half hours.. maybe 2 hours.. jus tokin to her.. lol!! my mouth was gettin dry and so ama saved the day by sayin i think we shall make a move now... n sooo we did.. lol!

she seemed lonely and full of questions... lookin for meaning of life still.. and forever worrying about her only daughter.. ms ducky serene... both of them.. dun seem to get along very well.. =/ but everyone's got their own family stuff ... and watever neone says... family is still family ^^

newayys after tt.. i went to amanda's house.. lol! bummed awhile and den had dinner wid thmm yummy laksa.. :P thanku ama's mummyy~ n den later on in the nite.. she made sweetpotato gingery soup.. if tts wat u call it in english.. lol =x lil do they kno it's one of my fav dish =P hahahhaA! (ama must be thinkin wow?! realli?) yes ama.. its true.. ahhaha.. neways... ummm after that got tired and den drove home...

23rd NOV. fridayyy rachael's birthday was interesting.. loL!! we went rockclimbing.. funn funn.. i got to the top!!! the top~ it was a proud moment while it lasted.. lol.. laughed heaps that day.. ama made the best decision partnering me :P haha!!! coz i wouldnt let her down the rope ~ LOL! many laughters and smiles.. tummy was aching .. good work out.. but maybe it was coz of the gym the previous day but it was fun fun! ama i owe u money dun forget! lol.. after the tiring rock climbing evy n me went to a trip that blew us away... well more like went to a giant fan and let the fan jus blow our hair away and like.. dry ourselves off the perspirations we've accumulated.. haha! we were even singing in it~ :P it was.. u kno how ur voice goes weird when u tok in the fan.. yea.. ther was lots of voices goin weird :P (jus panda n me) hehe.. after that.. weiwei drove us to nandos.. we took some time finding carpark.. but lucky enough.. we found one.. n denn nandos.. we shared a family feast between the four of us (ama,evy,wei n me) free meal coz weiwei treated.. thnkus! n dennn after tt we ventured to the miraculous place of iceyice.. weiwei's first time! managed to fish in another iceyice lover! yes! one mission complete for the win! after that drove home~ online and talkk n talk n talk ^-^

wow din kno i had that much to tok about.. n i was goin to tok about my childhood love stories coz eva was jus reminiscing on her childhood.. lol.. reminded me of mine xD i'll get it over and done with neway... its 5 am.. u better be readin my lil stories.. im sacrificing slp for this blog.. my very first 'love'. his name was JOSHUA.. i think i've written about him before.. lol? well.. he lived jus down the road from me.. and he n his maid would walk up to our gate and look for me :P back den i was onli a lil girl.. wearing underwear wherever i went... i remember once.. he asked me.. why are u wearin underwear? and laughed at me.. n at that very moment the question hit me.. why was i wearing jus underwear? i never realli thought about it.. lol! but i got over it and continued wearin my underwear... so i think he called me underwear girl for a while.. haha.. who cares.. i loved him ahhaha! he'd come down to meet me.. n den for some reason we were always left alone.. maids.. not doin their job of lookin after us.. but neway we'd walk back up to his house.. and den played on his car.. yea... tts rite he has a car.. no not realli.. his parent's car.. i still remember it.. it was a brownish car... the image is still in my head.. lol.. n also faint outlines of his house.. we'd climb onto the cars and sit ther licking mushroom salt packets tt u get from instant noodles.. we shared a packet :P hahahaa.. n we had those flowers wher u blow them and all the white stuff comes off it... we'd play with tt as we walked from each others houses together.. we also played with snails.. =x lOl! weird as it may sound.. it was fun being with him.. but our relationship ended "tragically".. ever since young.. my parents have oweis been moving house... moving here n ther T_T boo.. it sucked coz i never had a long childhood 'love' relationship.. haha.. we moved to our granmas for temporary stay.. n i never knew his number but i knew how my fingers would go on the buttons... i called him.. he said.. "im not ur friend nemore.. dun call me.." and hung up.. how did i react? it was short.. i jus told myself.. "ok.." i put down the fone.. n life went on like normal.. i figured he felt like i left him without tellin him nethin.. tts why he ended it.. he prob went over to our place one day n noticed it was empty.. sad... i realli wonder how he is now hei? lol.. i remember him slightly.. he was tan, quite a cute lil boi :P had the cutest smile hehe...

next boy ah zhi lol.. we only knew him by that name coz that's how everyone called him.. he had a sister.. her name was ah miao.. we were.. neighbours.. like right next to each other in my granparent's hdb apartments.. so we always spend time together everyday~ realli cant remember much of the time i spent with him but he gave me a gold ring once when i was over his house.. it was prob costume jewellery... lol but it was sweet... i remember feeling special and malu (embarassed).. i remember that night i went home feelin so touched?.. neway i remember once i was playin the recorder at night.. n he was tellin me.. i cant play it at nite coz ghosts will come out.. i remember feeling scared.. he was a funny boi lol! parents were strict as nothing! they were nice.. but strict to their children.. mum n granma would always threaten to get them over if we were being naughty.. but auntie oweis gave me food to bring home.. so we moved out again.. lol.. i've seen him recently... he never talks.. mb coz i moved out again.. n left him without tellin.. i dunno but whenever i see him in singapore nowadays when i visit my granma.. its awkward.. i wave.. he waves n dats it... he's tall..

i had a kaima (godmother) and she always had children over her place and there were these two boys..one was a tall indian boy.. we went to sentosa for a holiday trip with family... apparently wherever i went.. i'd hold his hand... and my granpa would get angry.. coz.. he's overly protective over his lil granddaughter.. =/ i dun see the point.. i was so lil... i din even hav boobs bak den.. haha! but yea.. i liked him for jus that trip and a few days of slpin over.. lol.. n den.. he was never seen in my life again.. lol...

there was this other boy.. i went into a room.. n den he came into the room and closed the door... and confessed to me... o_0 he looked at me in the eyes n said.. "i like u" omg.. i was a bitch hei.. all i did was "me? hahahhaha" n ran out to play balloon volley ball with everyone in the living room... treated it like.. nothin happened.. actualli i think i forgot about it once i played balooneyball.. i din realli kno him... but knowin us kids.. they'd prob forget it as well like right after? tho i dun remember him comin out to play ball wid us... =/ well if they didnt forget it as quik as i did...would tt mean i've broken hearts when i was lil.. =x not realli my fault for the first two coz i cant control the moving of house.. when parents says move.. the whole family moves.. =/

these lil experiences tells me that ppl like my personality when i was lil? lol.. i was a proud (by proud i mean a know-it-all) yet shy lil chubby girl... why would they like me actualli? o_0 lOL! bet i was irresistably cute! that's why!!! hahahaha jkjk... yupsh.. n that's my childhood 'love' stories for yas ^^ =P so much to read.. make up for the lack of blog i've been doin

we're moving house soon.. so i dunno if i'd be internet deprived... cant wait till i get my own room wid walk in robe and own toilet... gonna love it!!! hugs!! ok its omost 6 am! but tts been the time i've been slping.. oh n i jus got my parents from the airport.. xD they slpin now tho.. n i should be too.. my time is soooo hay-wired atm... not funny... ok slp time!!! takecareeee evryonee.. baibaiss :P




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Thursday, November 15, 2007, 11/15/2007 01:48:00 am ♥

ok update.. zzzzzzzzz so much pressure.. lol! notti ppl~ newayss.. i kno alot has been happenin but for some reason i cannot seem to remember... watched saw 4 yesterdayyy... o_0 i can tell u i din watch much of it.. haha.. was hidin behind my popcorn for most of it =x lOl so i dunno wat actualli happened.. but the movie was confusinggg ~ very confusing i dunno why ppl are alive and when the bodies where supposed to be.. hahhaa well i'll jus leave it at that..

wat else been happenin.. oo i went swimming.. lol after my first exam~ i wanted to celebrate! yay.. so i went swimmin .. asked ppl to come but they all couldnt make it.. i still went.. alone T_T lolx! wasnt tt bad ba.. i jus swam laps... i den realised how bad i was at swimmin i couldnt even do one lap of the swimmin pool freestyle.. OMG la.. n i kept tryin but i oweis ended up ending the lap with a breast stroke.. x/ sooo im onli good at two strokes.. breast and back... like chicken la.. chicken breast chicken back hahaha! never herd of chicken freestyle rite? lol! dun even think about butterfly stroke la.. ever seen a butterfly chicken? lol! dun get me started ... hehe

well.. exams hav started as i've mentioned... first exam Anatomy and Physiology of body systems... let's see.. i think i studied more than i needed to.. more than half of the exam was irrelevant to the chapters i tried so hard to remember.. oh wells.. still good practice i guess for my gamsat? lol! so im not complaining.. i hope i do well in this exam ~ actualli i've been havin second thots about being a doctor.. not so sure i wanna do it nemore.. its a stressin life.. but i made a decision to go thru this stressful life.. but isit worth it tho? i hope it is~ still thinkin i guess... coz a hairdresser or teacheR... would be easier o_0 omg.. its so different as well.. sighs.. lol ok we'll see how i go..

sighssssss i got a mosquito bite -_- summer is here.. super super hot.. omost melted on monday jus by walkin to the bus stop... by the time i got ther.. eyes were blurred skin was bright red.. i realli dun wanna tan =x haha! ohh yea i saw a fat lady with no arms and legs.. found her amazing... she'd rather go out into the world den jus sit at home doin nothing.. she not ashamed for who she is.. tts wat i admire about her.. i was jus lookin at her with awe... tho it felt rude to stare.. so i tried n kept my eyes to myself.. but i was still in awe.. i think i wouldnt hav tt much pride to go out n face the world.. dressin up as an emo durin halloween.. u can oredi see those eyes... ppl who passed by me were hmm lemme say.. they've nv seen an asian girl being emo.. HAHA! so.. "WOAH!" was one of the reactions i got.. =/ haha pretty interesting.. tho i must say.. ppl do judge books by its cover whether we notice it or not.. lol when i see someone lookin cool i say.. he's cool.. but is he realli cool? lOL guess i'll never know.. ( u kno this paragraph clearly makes no sense .. )

buses... was sittin behind this boy who i herd him askin the bus driver about bus goin on stirling highway.. n was gettin worried he'd miss his stop.. so i made a few attempts to wake him up.. lemme tell u.. this boi.. he can slp.. LOL! becoz i din kno this person.. i didnt try to touch any part of him.. but all i did was.. cough, kik and slap him on the face! hahahaha no... i lied.. i din slap him in the face.. LOL!! i made no attempts of that wat so ever.. all i did was.. push knocked on the seat infront of me.. and whenever the bus stopped.. i'd make him feel an "exaggerated-stop" ahhaha! zzzzzzz doesnt work la.. evn when i got off the bus.. i tried to stamp my feet way out.. his head moved.. but his eyes didnt open one bit.. n so.. my mission failed.. lOL.. hope he din miss his stop tho.. coz.. my stop.. was actualli the end of stirling highway.. haha! oh wells.. mission to save boi from missin his bus stop.. FAILURE! tho i might be rong.. he might jus wanna go to the busport.. so mission woulda been unnecessary too.. oh wells cant hurt to wake him up abit.. i'd love it if ppl woke me up.. coz.. i oweis miss my stop -_- LOL!

OH! jus now... i was at the kitchen.. becoz its summer.. the ants are out again.. they attacked adam's finished porridge -_- zzzzzzzz i really dislike ants... they.. giv me the shivers and the very thought of them jus sends me itching at random surfaces of my skin.. like now.. im scratching! n no its not becoz of the mosquito bite... its coz im jus thinkin about those lil puny black devils! lolx!!! AHHH!! itchy... i did a horrible thing tho.. i managed to grab the bowl and put it in the sink.. n den.. i flushed it down with water... u can see a layer of black on top of the bowl... oMG.. DISGUSTING! black layer of ants.. =S sends me itching again.. i dunno how i got this phobia of ants.. but... its a big influence in my daily life.. imagine my exams... they start tokin about ants.. and i start itching during exams! oMG! i'll stress.. =x LOl!!! but yea.. i drowned a bunch of them today.. may they rest in peace n let me rest in peace too *prays* LOL!

steph is goin bak to singapore in about 5 hours... im goin to drop her off at the airport... i dunno whether i should slp atm... i onli got 3 hours before i leave the house for her.. =/ i wish i could come T_T misssinggg SG!! sighs.. she gotta be ther at airport by 7.30am... im sacrificin my slp and study time for her.. lolx dun get me rong.. im actualli willing to do this! gonna miss her soo muchi~ we went to play ddr and sang karaoke today~ fun! sang my lungs out.. i think both of us.. will be experiencing the loss of voice so very soon.. n id like to say.. i hav a very manly voice.. manlyyyyy T_T sighs.. im a man.. HAHAHAH! -_- oki la.. wells.. i think i hav blogged enough for today lerrr... will update uuu soon... my next exam is on friday.. 9am.. =x wish me luck ba? ^^ enjoy ur days ppls ~~

love, xia0zhen




Friday, November 02, 2007, 11/02/2007 09:08:00 pm ♥

im doin orite in bloggin frequency ~ lol.. see so fast another blog to read :P lol tho i dunno wat to rite actualli.. lol.. nvm somethin will pop up as my fingers run through the keyboard... zzzz.... nothin is comin out.. ahaha!! oh ya !! thankyou ah charm for bringin me around sydney too!!! sorry i forgot =x but i do appreciate it! lol.. last day when i arrived in perth... i left my fone in the airplane... n i only found out when we were waitin for luggage.. so i had to go bak up to the arrival gate and ask them to check for me.. heng they found it.. if not.. id be super depress... =/

im goin to try n drink 3 L of water a day =x lOLx.. u think i can do it? i drank 4 bottles yesterday.. tts.. 600ml X 4 = 2400 >_< mmm i was short one more bottle o_0 LOLx!! oh wells... todayyy i shall try to do 5 bottles.. i've done.. one.. LOL! zzz go to toilet so mani times last nite tryin to fulfill this water mission ~ =/ i dun like goin to toilet nia.. waste time =x haha!!! newayssss!!

wat i do todayyy?? woke up at... 9.30.. stayed in bed n slpt till 10.30 got out of bed.. lol.. got readyyy... met with serene at saigon .. we had saigon chickn rice and the raw beef horfun soup .. the standards went down and the prices increased x/ chickn rice used to be sooo nice.. LOL! i even purposeli wore a chicken shirt coz we eating chicken rice!!! xD hahhaa... disappointing lol.. mm after that.. junhao picked us up and den both of them waited in the car at my house.. so that i can pack and go to the computer labs with them to study.. o_0 i think we ate too full.. i read lil bit.. fall aslp =x lOLx!!!! dennnn by 5... i cannot tahan ler.. so i go home.. lol... den... doink.. go slp =x wakeup.. online abit.. den eat dinner~ lol.. TODAY is Eat slp eat slp la o_0 so baddd lOlx... din even exercise..

yesterday i went to do body combat... hurt my ankle..~ can ren but den sometimes when walkin around its got this sharp feeling x/ hope nothin serious wid it~ mmm adam got braces yesterday.. mum wan me to get it.. but i'll prob get it when i dun hav stuff to worry about =/ should hav done it in highsch.. well that's it for today =)

love,xia0zhen