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Sunday, August 31, 2008, 8/31/2008 05:52:00 pm ♥ OVERFLOW!!!! (disaster) did i mention the pot was super full as well? lols!!! here's another picture it even killed the fire =x hahahaha ok~ will keep ya posted! 8/31/2008 05:13:00 pm ♥ PRE-DIET (Preparations) Today, i got up pretty.. late.. ahhaha! atm im watchin a taiwan series called Romantic Princess.. its only around 14 Episodes so i decided why not.. ehehe.. Angela is in it.. so is wu zhun and calvin so yeah... check it out at crunchyroll.com if ur interested.. lols (good morals in ther - family and money) so after one or two episodes of that series.. it was time to set out and buy the ingredients for this new exciting devious diet plan xD what i got~ 2 half-heads cabbage ( i realised when i was cuttin it up that.. i should hav jus bought a half head coz it was more den enough) - i put one half-head in, the other half.. i'll jus cook soy vege wid it =) 6 large green onions one bag of tomatoes which was quite alot... half a bunch of celery ( supposed to hav one bunch.. but dun realli like celery.. n it looked like ther was more den enough) 4 carrots ( supposed to be 3 but i bought extra.. doesnt matter carrots are good! so i dumped those in) one container of sliced mushrooms v8 vegetable juice Very Very first step was to cut all of them to the size u wanted .. jus imagine drinkin it later.. wat size stuff do u wanna put in ur mouth? lols.. neway after everythin cut and prepared..i.. 1. Sauted the onions until it was smelling yummm! lols.. 2. dumped the cabbage in and stir thru 3. next was the carrots stir stir 4. mushrooms in! mix mix 5. celery and tomatoes in! 6. 8 cups of water and 2 cups of v8 juice! 7. now we sit and wait.. at low heat it looks kinda like this... 5.15pm will try to wait two hours for the cabbage soup to magnifisy! (be magnificant!) tomorrow is going to be an exciting day! only trouble is.. i dunno wher to keep this soup... the pot is too big =/ hmmmm guess i'll put it in lil containers =) yayyy!! oh and good news.. i wokeup lighter den 66~ that means i get a kick start in my diet! in no time i'll be within my goal weight xD exciting no? =D DIET PLAN COMING SOON! Friday, August 29, 2008, 8/29/2008 04:45:00 pm ♥ jasmine's got everythin bak on track for her.. her studies hav been consistent and yes... next week will be the start of a new unnotti girl~ yes! no more playin around wid words. it is time.. yes TIME. to be serious. heeeeeeeeee =D THE CABBAGE SOUP DIET! (My Own Original Style) by the end of next week.. i'll let u kno if it works =D i'll even rite my daily progress and intake right here soooo.. i can see if i slack off with nething.. and also.. u hav reason to tell me off xD if i do cheat. my program basically consist of: -EXERCISE -Vegetable V8 Juice -Oranges and Apples -CABBAGE Soup -Soy Shake plus one special secret ingredient. This is my diet. imma try do it for 7 days!! Starting date : 31st August 2008. DIET PLAN: CABBAGE in xia0-zhen.blogspot.com Coming soon!!!! so STAY TUNE! haha! <3 jas-zhen. happy birthday michael~ 8/29/2008 04:00:00 pm ♥ HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHAEL! hope you're enjoying today. xoxo 8/29/2008 12:59:00 am ♥ continuous criticism. monday, thursday, friday. only sammi knows how i feel T_T even she cant take it being next to me while he's blabbering about WHO KNOWS WAT! its asif the whole world is against him.. why does he complain about everything...... JUST MAKES ME WANNA SLAP HIM ACROSS THE FACE AND SHUT HIM UP. today. i tried. no contact. no nothing. coz nothing good comes out of his mouth. he printed me lecture notes. damn! is this some kind of payment for how he treats me. i accepted. so we talked. it was normal. outside the lecture... he starts again.. wat pisses me off is.. he can admit to doin it jus to me.. why me.. its not like i did nethin to him.. friends say its his way of showin his affection... PLEASE DONT MAKE ME VOMIT... (im gettin sick atm.. sore throat, coughing - this must be my lucky day... -_-) he's worst than anyone i kno.. anythin i say... never gets thru ... he tells me he's joking but seriously.. how long can a joke last.. i'm harrassed in uni.. primary sch and middle sch... but in uni.. my esteem cannot get any lower... i even told him i was goin to kill him one day.. i showed him joy of never to see him for a minute.. i gave all signs that i did not want his presence... the moment he sees me alone.. he stands there and MOCKS me.. i was freaking washing the dissecting tray! leave me alone..... i dun mean it.. but really.. OMG can he stop?! i dun like runnin away from problems.. n i dun like avoidin ppl... but he's really THICK.. never knew these kinda ppl existed.. sheesh.. for the first time.. i raised my voice and stood up for myself.. it was many times actually.. jus to this one person.. to tell u the truth nothin can get thru the thick skull of his... it was a waste of effort.. i wont give up.. it'll affect him one day... if u dun already kno.. not many people are capable of making me angry.. angry as in.. so angry that i wish they never appeared infront of me for a lengthly period of time.... he's an utter idiot.. p.s. sorry about this burst of anger blog.. i will try forget this.. but it's really took the toll for impact... (if that makes sense). Thursday, August 28, 2008, 8/28/2008 12:04:00 am ♥ its been 2 days.. im 66! soo 2 kg down! woot! yay yay xD happy again.. but nooo still hav to lose to 62... within the new month~ michael's birthday is coming =D i havent started wid the present.. but he isnt back yet so blehh.. i'll do it later xD hehe! hmm still got time still got time xD sings: im caught livin in a world filled with love so when raindrops fall infront of me like rain from above i can brush my troubles awayy now that deep down inside i have sunshine in my life You Don't Miss Your Water - Craig David Unbelievable - Craig David my favourite songss then and now =) still kinda! lol craig has such a sexy voice! lols hahahah still sexy!! check this one out xD its the more current craigy xD Let's Dance - Craig David hehe! okkk sharing youtube songs on my blog today ^_^ oh yea im happy coz i studied quite a bit this week proud of myself =D love, xia0-zhen Monday, August 25, 2008, 8/25/2008 11:13:00 pm ♥ OK JASMINE IS ON STRICT STRICT DIET AND EXERCISE~~~!!!! i stepped on the scale an a number 8 came up... so atm.. im 68... im goin to catchup wid michael's weight soon! he jinxed me!! lol! jk.. ahh.. ok.. control jas.. i think its the day after day of icecream... =/ sad.. i knew somethin was up when i realised when my tummy seemed to bulge.. never used to do that :( okiii omg i forgot about my oranges! better eat them toml.. put them in the fridge.. to let thm last longer mmmm ~ that shall be two of my three meals ORANGES!!! ehehehs! gosh.. how did i end up bak up in the upper half of the sixties.. this is goin to stress me more.. =/ today is jennie's birthday =D happy birthday jien! hehee.. went to visit her and wei was already ther.. after tt we tagged along eva and michelle for dress shoppin~ sighs i realli want that dress from miss shop... i'll jus tell myself that i'll think about it until its out of stock.. that way i dun hav to spend 99 on a dress.. that i'll prob wear jus once.. =/ sadddddddddddd should i buy it??? ahhhhh nvm.. lose weight first =) sighs ~ JASMINE FEELS FAT NOW. STRESS!! leave her alone for a while.. life ? Wednesday, August 20, 2008, 8/20/2008 03:41:00 pm ♥ when i was little i never questioned about life. tho i remember a day when my older brother brought up a question to my mum. "what is the meaning of life when everyone has an end to it?" at that time.. perhaps i was too young to really think about that question.. i thot about it for that day.. n the next mornin i woke up.. it was as tho the question vanished and we live our daily lives per normal... i believe.. life can be thot as a series of memories incorporated together to give a story.. and wat i find is.. every story has an ending.. after every story.. i learn about the values and ideas that were presented in them.. i believe.. life.. is somewhat the same... we are born into the world with the inevitable involvement wid people around us.. life.. is also the way we interact with others... life gives meaning to life... to other's life.. without knowin another's life... there is no life.. when life ends.. like a story.. another person learns from that life.. and so the cycle goes on.. memories are the words of the story... collection of words that give meanin to the story.. without memories... life cannot exist in one's mind.. wat den is the meanin of life without memories.. my first experience of an ending.. wasnt the fact that i stepped on ants... it was when i witnessed my grandmother laying in her coffin.. with her eyes closed... the last time i saw her.. was at the hospital.. at that time.. i was jus happy to see her.. i didnt understand her situation.. but she was happy to see me too.. the day seemed blurry to me.. but the feelings were still there.. she was in a hospital.. she called me "ah girl".. i still remember her smile.. it was warm.. i hav to admit i dun remember much of her.. i remember her voice, her appearance, her sweet potato soup wid glutinous balls, and most importantly her presence.. she hasnt ceased to exist in my memory.. and for that.. i am happy.. when i think of my pets.. i look at them.. n think.. wat is their meaning in life.. i believe.. survival is another meaning.. to eat and sleep and live for a tomorrow.. evn tho u dun kno wat toml mite bring.. i think of wat makes them happy or wat gives meanin to their lives... food.. caress.. attention.. hugs.. company.. eye contact... barking.. they value the same things i do.. existence... some say people are more afraid of being forgotten den to forget.. i believe so.. to be forgotten completely would mean havin no meanin in life.. to forget something.. however.. is only losin a part of life.. in that sense.. we are selfish.. today.. i cried.. it hit me when my brother asked me "why do u cry?" i was shocked at the fact that i couldnt explain why i did.. it was a feeling i couldnt explain.. he said.. "coz u were sad?" .. it would be normal to think that we cry because we are sad.. but that probably is not oweis the case.. i did not feel that i was sad... i felt...... to tell u the truth.. i didn't kno how i felt... perhaps i was so lost in the moment.. that after i cried.. i forgot the reason as to why i did so.. what i feel.. is confusion.. so i realise.. to think about life is confusing... if i forget why i cry.. if i dun understand myself.. i cannot say that i understand life... to find the meaning of life.. we cannot say.. but for now... all i kno is only that meaning of life is subjective.. ther is no one meaning to life... but wat life comes before us.. we take it and build it ourselves.. so life.. is wat we make it.. my opinion on life.. could be different to yours.. experiences and memories we hold are different.. life wouldnt be to find one meaning to life.. becoz that would just lead to confusion... ther are many reasons.. for me.. life is living everyday for a better tomorrow.. life is learning about experiences... and life is doing what you want.. life is not jus being alive... but to create life.. i beliv it doesnt exist as one.. but many.. life can be thot of as you and me. no life is truly alone - this, we must never forget. love, xia0-zhen. Sunday, August 17, 2008, 8/17/2008 06:10:00 pm ♥ i jus had three yes three whole oranges by myself =D was supposed to have four but i offered one to my dearest older brother and he took it =) life has been nothing but interestinggly eventful.. lol! no not really actually. lols! im bored. i wan to study but i can never seem to start. i miss the notti big baby. oh yes! my granma is coming over september.. was so happy to hear that.. it was cute how i could hear the excitement in her voice.. it would be good to have someone to hug and pinch at home for more den 2 weeks.. xD she told me that she's goin to teach me how to cook.. n i cant wait =D i quite enjoy cooking.. preferably not alone i guess.. dun realli like being alone.. but we have to live wid it.. coz only alone can one think for themselves and not rely on others so much.. the way i see it.. u live your own life.. u choose ur friends.. u choose ur own decisions.. but dont affect others for the sake of jus thinkin about urselves.. oweis put urself in another's position when u make decisions that involve not only you.. i dunno how i started tokin about this but yea.. if u depend on people too much.. sorry to say but it only makes u weaker as an individual.. becoz friends really jus come n go.. nothin is eternal in this world.. the only person u can fully rely on and trust.. is no other than urself.. when the world turns their bak on u... n thers no one else.. man i should rite a song.. hahahs.. but yea i dunno.. u also choose to spend ur life with one person.. n if that person betrays u.. well its not all his fault.. coz u chose to trust him too.. n i dunno wats happenin to this blog.. coz i swear its all a bunch of mambo jumbo.. ah! i wanna go mambo XD yes anyway.. jas is bak on her diet.. =D in no time.. in no time =D jus u wait xD hahahas... i helped greg in open day.. being a demonstrator for powerlab.. i took the courage to actually tok to people that came to open day today about biomedical science.. alot of "cant find the words" moments.. but im proud of myself.. for initiating... my people skills is gettin better i guess.. oh gosh i rote this 3 hours ago! PUBLISH! xoxo zhen Sunday, August 10, 2008, 8/10/2008 01:13:00 pm ♥ im back n still happy xD hehe.. so what have i been doing these past week~ there was salsa on saturday.. went along to it and i must say.. we are naturals at salsa xD it's how our feet can take steps evn when swung around unexpectedly.. kinda reminds me of ballroom dancing.. lol.. i hav the tendency to go bak to the natural position of one hand on shoulder and the other hand in one's hand~ lol! it was quite fun actualli.. hehe it was eva's birthday not long ago~ had karaoke and a few drunk souls~ lots of puking involved~ illegal actions were made and i can say overall.. most of us had fun xD hehe~ happy birthday again eva ^_^ havent seen tiff n tam in ages too~ n they came so that was gd ^_^ hehe! wat else has happened? parents are bak again ^_^ so lots of catching up and home food =) hehes~ olympics is on.. opening ceremony was beautiful~ except for the meaningless shouting and hitting of the drums in the first bit of it.. i was asking my brother.. "what are they doin?" nobody had an explanation really.. other den that.. lol.. it was great =D tho i found myself crying while watching the individual smiling faces appear on screen.. it was unexplainable too how i could get emotional over that.. it was.. touching i guess =) tell me i'm normal.. did body combat which made my body ache for approximately 6 days~ shows how much i have or havent been doing to keep my fitness on healthy level.. lol! meh~ really shouldnt worry about it so much.. nature will take its course =D i hav a plan. when i go to my semi-ideal weight then only after that can i go back to shopping =) great plan.. hehe! it not only saves money but i get to loose weight too xD oh and i did treatment to my hair.. ppl's been saying i look better in long straight hair.. =/ i think i look better wid curly tho =/ but for a change maybe i'll keep it long and straighten it as well as with black and bronze streaks~ =D bak to old sch fashion xD mb brighter hair? we'll see wat i surprise u wid =D okii i should go hav somethin to eat and put my head into books =) love, xia0-zhen.