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Friday, October 31, 2008, 10/31/2008 11:20:00 pm ♥
okii im back ^^.. wat happened so far.. well.. michael called on the sunday and thursday~ so those were my happy days =Dmonday - the meetin wid the dean was quite ok actualli.. she was very nice with the whole situation and onli there to get the truth so yea~ i told the truth =D tho i think a fwen didnt.. he claimed to hav no involvement in that.. but lil do they kno that he is the person that initally planned it all.. and got everyone else into trouble.. jus coz he's student coordinator and gettin into medical sch in notredame... =/ part of me wants him to get punished and perish... n the truth come out~ but i'll let fate take its course... he realli doesnt deserve it... id make a better doctor.. T_T i dunno why but.. why are the people i kno that get into med.. are so.. sigh lets say they onli know wat to say but they dun mean it wid their hearts.. neways i stayed up till 6am tuesday finishin off my pbl report =D yay
on tuesday had 4 hours slp wake up for work.. den went to buy hope's birthday present and ama followed me home n toked to my granma.. den i drove us down.. n wei picked us up wid charles n got jennn n we all went to celebrated ama's birthday with gelares and utopia~ which was very funfun =D hehe.. we had a small cake so cute ! hehe.. happy ama dayy =D hehe nnn we played wid buibui after ^^.. he makes me happy hehe! ohhhhh yeaaa nn i think jennie's love story is about to begin =D mwahhaha! tt would be good to watch =D hehehe! so excitinggg~ this sat would be their first date i think~ hahhaa wid fwens... i'll keep yas updated =D
wednesday was study day.. did quite alot =D includin heroes and gossipgirl HAHA!
thursday.. studied for repro and also tried to study for labexam which was today (friday) grr.. dun think i did too well on that.. i thot it was more prac work.. onli found out it was theory too when we were doin it.. boo... why cant this forensic teacher tell us more details on wat we are gettin tested on.. sighs... lost 8 marks havin no effort on questions.. leavin thm blank.. we onli had 2 mins on each question/station.. n the time was up.. we had to move on.. boo.. michael called today =D i thot he'd be too busy and disappoint me again but he didnt~ was happy ^_^ coz he gave me reason to believe his words again.. lol! he said he'll call on sunday~ but he's stressin over assignments.. so i guess i'll giv way.. since i myself stressin over them too :(
fridayyy was the lab exam i explained earlier on.. n hope's birthday party ^_^ it was realli fun coz the house was decorated with the halloween theme.. and omg.. CHIHWAHWAs! they're adorable! i always thot of them as ugly.. but seriousli.. they're sooo cute.. lol! so small tho.. i dun think they're huggable size.. lols! prefer my thomster.. but yea! they're realli cute too =D aahahha! i wouldnt mind a lil chihwahwa runnin around the house xD heheh! we took heaps of pictures which sammi is plannin to post up on facebook so yea =D tts comin soon ~ HAPPY 21st BIrThdayy HOPE! hehee =D
toml is serene's party at metros~ dun think i'll be ther for long but yea.. we'll see.. i did not do ne study at all today.. which means im behind my study organisation~ bad.. but i gotta catchup on slp .. lol.. granma n gran aunt is goin bak on the sunday.. so i feel bad that im oweis studyin n not spendin time wid her tokin.. ~ hope its oki .. prob goin to miss her to bits when she leaves.. n the house.. is goin to be empty once again wid no one to hug in bed... booo.. tts when my bolster becomes useful =D but mummy's comin bak on the 5th.. hopefulli it doesnt affect my study.. mb u wont see me much online next week.. its goin to be a whole week of hell.. =D lab -hell ~ gotta wish me luck againn...
goin into lab mon to thurs next week 9.30am - 5.30pm at murdoch..... prob stay ther till nite n den go home~ provided my mum isnt in aus.. if not i'll go bak n make my presence known =) oh and another major news... the economy sucks~ its affecting us majorly... so saving up time =D gettin a job on the first of december =D prob ring back the amana living for age care supporter ~ the pay ther isnt bad either and its good for experience =) either that or i'll apply to more pharmacies =) orrrr i can do both! lookin forward to that! hehe!
love, xiaolong.
Saturday, October 25, 2008, 10/25/2008 01:22:00 am ♥
haha i did not end up doing wat i had expected to do today. i was supposed to do my 2 tests tonite but i onli did 1 attempt of 1 of the test.. well it was better den nothin.. at least now i kno wat to study for.. i'll finish it off toml =D well actualli it was quite eventful between my last post and this. which was onli about 5 hours. lol! i finished my post and immediately went to irene's house to gib her the bestest haircut of her life.. she was happy wid the results but i thnk it coulda be perfected if i wasnt too restrained by time limit.. hahaha however, it took approximately one hour for me to give her a complete jasminified look =D meaning a look done by jasmine (: haha! another sucess story =D but i need to improve my efficiency.. lol should be those 10 min hair cutters wow! mb next time i'll hav a look at how they cut.. not those that take more den 1 hour for cut blow dye n dry hahah! i was awarded with some help for my PBL report. she remembered! love! well being a biomed student i had no idea of how a pbl report should be written. and irene a med student had to deal wid pbls everyweek. even tho PBL for them did not involve a report to be handed in. they did hav hand outs that looked to be helpful to me and the how to structure my report. and so irene willingly helped out by sendin me a few copies in email =D THANK YOU IRENE!! =D had a look over it. i'm pretty sure its goin to help me quite abit =Dneways when i was in deep thought this evening, i din really tok to anyone and besides, none of my close fwens were on.. jason well not sonson.. but jason from highsch said hi.. these are one of the random few times that we toked about anythin... n he sounds like a realli nice guy... i remember cyrus asking me whether i wanted his email before.. n i said no.. coz i was jus maybe a lil scared of him.. guess my judgement fails me... coz so far.. he leaves a very good impression (well at least on msn).. he's easy to tok to, got good sense in fashion, and also such a sweet guy nevertheless... a good friend to have =) he is also my next customer for jasminification =D nice to kno ppl trust me wid their hair =D evn if i tell them it does go wrong at times haha! oh wells.. thank god hair does grow bak =D
went to hungry jacks not long after comin bak from irene's coz i promised adam last nite when i was sleeping that i'd go wid him =/ LOL! who goes to u n say lets go blah blah jus when ur about to slp! oh yes, my brothers do. hehe but yea i came bak and found that my laptop had restarted. n when i logged in. jason was also the first one to greet me. kinda gives u that guardian angel feeling. when ur down and someone out of the unusual comes to giv u a hand. it was nice to tok to someone different. i learn so much from people. thank goodness for that =D wat is life without them =) i would go on about existence with existence on the philosophy channel but i shall not.. instead, i'll go to bed and to dreamland =D the only place i seem to see michael poo~ haha! newaysss monkey is comin bak on sundayy yayyyy~ well he said he would so yea =D excitement for everyone =D miss him soooo muchi that ive been havin continuous dreams of him~ i think the dream rate of mikey overwrites everyone elses.. ahaha sorry my fwens lol! but michaels in the lead for #1 most dreams in short period of time #2 most number of continuous daily dream counts in jasmine's dreamland =D hehe!
love, zhenzhen.
Friday, October 24, 2008, 10/24/2008 05:58:00 pm ♥
ok. after coming back from uni , i continued my uni application processes when i received a call for an appointment with the dean of health science. you may wonder why the dean would wanna see me. visits to the dean as i've watched in movies could only mean, you've done tremendous work and progress and they'd like to congratulate u or u've done somethin that has violated the school regulations. as great as my results may look, they are not deserving of a invitation to meet the dean. as much as i hope it was maybe an award for my hardwork or the change of mind on lettin me in for med interview, somehow i suspect that it had to do with why sammi called just 2 min before i received this call.she had also received a call for an invitation to see the dean. this is the situation. our forensics analysis unit does not provide lecture notes for examination preparations and therefore we are only expected to attend every friday's lecture to attentively write down the slides projected on the screen. i had no problem with that because i did write my notes, altho i did fall aslp but i would get the notes off sammi. i noticed that after each lecture, the teacher would delete the file on the desktop and so i thot of a brilliant plan of retrieving it after class from the recycle bin. of coz, because its against my own morals, i did not do it but a friend did. so for the few lectures after, we shared these notes. i still wrote notes in class but did not do it with too much to worry about. i didnt think i was doing anything wrong by using these notes because i believed that these notes could be taken off by sonya, another friend who did the unit in last year (when lecture notes were posted up)
today after class, i went out of class and waited for my friends to come out. they didnt come out for a while. when i went back in to check. they were all sitting/standing around.. stilll... when the class had already ended.. i asked them what they were doing.. and one of them had said that the exam was on the computer.. i was in shock.. they had retrieved the exam in their thumbdrive.. even tho i thot it was down right unfair.. i did not want anything to do with that.. and so i left the room, went to hand in my RSVP for graduation form, and get my transcript i needed for uni applications for next yr..
just when i was telling my friend on wednesday night that i would not stand helping him cheat on the test which was on thursday. i was den said to be toooo goodie goodie. i explained that everytime i do somethin not goodi goodie.. something bad always happens... (it wasnt the first time he'd ask me to help him cheat in an test... thank god i always manage to sit quite a distance away from him..) and now somethin bad is happening to me.. it's like someone or a god is lookin over me and judging my every move... maybe this is another sign to remind me not to do nethin bad.. coz i oweis seem to have to pay a price for all the wrong things i do.. it prob is my punishment for suggesting such a deceitful idea which led to a bigger problem evn tho someone else mitta noticed it and told them neways... but yeaa... i do feel responsible somehow..
but i really hope i am not involved in this accusation of cheating, because
#1 It's not me - it goes against all my morals.
#2 I didn't do anything wrong.
#3 Everything would fall apart if i was accused wrongly.
but who knows.. maybe this visit is really jus a commendation of some sort.. tho its quite doubtful.. hmms besides, i do have 2 online tests im trying to finish by tonite and 1 PBL report which i have to do on the weekend. i dont have time to worry about this.. until monday 11.30am..
stressed beneath the surface, jasmine.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008, 10/22/2008 02:12:00 pm ♥
yes today is the last day to study for neuroscience~ i managed to get second in the last assessment so maybe i'll try to aim for first~ dun think it'll be possible this time.. coz i've been slack.. doesnt help that the test is also goin to be more difficult.. accordin to our lecturer.. LOL! oh wells~ actualli i havent been slack.. i've jus.. been.. i dunno how else i would put it.. but i think i got too used to cyrus' company while i study.. where in the world would u find a friend who would accompany u while u study.. and listen to ur lectures wid u.. ask questions out of the blue.. and realli giv ur brain a workout.. well.. yes i do hav fwens who would for example, jien helped me once for my theology lectures.. thanks for that jien! actualli jien's been helpin me start these few days too~ and for that im grateful! love u jien! *hugs* but its so different coz i guess cyrus had nothing else to do.. so he was not onli ther but oweis there... n u cant expect everyone to be ther 24/7 when u wan them to be... in a way.. i felt like i was taking advantage of that.. sorry..i think i've moved on.. i've done my chemistry lectures on my own.. but i jus find it hard to start without him... i mean.. wats the use of goin to a normal lecture in uni.. if ur the onli one attending it.. right? and as an external unit.. u jus do it in ur free time... with no one.. i guess thers good and bad... cant hav everythin rite..
i dun like it how im dependent on others.. oweis thot i could do things on my own.. whether its jus goin somewher, putting my clothes in my room (yes.. someone does that for me.. n i realli dun like it.. coz she puts it in the rong places.. i had a whole system in my wardrobe.. but its ruined T_T).. yes its nice to have someone do it for me.. but its doin it urself that realli feel that achievement i reckon.. like.. washing my car.. completing an assignment.. getin ur grades after hard work of study... the onli word to describe that feeling = SHIOK! .. haha! not saying im not dependent on people... i think im very dependent of mummy especialli when it comes to surviving in general... but i try to be independent in other means... infact i think im actualli learnin how to be dependent on friends more.. not realli.. but u kno wat.. i dun think i kno wat im tokin about atm.. so i'll change topic..
talking about doin stuff ourselves... i remember in middle sch.. we used to vacuum the house, clean the toilet, wash the clothes, iron and fold... every sunday.... well i'd used to help mum... i oweis loved it coz.. after all that... the house smells so nice n clean... and also prob coz it was one of the times wher the family got together to make the house clean... which i loved.. haha i think i oweis got the toilet and poo duty... i loved cleaning the mirror squeaky clean.. HAHHAHA mb coz i can see my beautiful reflection xD haha jkjk.. but yea.. im goin to tell u.. evn tho i was a tubby girl... i was still vain as~ ahhaha! thats jasmine for u =D i'll never forget johnny's friend tellin me randomli one day.. when i was onli in primary 3 it was.. he said... "ur actualli very pretty.. but u hav to lose weight.. " which led me to think.. losing weight was my key to absolute beauty.. i think its now known as everyone's key ahahah~ but actualli i think i put on more weight after hearing that.. n now.. im stilll tryin to lose weight.. oh wells.. i'll take my time.. ama say she'll still love me if im obese xD hahahha! n im sure my other close fwens will still.. =D such loveli fwens i have hahaha!
neways i think i better get bak to study... steph's comin later =) anddddd imma still contemplating goin to badminton after study... ~ jiayoojiayouu ~ bloggin helps start study i reckon =D
love, jasmine.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008, 10/21/2008 08:04:00 pm ♥
i took roy to the vet for haircut n shower today.. when i picked him up.. the vet says he's overweight T_T ohhh noooo and he has to lose at least 5 kg.. thats right! 5kg!! lols.. okii well imma set out a plan to help roy and myself!~ the magnificent plan is to walk wid roy every second day startin from today =D so yea i'll walk him laters.. after i finish my notes for a lecture~ hehe.. i have neuroscience assessment on thursday~ wish me luck =Dsoo what's been happening since my last blog.. i had avocado in vanilla icecream like mb 10 mins ago.. mushed it good! as disgusting as it sounds, it was actualli a very delightful taste to have on one's own palate =D my popo's and my own of coz~ haha~
went to visit jien today and spent the remainding time studying and chattin to her =D my bus time changed to 5.14 so i waited.. saw berfie at the busstop.. he's still the same old.. well i dun think nethin else happened.. nothin realli on my mind atm except for the reports and assignments ~ i m quite behind for that chemistry unit.. grrr wish i could smack it away =x lol!
monki is coming bak in no time.. onli 4 days! lols! i jus realised.. time passes fast when you dont realise it.. but when it comes to waiting for something.. u realise its taking forever~ i hope u actualli keep to ur word this time notti boi~ disappointing me too much tsktsk mehh
im yawning .. i think this shall be it ~ lol!
thankyou peepals
love, xiaozhen
Sunday, October 19, 2008, 10/19/2008 10:36:00 pm ♥
awww this made my day... i thot i was becoming a crappy person from all the complaining and gossiping... thanks danni =DBig D 忍 says (10:23 PM):
u noe sumfin jassy
jaѕмiиe » ♥ says (10:23 PM):
wat?
jaѕмiиe » ♥ says (10:23 PM):
i kno heapsa things?
jaѕмiиe » ♥ says (10:23 PM):
lols
Big D 忍 says (10:23 PM):
i realised over these few times wen i get a second opinion from u
jaѕмiиe » ♥ says (10:23 PM):
?
Big D 忍 says (10:23 PM):
its neva ev ateurns out the way u fink things to b
Big D 忍 says (10:23 PM):
wat im sayin is
Big D 忍 says (10:23 PM):
god..
jaѕмiиe » ♥ says (10:23 PM):
huh?
Big D 忍 says (10:24 PM):
U R THE MOST NICEST PERSON I HAF EVA MET
Big D 忍 says (10:24 PM):
LOLs
jaѕмiиe » ♥ says (10:24 PM):
wat u mean?
Big D 忍 says (10:24 PM):
u bring about all these positives to ppl though it may not b true
Big D 忍 says (10:24 PM):
but it does help comfort ppl
i remember cyrus saying that once.. :) i miss cyrus... i miss my mum too... and that notti monkey...
i guess im still nice.. hahaha! lili once told me.. im only allowed to be mean to people who would be mean bak.. =/ those who take advantage of u.. u take advantage bak.. but i told him im only goin to turn into them if i do that... he says i'll never turn into them.. i thot i was but maybe not =D
wat did i do today.. i had dimsum wid steph.. din eat much.. my appetite has really gone down.. oh wells.. if this makes me loose weight why not =D pohpoh cooking has been awesome.. reminds me of the younger days.. hehehee today.. all my brothers came to the table to eat... ther was no bringing of food to the computer room.. i love family time together ^_^ one day i'll post up a family photo =D prob will take one on grad day =D hehe! if they come ~
u kno who i love too.. my pohpoh! lols HUGS!
love, xia0zhen.
Saturday, October 18, 2008, 10/18/2008 12:12:00 am ♥
i have not been slping well for the last 3 nights :( due to blockage of nose.. i picked up my popo and ahyipo last nite.. i checked the times n it was 130 i checked it again n i saw 1230.. so at 1230 i rushed all the way to the airport.. but thn i guess i shoulda checked it more carefulli.. coz they onli arrived at 130... thankyou eva for accompanying me that whole time i was waiting =D thank god we have you =D they came out around.. 215 ish.. got home read thru my court report.. and wallah.. onli got 3 hours slp.. so yeahhh.. i think imma slp in for agessss toml.. tho i hav PBL report to do.. and some finish touches wid the seminar~ group members are coming over to my place to finish up the seminar~ yay! =x somehow.. i noticed.. i oweis end up being the group 'leader'... thinkin of how to split the topic, send out an email to them.. get everything organised.. sometimes i jus wanna do most of the work ... i think ther's somethin rong wid me.. but this is the onli time i feel respect at uni =D my results show im smart but really sometimes i feel so stupid...i thot mink and cat was the same... made myself look stupid in court today.. saw the look on one of the guy's face... it was like WTH?! hahahaha great.. hahaha! oh wells..
evy and vic visited last nite too =D it was great! they came wid bubble tea! we talked abit and happily drank our ever so delightful bbts hehe~ exchanged songs and files and movies~ hehe! thanks for visitingg ^_^
oh yeah announcement! my baby brother can drive now =D aww they growing up so fast ~ he's on red Ps heehe! and i found out he brought my popo to do grocery shoppin today~ so nice of him =) hehee.. i thot onli i did those stuff ~ somehow i felt un-needed.. but happy at the same time... hehehe i pinched my popo face today.. she so manjaaa~ shoh cute ... love her!
its sad how people grow old... sometimes i jus wanna hug her forever.. ahyipo looks even older.. when she walked out the arrival gate.. her pale skin and wrinkled face jus caught my attention.. it kinda sparked something deep down.. that people do grow old.. sometimes u wan them to be ther for u oweis.. but they cant be... tts prob realli selfish to think that.. i had lunch with them today.. and ahyipo was jus tokin away... lol u can see my popo laughin away coz she said does adam hav his license? when adam drove popo to groceries today.. popo was jus like.. chehh how can he not hav license when he drove me today.. (in mando ofcoz) "ahyipo dunno wat she tokin about never think before she say anything" lol... n i jus sat opposite her as she laughs wid my granma... her smile lifted more wrinkles.. her eyes litted with innocence.. that picture moment.. i thot.. was unexplainably beautiful.. if i had a camera at hand.. i'd take that picture and show it to the world... n call it.. my ancient beauty.. at least i know that portrait will be forever hung on the never ending gallery in my heart and memory..
bak when i was lil.. i oweis thot she toked too much and was truely annoyed.. lol~ but now.. when i look in the past.. i realise i should have jus sat and listen =) absorb all the words she has to say.. and respond wholeheartedly .. jus like i do now.. tho.. i dont think she really cared much for my ignorance last time.. i'd like to let her kno evn tho she's not my popo.. she's made a mark in my heart as well..
n i dunno why my tears keep falling.. stay strong jas =) anyway pasar malam was awesome! went wid ama n weiwei lol the pee n poot xD met up wid evy n vic therrr ~ ehehe ohh weiwei got a new pupp lol! ah bui is his current name... he's super cute.. so innocent and playful...when i got home... i hugged tommy as he sniffed ah bui out on my jacket.. LOL~ if being a vet would mean havin to cuddle these cute babies.. i wouldnt mind doin it for the rest of my life =)
in pasar malammm we ate yummy food that i havent had in ages.. =D for some reason my appetite has gone down too.. pimple rate increase tho... oh wells..
thats it for tonite i guess =)
slpin in toml yay yay xD
love, xia0zhen
Wednesday, October 15, 2008, 10/15/2008 05:53:00 pm ♥
for those of you who noticed i wasnt online the whole of yesterday.. i love you =D hahahah nahh i was busy doing heaps of stuff.. like personal statements and seminars.. oh did i tell you about the trip to ikea wid mum.. I HAD MY SALMON DISH! lols! i tell u they make the best salmon.. this time round i think i spent heaps of time wid mummy... maybe cause they were actualli here for more than a week... 2 weeks! i just sent them off to the airport today.... the house is empty and not full of vibrant nemore.. usually when parents are around.. the house seem to be full of laughter... i have someone to talk to.. there may be some arguements.. but at least it feels more alive... i miss them already..tomorrow night i'm picking up my granma and granaunt from the airport. i wish they'd come tonight and spare me the lonely night. i had a thot to myself last nite.. that i didnt need msn... but for the times when i feel like i need to be a person whether its communication/ interaction with people or being part of something like the WWW.. msn saves me.. besides if i didnt have msn.. i wouldnt have met new friends online... who are always there for me whenever in delight, anguish, awe.. you name it ~ lol! apart from my wonderful friends i'd like to mention lili and danni~ both very very unique guys with unique personalities whom i think any girl would be lucky to hav as a companion... yup they've been thru thick and thin.. and probably know most of my deeper problems... we share omost everything when we talk to each other i guess.. sometimes i think its better to tell people who don't know the people around you.. you can trust their unbiased opinions =)
jay chou has a new album.. im goin to look it up coz i heard johnny playin it yesterday when i was doin my seminar.. but i didnt ask =x ahhaha.. okkk off i go =D
love, xia0zhen
Sunday, October 12, 2008, 10/12/2008 10:05:00 pm ♥
lol sorry that was a random pic.. i was jus playin around wid a new program called webfetti i installed yesterday.. lol!today has jus been journal entry, research n movie and research and more research. i should do personal statements tonite but i prob cant be bothered =x lols
mmm i've been watchin alot of dane cook nowadays... 2 times not knowing and the third i looked up on the movies he did.. lol first was employer of the month and den my bestfriend's girl and the last one which i finished watchin today goodluck chuck... it was such a sweet movie lol.. dane's so funny.. grown a liking to him.. its ok cookz.. dun worryyy im not stealin him away =D heheh~ but watch out for ur signed picture on ur wall ahhaha!
yes neways imma go head off soon.. my voice has become worse today.. bleh~ slp is good.. speeds up the recoveryy.. yes yesh
love, zhen.
i was playin around wid webfetti
Saturday, October 11, 2008, 10/11/2008 07:13:00 pm ♥
10/11/2008 05:31:00 pm ♥
lo and behold jasmine studied yesterday.. told u she'd promise ^_^ she also went runnin wid dog n brother after midnite.. which was all adam's idea.. tho i must say it was quite fun.. =) i always treasure my brother-sister times =) it gives a sense of warmth to my heart.. tho that may sound mushy and gay.. coz my brothers are both very evil people .. yes... my purity does not run in the sibling line =D hehe! ^_^ v but neway .. the point is.. i love my brothers.. despite how evil they are.. yes... to prove my point.. i kno i should not dwell on the past but... in the previous years of my life... i have been poured pepsi over my head, my toys being destroyed (explains why i gave up on plastic toys at the age of 5 - notice i love softtoys!), my body used as a dummy for wrestling moves (thank god gymnastics was compulsory in primary sch.. if not i'd prob hav broken ligaments) and my head used to hit like a monk hitting its wooden hollow ball many times mainly to let my mum kno it was time for dinner.. n apparentli that was when i was only an innocent baby sittin on a flower printed bedsheeted bed playin wid my rattle.. not surprising why i hav a flat head now... =/ n yeah thats pretty much all i remember.. i guess it coulda been worst... i just noticed... most of those.. were done by my older brother.. wow no wonder im so much closer to my younger brother.. LOL!before i forget... i realised i didnt write about my birthday party this year... ~ apart from that some of us have been through quite an emotional road... i would say.. this year's celebration was probably the best i've had in 9 years.. (not counting jien's surprise party in yr 10 that was really sweet thanks jienn but sorryy i didn't know how to react coz my previous birthdays were all not that great and celebrating my birthday jus seemed not normal, which would make it 5 yrs since) im not very sure how everythin laid out this time.. but i remember pickin up charm n den goin to amanda's.. after that we went to cora.. n dennn had utopia.. almost everyone was there! which was great! lol n i got the bestests gifts from everyone! CUPCAKES and TOFU from evy and vic~ thankyouuu veryy muchi ~ they were very yummilicious!! very nice smelling incanto PERFUME from ama n charm~ ANGBAO from ama's mum & dad~ RALPH LAUREN blue PERFUME that i've oweis wanted, it came in a set.. body lotion n everythin from - jien, eva, wei & serene~ SILK ROBE from michelle, OIL BURNER from jason, dancing DOG (so what it seems) from chong, and NAIL BUFFER set from siaofui~
more pressies came along after that... musical machine (when u wind it... it plays somewher over the rainbow =) which was coincidentally a song cyrus used to share wid me - so i guess that will be my way of connection to him that is whenever i play it =)) and bordercollie(roy) soft toy from adam =), pendant from jasmine n duncan...
the night consisted of drinking, photos, karaoke, playing games, tears, laughter, and chatting. it was fun while it lasted from cora to when everyone dispersed outside utopia. yay~ birthdays arnt jus a celebration for that special birth that made ur mummy n daddy so happy.. but its also a celebration for the friends you know who will always be there for you.. well at least now i know which friends will be there right till the end. Thanks everyone!
so what did i do today.. it was jus grocery shopping.. i was meant to do my prelabs.. but i'll leave that to later maybe.. =/ group members hav not got bak to me with the seminar topics... i guess i'll hav to do that.. next week.. n try do somethin else this week ... meh~ n im sick! ive been havin hot n cold flushes... and coughin like a.... cough-o-horlicks today... my immune system has lowered its defenses.. and now i am ready... i am ready... i... am.... READY... to FIGHT once more!!! ok... lets not get carried away... NOT JUST WITH MEDICATION AND REMEDIES.. BUT ALSO WITH HONOR.... and more important... heart.. I FIGHT WITH HEART! get well soon to mummy, evy, vic, ama, jien, michael, wei, tai, and i think serene? who are also fighting in this war wid me.. may we triumph (not the bra brand!!!) anyway.. may we triumph in victory and kick those bad bacteria and viruses butts out of our human shield out OUR bum-hole... thats right u lil buggers.. u wait for ur downfall.. and......
i think im goin insane =) sooo takecare my dearests friends for the universe is a very dangerous place......... filled with bugs and blah blah and blah blah blahs and the blahhs go on~
More Love today den usual, jasmine.
Thursday, October 09, 2008, 10/09/2008 11:59:00 pm ♥
eat slp eat slp.. thats pretty much all i've been doin for the past 2 weeks.. i feel.. useless.. i have so much to do yet.. i cant find the motivation to start it all.. man.. i have tomorrow off.. so i'll try and catch up wid everything toml..played tennis today.. my stamina.. sucks.. haha! adam looked like he could keep on goin.. but after an hour.. i think i met my "limit".. everythin jus became serlOHhh-werrr.. LOL! oh wells.. i'll be bak to good health in no time... i realise.. tho it may seem that im over wat happened on the 26th.. almost everything seems to remind me of him... "he is part of the universe, he is the universe.." i like that notion.. i guess with every loss.. it'll usually take some time to get bak on track.. and i expected a speedy recovery.. i thot wrong..
OK! toml! everythin will change!!!! i have to!!! PROMISE!!! ok i promised.. so i gotta do it!!! yup!! slp at 1 get up at 9-10 n start on study =) u can do it jas! u can! =)
Saturday, October 04, 2008, 10/04/2008 01:54:00 am ♥
okiii I am superly duperly full! still~! i woke up today and i walked roy roy like i promised. n toml i will do the same.. not only that. i will attempt to get my butt to gym.. for tonite was a sweet disaster.. sweet becoz.. it was one major pig out nite with yummyy japanese food =D (which is one of my fave cuisine) hehe! thankyou ama's mum and ama for the dinner ~ hehe it was satisfyin. oh n we made curry pies today lol.. ama's mum the cook, ama was the pastry/curry loader/cooker, charm was the rollerman, n jas was the pastrycutter. fun stuff! we got to bring bak home some too =D johnny said it was not bad.. i havent tried it but i will prob sunday lol =)i noticed.. ive been drinkin bbt omost every single nite.. its so bad for health.. i hope i dun end up drinkin any toml... toml.. we're havin.... CORA! another buffet.. i think.. i wont eat much. must control.. but its ok neway coz next week will be control diet.. uni is starting again.. so must concentrate on studies ^_^ yup yup~
when i got home.. i came home to.. an almost empty house.. i guess my parents and adam are stayin over at margaret river... n hav no way of contact .. coz i cant get thru to them.. but its all good.. i came bak n johnny goes.. ur present is on ur bed.. so i went to my bedroom n found a tiff & co. bag on my bed.. o_0 yes.. wow! lol! it was a stirling silver interlockin circles lariat necklace.. i dunno if its jus me.. but i feel more loved this yr =D LOL! i oweis thot johnny onli got me gifts wid jodie's influence.. but i guess i was rongg.. lol! my brother still thinks of me =D hehes~ im thankful for the thot =)
now im feeling tired.. n i have no mummy to put cream on my face to treat my horrible pimples.. i havent told my mum about toml's slp over .. well its not like she told me about hers tonite! bleh! she's notti.. :) hehe! okii well i think i better go slp soon lol~
-random corner-
::. i sniff coriander =D
love, xia0zhen.
Thursday, October 02, 2008, 10/02/2008 11:58:00 pm ♥
my birthday was relaxing. it was good to not go out for a while and stay home spend time wid the family. i was dumb speechless from all the wishes i was gettin. its always great to kno people remember the very day of ur existence. thankyou everyone ^_^ good thing parents are bak too =) birthdays arent realli a big thing in our family tho. we had dinner ^^ but it felt like any other dinner. my mum was so blur she thot it was the 31st n not the 1st. lol~ but i guess she's jus blur. i got a few souvenirs from paris n france. burberry the beat perfume and hermes perfume and a longchamp bag plus angbaos =) bweibi michael got a bouquet of roses sent and it came wid a puppy soft toy =) looks like tommy. so sweet. i havent thot of a name. i'll wait for him to come bak lol n that really made my day brighten alot =) it was my first time receiving a bouquet. it felt like a rush of amphetamines produced in that very moment i received it. never really expected him to surprise me like that. lol but thankyou notti monkey *huggies* and *kissies* xD
i guess wat i really hope to get for my birthday this yr is plenty of hugs =)
good thing i have a bunch of friends around me ^_^ been tryin to get out every nite. lol coz u kno nite time is the time when all ur thots seem to pop out and accumulate. it manifests.
mum's been sleeping wid me everynite since she's bak but tonite she went bak to coachy. lol i think she was prob worried. oh n i realised she's become more focused on my happiness den makin me do stuff that would make me feel depressed. she came to me last nite wid masters of nursing applications. n den this mornin she was like.. forget wat i said last nite.. i dont want u to be depress doin nursing.. i felt a sense of warmth when she said that =) hope she's not jus sayin that lol.
oh yea.. heroes season 3 is out. watched the first 3 episodes.. exciting! lol.. go watch! man ive been bbt-ing alot lateli.. havent been exercising.. i'll do some toml =) hope its not too sunny. gotta start walkin roy roy ^^ apparentli he's been bored and diggin up our garden.. so walkies toml =D okiiii i should slp earli =) toml goin to floreat wid ama n co. i should do my lectures too.. wish me luck =)
love, jasmine.
Wednesday, October 01, 2008, 10/01/2008 12:54:00 pm ♥
a very close friend of mine passed away a few days ago.. i used to say it wouldnt be surprising.. but when i found out i was very much surprised, scared, sad, and angry.. i really thot he was happy with his life and was able to keep on goin.. but i guess i was wrong.. he was always so happy infront of me so i thot nothin would happen.. we talked for hours everyday.. about everythin and anything.. he would stay up and listen to lectures wid me, help and advice on my troubles, support my decisions, cheer me on n check up on me whenever he could, n basically be there whenever i needed someone.. he evn knew when i was upset thru msn without tellin him.. we became part of each other's daily life.. but now it jus feels like a big knife has carved its way into my life and cut out a big hole.. i miss him.. i really do..
there were so many things i should hav told him.. it was nice having someone oweis waitin for me to come on to tok to them.. mb coz part of me is realli lonely inside too.. he was a very smart guy.. he had interest in so many things like science, maths, music, computer programming, sudoku, chess, scrabble.. and he made effort to study it on his own.. i had always admired his curiosity to learn.. i had always admired him for living the way he had.. i admire him still..
part of me wanted to be that something that holds him bak from givin up.. something he could hold on to.. but i guess that wasnt realli enough.. to be honest, i think he really had nothin certain to hold on to..
i'll always remember him, his laughter, his voice, his funny habits, his cheeky personality, his experiences, his presence, his thoughts of life and everything that comes wid it, and i'll remember all that i've learnt from him.
oh n i oso wanna crown him no.1 nottiest boi. =) my mum agrees too =)
he'll always be living in my memory. never forgotten =)
if ur reading my blog like u always do cyrus,
sorry i didnt reply to ur messages on friday.. i only found out where u were goin on monday coz u nv replied on sunday..
oh n i told God to save u from hell n protect u coz i kno how much u were worrying about eternal suffering.
i hope you're in a happy place now making heaps of new friends. =)
n of coz if there is a afterlife, i will definitely look forward to meeting you at the crossroads. =)
please wait for me if u can... but till den take care ok..
i'll keep you posted on how im goin.. n how my applications into vet goes too.. =)
missing you already..
love, Jasmine ^_^