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Sunday, March 29, 2009, 3/29/2009 09:55:00 pm ♥ yayyy!!!! baby called xD i'm happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok i think u get the point! xD hehehe muahs! funny how one call can change my mood so fast.. makes me feel so easily manipulated T_T mehh!!! happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 3/29/2009 06:24:00 pm ♥ im jus wondering. why do we have mood swings? i dun like the notion that it's based on our hormones.. it's out of our control how we feel.. n den u think bak n ask urself.. why did i act that way? but thers no goin bak becoz.. it's already happened.. damage has already been made... stupid hormones... yes im blaming PMS, becoz i dunno y i cant control my feelings at times like these. mb im a control freak.. i feel like one.. i dun like it. im feeling emo, alone n i dunno why. yup. that sinking feeling is back. that feeling when the lil hurtful things that wouldnt matter normalli would make u burst out in tears out of no wher. so i ask myself why do i feel like that now. why isit that onli at random days and nights i feel this irritating sinkin feeling? n i tell myself i'll be fine. jus put ur mind to somethin else. n let it pass. at times like these i jus wanna black out.. or mb a certain memory loss to help me get thru the day. was watchin series (totalli unrelated!) n i came across thinking about life again. ppl make it so easy to giv up. i think its gettin to me. i should reali stop thinkin bout it. i dunno tho.. are we the crazy ones or are they the crazy ones? im beginnin to think ending ur own life is normal now. tho part of me tells me im crazy to evn think that. but wat is crazy and wat is normal.... ? sure when someone passes away it happens.. n den thers a mourning n den they'll eventualli get over it.. life moves on.. its jus selfish but if its ur decision... who's to control how u end ur life on earth but urself? control freaks! but dun worry guys.. ur stuck wid me for some time.. i feel crazy even thinkin about it.. gosh.. this would be the example of too much thinkin to yourself is bad for u.. ahhhh i think too much... do i realli need someone to tok to 24/7..? coz it's onli when im to myself is when i think of all these.. i hope i dun.. i envy those who hav someone to tok to about nething, neplace, netime.. everything, everyplace, everytime.... smothering tho... mb not.. something i've noticed all my life since primary sch. i'd call a friend everynight, jus to chat. n i dunno wat realli.. but we chatted for some time.. n after one friend had to go.. if i was still bored i'd call another.. until i decided it was enough for the day.. in middle/high sch.. i'd call my friends too.. one by one.. down my contact list.. jus to chat.. n tell thm im bored n it was one after another, it was mainly callin jus a group of friends.. when uni came, the habit became lesser.. makes me wonder if i am that in need of someone to tok to.. or was it that i was in a habit of pickin up the fone callin somewher.. n knowin that someone was ther for me when i needed it.. tho sometimes i felt bad as if they were forced to do so.. thn i'd appear selfish but i dunno if i am coz i'd be happy to tok to someone whenever.. i think it feels privileged.. but den again some ppl dun like to talk... but den again..... -OK i think i've made a self-revelation.... i shouldnt think so much... sorry this was random to read. i think we should put some food in me. love, jasmine. jus like to say i dunno why but i always feel much better after blogging - mb its the thot that someone's out ther who cares enough to read.. look what i found - my insecurity.... Thursday, March 26, 2009, 3/26/2009 11:36:00 pm ♥ that sinking feeling once again... u can do it jas.. another 2-3 days... :) hais... Monday, March 23, 2009, 3/23/2009 04:07:00 pm ♥ the night we picked up parents. headed down to leeming because adam decided to go to his friend's house. so i followed and ended up at jennie's xD and yes i did manage to get some work done. found out ama dear is sick. hope she gets well soon! neway at jen's we watched naruto youtube videos at the end, wanted to find out wat happened between naruto and sasuke at the end and also talked about random stuff. watched abit of television. home alone 2 was on. lol. found out jien loves that movie! lol~ if u ask me, i dun realli watch it. LOL! after a while.. wei turned up.. he had noodles coz hungry.. jien n i munched on the calbee prawn crackers that evic left the other time. and we thot the packet was oredi finished with. thers still some left! it was time to go pick adam to go to airport. we planned on eatin uncle billy's but he was too tired when i picked him up.. so we never did.... i was happy to see their faces again.. LOL when we got home... everyone went to bed except mum n i.. we layed on my bed and started to gossip.. lol well not realli gossip.. but we talked about that boy that had suicided... mum, being the ex-psychiatrist she was, was tryin to analyse his farewell letter and came across the narcicist characteristic that may come close to the way he thought... narcicist think highly of themselves and can never admit defeat... since his farewell letter has been circulatin around the internet already.. i'll put a link up on my blog.. Dr Allan Ooi's Farewell Letter i still cant grasp the fact that he made life seem less than what it's worth. But i guess if u're happy with where you are.. n theres no more that you want in life... ending it by yourself to see what happens instead of letting age take its toll.. i see wher he's coming from.. not saying its not selfish.. it is.. very.. i wished cyrus left a note.. tho i did dream that he left me a casette tape which was sent every week in the mail.. kinda like the plot in p.s. i love u. LOL~ funny hei? but i guess u'll never know what people think.. mum suggested i do research on this topic.. suicides.. i do find it interesting actualli.. mb i will in the future.. since so many of these thoughts hav been happenin around me... neway we talked till our eyes gave in and so she went bak to her own bed.. n i fell aslp immediateli.... next day.. we had lunch at yummy duck~ yumm!! sooo let's update my list of cravings sushi ♥ (lonesome) curry and rice ♥ (T/A with adam) tea cafe baked rice vegetarian food ♥ (with adam) uncle billy's porridge ♥ (with adam) fried beehoon ♥ (with serene) mr samurai's fried chicken again! ♥ (evaaa!) korean kimchi soup n rice/ kimchee house steamboat duck rice on william st ♥ (mummy n coachyy) that duck noodle soup place wei oweis talks about.. only three to go~ lols! baked rice, kimchisoup n duck noodle - yum! mb we'll go kimchee house tonite.. im realli hungry actualli lol! anyway spent the day preparing for singing.. getting lyrics and music to it.. hehe~ n den we had dinner at hana bbq~ lol! yummm we ate so much.... well not realli but i ate alot of cheesecake =x LOL! they're still the best~ i reckon they should sell them jus by themselves.. coz i would definiteli buy them home and eat them slowli and sparingly~ hehe! yumm! singing was at 230. i got there and waited for bingo to end lol~ den i set up my laptop and speakers.. and managed to get some music goin~ lol. they sang along with the words i provided them wid.. some didn't.. but it was good overall... managed to get many smiles back =D and also alot of them clapped after singing. i think i came across as shy.. but cant help it.. that's jus the way i am... i'll start to get use to it i hope.. lol~ it was interesting.. i think ther's a snobby group of ladies vs the what u'd call "normal" group.. n they had two different tables.. segregation.. lol so i made two new friends joan and bert lol! they were from the normal group.. LOL they tell me that some of the ladies hav weird personalities and that it was hard to please them... i guess it was easy to tell.. which ones were.. lol! but there were a few on the other table that were realli cute too~ lols! they kept smiling heehee~ they were happy i came and would love for me to come bak again~ which was yay ~ i wish i was more myself and not so nervous.. but i'll get used to it.. after eveyone had moved off.. bert talked to me about his family and his music life.. it was interesting.. he had been in choirs and used to sing at a pub! wow! i know.. n he used to play in the rugby league... he lived in mandurah before coming to amana living... something happened to his spine and his now in a wheel chair.. he loved singing.. lol! i think he was one of the few that knew all the songs and jus sang along ~ it was cute! lol he kept tellin me to keep with the music coz im good at it =) yay! thanku bert~ joan was super cute.. she used to be a kindergarden teacher but she fell down and was admitted to the hospital.. they found out she had cancer in her throat.. so they took part of her voice away.. im assumin the thoracic area was infected.. she joked that it may be that she loved singing too much lol.. she also talked to me bout her family, the war times. her husband had passed away in the war.. n when i asked if she liked the place, she told me how she would rather be in albany coz when her time comes she wants to be together with her husband.. i omost cried but i held it in.. i told her im sure she had a long time to go~ she said onli the good lord knows. she likes dancing lol! bouncing! LOL! she thinks the other ladies think she's crazy but she cares not.. she oso played the piano for me.. so talented.. she plays by ear.. no notes to accompany.. lol asked me to play on the piano too.. but she's far more superior den i m.. haha! i onli knew 3 songs on the piano.. gosh.. im realli bad hei .. lol~ she walked me to the door and we parted ... that was my interestin day ~ xD to say the least, it was a very nice experience. :D Saturday, March 21, 2009, 3/21/2009 06:03:00 pm ♥ bubble tea was like the usual. sat drank and talked. somehow we always have interesting topics to talk about. i don't know if it's that we just talk about it over and over again or it's the unresolved questions we want answered. hopefully its the latter one. lol! oh that's right! i wore my contacts out to show evypandee~ hehe! i like the new look. 3 months and its over. hopefulli someone's bak in time for that. n yes i do miss him very much. after bbt. i met up with eva at the library. she went off earlier from the bbt session we had. jen n wei decided to walk me through the eery halls of murdoch university to my library destination. jen's card still works and now i've taken possession over it. free access to 24-hour library! as strange as it sounds.. i felt happy xD thanku jien hehe! it was the first time i met tracy - eva's uni friend which i've heard so much about. she seemed well spoken and also quite a cool person. nick was also there. i swear he's oweis at the library. he joined us at our table. tell u the truth. i didnt get much done that day except maybe copy n paste my other report onto the research proposal outline and did some editing. all my work so no plagiarism involved lol! i've been tryin to figure out why i'm takin so long to start this assignment and the reasons i came up with are: i've done some of it jus hav to reword it a little and add more information there's no confirmation on my ideas and methods becoz my professors seem to be so busy and have no time to meet up. ther's more reading to do i'm so lazy and bummed i'm still not very sure about everything i guess these things take time. thers a reason why honours only go for one year yea? they're so slow with the confirmations and everything.. i'm quite scared i dun hav enough time to complete it.. they say my thesis should be ready by october? scary stuff realli.. if i start next month, i have 7 months? hei.. that's not so bad i guess. when we walked back to our cars after library~ i noticed that one of my windscreen wipers were up. so i thot to myself .. those two notti ppl disturbin my poor car :( lol! and den i saw a white piece of paper on my car so i thot for a sec that i'd got a fine! but wait a min its so late at night. found out it was a notti note from wei n jen~ LOL! friday was not productive. i planned to do some work on my proposal but yea.. nothing happened.. eva made me feel better by saying she didnt do nethin too. LOL such slackers~ but den again. she's already kinda finished wid her's. it was dan's BBQ house party at his canningvale house. it was a nice house tho it felt abit dusty~ we had bbq which cost $5.50 each. lol~ was still hungry after. i dun think ther was enough food realli. but after bbq we played poker. had ups n downs. eva won all our chips at the end coz the last round was everyone all in~ had one shot of vodka. surprisingli i was orite. it didn't do much to me. jen n jeral helped me hav my other two. i was supposed to drink 3 shots becoz i was first to bankrupt LOL all in if we play chips xD we left after that game and headed bak to eva's, but we decided to go maccaz coz we were still hungry. haha i owe eva $6.50. thanks ama for reminding me about the $12 last time. haha! i wonder why my wallet always get's empty so fast. n i oweis take out $100 each time. either that or everytime i take it out. adam wants to go grocery shopping. n ther goes my cash. LOL my parents are coming back tonight/midnite. arrivin 1.55AM - haven't driven to the airport in a while. shows how long they havent been bak. ahhh at last someone to lie in bed wid n talk to at home xD not to mention bite. MUMMY POWER! lol! ok. Thursday, March 19, 2009, 3/19/2009 01:13:00 pm ♥ went to eva's place after washing my car that night. it was wen's last night. ther were eva, mal, wen, terence and wern. first we played poker with the eva's parents and wern's mum. n den mal showed us "magic" with his deck of cards.. watever! i saw thru them! well the shuffling ones.. lOL... neways we played pictionary. one round was enough for the parents. LOL.. n den continued playin. everyone was realli good. tim arrived. they cooked macaroni cheese while the rest of us tried to reach the ceiling and walk wid our legs crossed. LOL terence couldnt feet-cross his legs. eva lifted tim up. o_0 eva's really strong. n tim's realli light.. malcolm n tim played sticky hands for a while.. but it was never ending.. LOL neways we moved into malcolm's room to play rockband. lol! he was tryin to slp.. managed to slp tho apparentli he woke up to go vomit coz he got food poisionin.. n eva said he prob went to her room. so i took over the bed n made myself comfy.. when he came bak.. he was like what the. n i got off.. i think i kept slpin for a few minutes until i heard someone passin the mic to me. after that.. everyone else went to slp.. eva, tim n i went to the couch n played questions. i think i was sleep tokin hei.. i dun remember the questions =x ahhaha! n we stayed up tokin till... 8ish.. thot sizzlers started later.. but we managed to get ther 1 hour before it closed up. LOL! so much food ! 18.95 LOL i thot ther was salad.. hilluscinations.. i saw the capsicum.. LOL! neways... we ate alot i guess.. dun normalli eat brekky.. lOL oh n eva's icecream -particular stuff.. it was omost closin time so we were gettin icecream before it did... eva's order "rainbow sprinkles, marshmallows! ........... NO CHOCOLATE!..... VANILAA!" hahahah it was hell funny.. this was said while i was oredi a few steps away from icecream machine haha ... we all left sizzlers realli fullll! slept in the car ride bak to eva's... slept on her couch.. n den woke up.. toked to wen n mal for a while.. eva n tim were still slpin.. so i left lol! wished wen on her safe trip first tho. went to ama's... we moved furniture hahaha it was very fun and exciting.. dun ask la.. takes alot of skills to fit furniture in corridors... hehe the house is pretty now hahah! baby called in the middle.. so i hid in the small bedroom to tok.. he onli had one hour left so better pei him.. hope it wasnt rude =x omg.. sunday was realli hot i remember.. VERY! n den i ate alot too! lolx! thanku ama n ama's mum LOL! had noodles for lunch n den soup n dishes for dinner~ n den went home n shower n slp.. tried to catch up on slp~ lol went to amana living at osborne park to meet with the manager. it was a small and cozy place.. they said they'll call me bak regardin the time and whether they can get a pianist to do it wid me so its not tt scary lol! they also said that they were very happy to have me ther xD yay! the mitchell hwy is confusing.. guess i'll get used to it.. monday - spent the whole day watchin the mentalist. tuesday - met up wid eva n did some shopping. bought a dress, necklace, and i got green contact lenses!!! haha they say i look scary. jen tried them on too! they were awesome! eva's got the pictures~ eva got a dress, necklace, and a puffy sleeveless jacket! jacket for onli 30 too! great buys! LOL neways it was jen's graduation. jen looked all smart in her regalia hehe! took pictures - alot actualli~ lol! evn got us in the professional ones. aww! neways it was at the perth convention centre! so muchh better den the notredame and uwa ones! the two hours seemed so long tho.. lectures at uni usualli go for 2 hours.. didnt seem that long. but yea~ congrats jen! haha we met mrs mayes during refreshments. woah she lost so much weight. ahaha! caught up abit.. but yea~ his son jus graduated too. neways we all had dinner at uncle billy's hehe dishes n rice. ther was us jen n jeral, robin n his family - dan, dad, mum. yumyum~ i owe eva money! $12 after that we went to eva's to try on the contacts xD hehe and den we karaoke partied on www.karaokeparty.com ! ahhahaha until it was sleepy time. got home. fun fun dayy next day - watched season 2 of dexter. finish! today - cant start on nethin hei.. need to start riting research proposal! lalala! bored! need motivation! MOTIVATIONNNNNNNNNNNNNNnnnn - nanananannaa! (its a song ok.. lol good charlotte? hahaha :P) bleh goin now. oh yea tonite got bbt xD Saturday, March 14, 2009, 3/14/2009 04:52:00 pm ♥ new blogskin xD lalala~ too scary to do wardrobe~ too hot to do car atm~ i unpacked my luggage finally tho =D so I'll go RuN rUnnn~ weeeee~ 3/14/2009 01:21:00 pm ♥ lol havent done much since but i'd like to list my cravings =D sushi ♥ (lonesome) curry and rice ♥ (T/A with adam) tea cafe baked rice vegetarian food ♥ (with adam) uncle billy's porridge ♥ (with adam) fried beehoon ♥ (with serene) mr samurai's fried chicken again! korean kimchi soup n rice/ kimchee house steamboat duck rice on william st that duck noodle soup place wei oweis talks about.. wow thers ten! onli 5 done! come on guys.. if ur hungry.. let me kno and u can choose from one of the above without the heart ♥♥ =D if not im stuck at home drinkin soup, eating tuna, and snacking on popcorn. since ther's no plans for today... i made a list of things i want to get done today ♥ unpack my luggage ( HAHAHA! why isit taking me so long) wash and vacuum my car move clothes from wardrobe to big wardrobe ( i mite as well live upstairs =x) some research for group work wikispaces - we're doing it on dangers at home DEXTER SEASON 2 SHOULD BE DONE (thanks to adam.) so watch watch watch oh that's right. i watched an episode on The Mentalist - SIMON BAKER!!! woot! hahaha good series! will be watching that too when more episodes are downloaded. =D x♥x♥ zhen. Wednesday, March 11, 2009, 3/11/2009 11:49:00 pm ♥ i filled my car up with petrol today. i noticed.. i spend about $45/10 days to fill the tank.. maybe i should start saving.. i'll jus walk or bus or cycle to my destination unless the freeway is required or heavy groceries are involved ... its great.. i get exercise too! so i think most of u kno.. im veri strict on my daily routine of MUST EXERCISE and BREAK SWEAT. (tho i must say its veri easy for me to have salty water leak out of my pores.. eeew i was oweis wet when michael hugs me at the end of the day.. he's said "ooh! sweaty.." a couple of times - haha like he dares to care! ahhahahaha! ) neways... my tummy is tucked tight atm which is goODa! i've had maybe 5 breaks of no exercise since i came back from singapore... its a proud thing... Uni.. well.. everything's going great.. i've been writin up reports, researching, reading articles, making notes, organisin stuff, keeping myself study motivated.. which is good and bad.. coz i hav been gettin around an avg of 6 hours sleeping time.. i hardly sleep over 12 nemore.. which is.. good i guess.. LOL! meeting with nik zeps toml with the professors - lets pray my research proposal is accepted! man.. the enrolment came up to $3000+ jus for half a sem~ i feel like i realli need to start working soon... MOnday was fuN-filling day~ i woke up earli to finish up my draft report and sent it in email to the profs for double checking.. n dennn went to murdoch to pick up my transcript.. but on that particular monday.. it closed at 3~ i got ther like 2 mins late... -_- unlucky! neways so i spent the rest of the day in the library reading articles and touching up my lit review... n dennn BODY combat at Leeming REC with serene ! malcolm was ther too~! haha it was good workout.. very good actualli.. i feel the burns still! especialli my thighs... must do that routine again one day! haha~ neways after body combat dropped serene off and went to eva's house! i resisted yummy food on the table.. but had their cashews, walnuts and apricot bits! LOLS! yum! neways wE went to bowling~ ther was eva, tim, malcolm, wen and eva's mum's fwen's dotter wern.. LOL! first game was good for everyone except wern but first game's oweis warmup neways... i managed to get a score of 132.. wow! and den it went downhill on the second game for all of us except wern.. LOL.. i guess the pros were mal and tim still coz they got highest scores.. after 2 games we~ we went bak to cook's place n stayed in mal's room .. we talked bout punches, watched alot of random funny youtube videos ( i disappeared for quite a while coz michael called), tried to do pushups, played stickyhands, WATCHED MAlcolm's "GLOWING STARS" (HAHA! - always cracks me up), n we also watched cook's cry from laughter again! haha! fun fun!! thanks for having me over so much!! LOL i left when i saw the long hand on its way to making it 2 oclock. i went ther another nite.. she showed me a buffy episode on JONATHAN.. some nerd.. IT WAS HELL FUNNY! hahahahaha! cant forget that! tuesday was uni.. i fell aslp in class.. boo.. had dinner wid serene at broadway... she asked about michael.. told me i should leave him n i deserve better... but realli.. as mush as it sounds... i dun think thers neone better.. =x haha! n without thinking.. i told ducki.. that "he's like me.. n like thers no one better than me" i meant.. for me.. sounded so thick-skin la! but oh wells LOL we should be so lucky.. =x hahahhaa newaysss wei visited after work ~ we watched a movie on foxtel called "life" - it was cute and funny! sad at some bits but not enough for tears to fall.. lol n den we played rockband.. gosh i havent played tt in ages!!! lols adam joined in for rockband.. he was the singer.. while wei n i swapped turns using the drums and guitar.. funfun! wei left at around 3.30ish? i slpt 4-ish~ thanks for visiting! xD wednesday - got a fone call from amana, went to freo italian cafe next to sandrinos~ cant remember the namE... i drove ther coz he was lazyyy... but dennn i onli paid $10 out of $60 for my meal =x thanks for the yummy filling meal adriann! i got him icecream from amano's n we enjoyed our dessert ther~ yumm! after that drove home.. n den he came in for a bit to disturb roy n tommy.. showed me a youtube vid on the punching bag he wanted.. n den not long.. he lefted... LOL.. went to badminton for 2 hours.. onli played 2 games.. but i manage to get tom to hit with me while i wasnt playin in a game.. worked out enough =D was thinkin of goin home to shower first.. but tt would mean ppl will be waitin longer so i left earli.. met JCEWAVE at utopia.. i was half panicing due to the blinkin of the last bar on the petrol metre.. but oh wells.. i made it! lols the things i do to see those notti faces! showed up with my red sports shorts and st andrews sport top LOL i can still remember them laughin at my attire when i turned up infront of them.. we talked for abit.. i drank my yummy bubble tea~ been drinkin rose milk bubble tea.. i guess i do think of him subconsciously after all... (the first bubble tea michael n i shared was rose milk BBT from easyway, nb) most of them left at 11ish. so ther was JEJC left~ we talked for a while.. n also not long.. we were the onli ones left at utopia.. again! lol!! so we went our separate ways~ Due to lack of karaoke sessions... and i guess we kinda got sick of karaoke.. did it too much end of last year... neways... i've felt like i havent been singing in ages... i have in my showers n radio in the carrr... but yea.. its better if u share it.. haha! newaysss i decided to feed my passion by volunteering at an old folk's centre... while looking for a part-time job that i could work on during the weekends plus monday... so i dun have to find things to do... and also because honestly.. i wanna try get out of this lonely house... i applied for some part-time jobs but yea.. no response... guess they wan ppl wid more experience... so i decided some time last week that i should jus do some volunteer work.. after all.. i do need the experience... so happens they needed a pianist/musician for aged care.. sooo i sent in an expression of interests~~ AND!!!! monday 11 am.. i have a meeting with Melissa Kilminster, the manager of the Amana Living Branch in Osbourne Park.. and not only will i be doing what i like.. but also hopefully bring a smile to those cute lil pohpohs and ah gongs~ LOL i will be singing for them and there will be sing-a-longs and wowww exciting stuff!! will keep u updated! pray that i dun end up pinching a cheek! =x =x love, zhennn. 3/11/2009 02:45:00 pm ♥ here are the results of a quiz i did, somehow.. its sounds so accurate... tho i dun realli believe these things.. i do it to pass time and procrastinate :P QUIZ LINK! Personality test Your view on yourself: You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties. The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes. Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. The seriousness of your love: You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with? Your views on education Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own. The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. How do you view success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous. What are you most afraid of: You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you. Who is your true self: You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long. Another one! QUIZ 2! the results for THE REAL YOU test Here is the analysis: You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you. You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm. Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking Another oneeee Love Personality Test Here is the analysis: You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high. OH another onee... i cant be bother linking! i jus click on the give me more link on the other websites.. lols! this is... what type of personality do you have? Kind and Gentle Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between. nExt! how well do i survive in this world? Here is the analysis: Because of your kind nature, you always find it hard to turn down people in need. You always want to do so many things at once but eventually you might not achieve anything. Try to focus on one thing at a time and you will surely be successful. Monday, March 09, 2009, 3/09/2009 10:24:00 am ♥ Long Distance - Brandy Recommended by Cookz -"With you is where i'd rather be..." Sunday, March 08, 2009, 3/08/2009 03:06:00 pm ♥ Went yearly crabbing with jen and gang lol! Happy Crab Festival! LOL anywayy we were in 3 groups. Group 1: Shane, Dan, Chuck Group 2: Jen, Jeral n Me Group 3: Robin, lil.dan, angus, clara In the midst of our very focused concentration of spotting a moving crab, I saw a shadow at the corner of my eye. We saw a FIN sticking out on the water surface. o_0! Without thinking any further we just ran close to shore. It was near death experience! FREAKING SCARY STUFF! Shark or dolphin. We didnt want to risk it. LOL! So we ran! the fin made its way to the other far side wher (group 3) robin n dem were. while walkin to tell them of our findings, we saw them run to shore too! lol! the lights flickering while they ran.. the screams of shock and fear! we tried~ Robin said he saw 2 fins. normalli dolphins travel in 2s.. and so they were convinced we were safe in water. they went bak up toward the deep end.. we did too.. but with abit of paranoia~ xD still good.. at the end.. we were all in a big group with our torches, scoops and buckets~ best crabbers ever! lOL :P the night was not bad. not too cold. we caught 17 crabs together. there were heaps more but the rest were too small to keep. this is our proud catch. Lots oF cRabbiess~ yum. Crabs! martis mum cooked them n they consumed them 12.30 today. I was sleeping but i bet they were crabilicious xD Friday, March 06, 2009, 3/06/2009 11:41:00 pm ♥ My mum smsed me that her friend Lucy's son's body was found under melbourne bridge this morning. and she was ther crying. first of all.. my mum tells me random things.. second.. it was sad.. he's a SAF doctor, 27 yrs old.. found out he left singapore in october and couldnt be found after that.. they couldnt find him.. he had AWOLed to melbourne.. was happy with life.. jumped off himself.. I hear stories of how mischievous he was since young, (top 10 in warcraft!), a very gifted doctor, very smart. He was a respected friend and loving brother n son, an inspiration to everyone around him. People I know have given up on life. I dont know why... one was not happy wid life.. this was all happy wid life... makes me wonder... is life worth living... n thers that question "why do we live if we end up leaving this world in the end?" ... why do we wait.. if we dunno wats to come... why? To tell you the truth. I'm sad. (Picture from StraitsTime article online if interested.. click on link.) R.I.P Allan Ooi - i'm sure u'll never be forgotten =) My condolences to his family and friends. Jasmine. Tuesday, March 03, 2009, 3/03/2009 08:48:00 pm ♥ so what did we get up to since my last blog? went to uni for my first class. it felt horrible really. i didnt kno neone but sarah hoskin.. but she had her whole gang of exercise and health ppl all around her. i felt intimidated. never really spoke to her even on random bumps in notredame. meh! another thing is.. i was the only asian or non-white. felt out of place i guess. but i made friends today which was good. paula from brazil and tristan (hmm dunno much about him. but he'll be my partner for wiki poster assessment since we're oweis sittin next to each other. he looks intimidating too but when he speaks - really friendly!) so ciao italia day i did some research at home. chatted online. rushed to murdoch. but it closed. so no transcript. that reminds me. they havent emailed me to tell me whether they received it. i hope putting my visa number ther doesnt pose any problems. to tell u the truth. im not ease with that. ok so ! we had ciao italia wid the EVAC crew or should i say cave.- ate alot. lols i think we had like 4 pastas and a pizza plus chilli muscles .. for the 5 of us.. lol! im surprised im actually ok being a lamppost, probably affecting me subconciously but i think not of it. we had a stroll down oh man wats the place called.. =x n we were on the other side of the city so we could see the citylights. last time i saw the city lights was wid michael lets see, first from mounts bay then from somewher in the other side of perth (can't remember - prob mesmerised, oh n i was busting in the car =x ahha!), king's park and also at our hideout on bruce st xD hehehe! neways as cheezy as it sounds - i felt like he was ther with me. i love the lights reflecting off the water surface. it's beautiful. casino was fun too. we had jap at vicpark - kabuyaki? lol! omost everyone had a curry dish. (WEVAC) neways we went to casino saw ama's parents ther.. n they won like i dunno 800 tt day? charles was ther too. n jennie jus arrived that night. weiwei found a way to 'cheat' the system in rapid roulette.. i oweis wondered wat he was tokin about.. i oweis heard rabbit roulette. but yea that was fun. i lost 50 in poker which was wei's money. so i felt bad.. he won it bak in rapid roulette so tt was good =x tho i still lost $5 playin the 'sit n press box' next day met jevina and jessica for lunch at st james kitchen. we talked about alot and jus caught up wid each other. it somehow got to the topic of children. oh thats rite. jevina works at a child care centre. i'm lookin into that too. n so jess says she'll never hav her own children. we were tokin about relationships. and they said they wanna take it slow and not get married till they're like 30. coz they believed that it holds them down in life. so it somehow got to a conversation wher both of them asked me if "we've talked about gettin married" - they meant we as in michael n i... n it surprised me as to how natural they asked it. (woah! wait a sec!) i'm like not even 21 yet... o_0 not ready for that kinda stuff... not even thinkin about it... n so the subject changed. haha! we took pictures and neoprints! n went our separate ways. that night. jason picked me up for the play - devil and the deep blue sea. it was interesting yet sinistic - the part wher the two sisters were like lookin for ppl to "play" wid.. they either end up dead or running for their lives.. scary but funny! was not bad =D lol! we had dinner at the korean restaurant on pier st wid chong before that too - so we went to the play together after. played lami wid WAC at ama's at night. next day. met up wid the two professors plus one at St john of god subiaco. was briefed on the location and the facilities and wat was involved. did not speak much. i dun think i look that enthusiastic for the job - but greg helped calm my nerves. i liked it how when they talk about it to each other - the passion in their work enlightens me. went to ama's house wid jasmine n den ama n charm picked us up from her house wid her cousin jodie in the car and den.. hav satay at ama's pohpoh's house wid all her aunties and uncles and duncan was ther too. the food was yummy =D (ama's mum's birthday happy birthday auntie and evy's mum too! hehe) we played poker and cards later.. i won alot of chips at one stage.. n became bankrupt after they resetted it hahahhaa oh wellssss after that we made our way to jen's house. bought some soft drinks n yippeee~ played mahjong and lami that day =D had funn! next day was lil ceasars - my tarago couldnt start. i'll update on that more next time. if i remember. sunday was rest day - researched alot =) didnt kno ah charm left. monday - met up wid cookz at her place at 1130 had subway for lunch. bumped into tiff n nish. - we studied at murdoch lib n i manage to finish my readings n notes. cookz had a test which she thot din go so well.. but onli results will tell =D - we had our walks round leeming coz body combat wasnt on due to labour day. we walked to jen's house. n steph n lee met up ther becoz she saw my car parked at eva's. lol! neways yeahhh stayed ther for abit n den walked bak down to farmer jacks - eva got some stuff. n den walked bak to her house. n i left. did treadmill for 45 min.. cant beliv i ran 15 min straight. havent done tt in a while. n den went to uncle billy's for some 3 egg porridge wid dearest adam. AHHAHA! ok today sound didnt come out from my fone so my alarm din go off.. had like 4hours slp.. had to restart my fone. went to lib.. did my printing n everythin went to class den went to library n do stuff till 5.30ish drove home.. parked really far away so i had a good walkin exercise today. so hot n sunny as well boo! lols i think tts it for today. my blogs are gettin realli boring =x this house is so dark, empty, spacious feels like ur in a corner everywher u go. oh michael smsed "(blah blah blah his callin on wed yay!!!) I .... You greatly! Your monkey :) " makes u wonder what the dot dot dot dot means?! ahhaha! coz he oredi said "miss" in the blahs" jasmine happy! tokin bout him makes me happy.. evn in the condition im in atm~ amazing how someone can do that to you. love, zhen.