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Tuesday, June 30, 2009, 6/30/2009 11:26:00 pm ♥ monday i had the familiar feeling they wanted me to stay much much longer to sing today.. i guess i should go in abit earlier next time.. :) its only been about 3 months.. n feels like home oredi.. my old fwens looked like they enjoyed themselves this week ~ hehe! after that i headed to northbridge for lunch, went to a chinese shop to look for henna hair dye.. but they din hav it.. so i waited in the car for a while ... den they changed venue.. so i made my way down to ama's... i was very reluctant driving that particular day coz it was such a scary day... the wild winds and exploding raindrops.. i had the imagination my lil yaris would fall sideways (thinkin too much again).. i thot i wouldnt be drivin to freo.. but when i saw the garage door close.. i knew it was expected... oh wells.. guess they dunno the place tt well.. we met up wid bruneians.. had cicerellos and charm treated.. thankyouu thankyouu~ n den had dinner at ama's coz k-po the hongkong girls.. LOL! thanks for dinner! the girls dun look too happy.. gloomy.. like the weather.. not very smiley.. hopefulli they will lighten up over time.. lol.. guess itd be scary goin into a house where u dunno a language.. LOL! today.. adam gave me a lift to SJOG! yay no earli rain walkies.. n i got to slp in a lil bit more.. hehe n i heard from munki today~ he's callin tomorrow nite :D yay! hopefully im home when he does~ today was the first time in a long time i had dinner alone outside.. i guess its not too bad... dun need neone no more! lol laksa! yum! hehe.. met irene there n we went grocery shoppin together.. lol.. n den i gave her a lift home.. we had a lil farewell for eva at utopia.. talked about random stuff MJ, cancer, the past etc.. it was jus jen, chuck, eva n i.. jus realised eva woulda been a lamppost if i din rock up.. guess she din seem to mind.. din see ama much.. they were in another room.. lol anywayyyy eva's leavin toml.... so hope she has a safe trip.. enjoyyyy the food n shoppin~!!! tho i'll hav a very low frequency of late nite chats this week~ i will try not to miss u haha! lalala i shall escape msn for the week den... teehee~ 10 days will go like a blast neway :) takecare n enjoy over there you three! i think tts it from me today~ nitenites, jasmine. Monday, June 29, 2009, 6/29/2009 09:40:00 pm ♥ so everyone is bak in perth now.. charm, wei, and the jien-stealer, chucky.. LOL! let's be honest.. when he's back.. we never really hear from jien.. n once he's gone.. jien will call us out.. mb he doesnt like us T_T its so sad.. feels kinda used too.. yes jien if u read this.. im jus stating some obvious observations.. im sure everyone's noticed it too.. newayyyy.. its been stormy and rainy.. terrifyingly.. today i was woken up by lightning and heavy winds... felt like it was hailing but i think it was jus high impact rain from the strong winds.. scary indeed... i even had a dream that my room was flooded coz the water came in from outside.. its possible because my sliding door isnt tightly sealed.. i see leaves and spider webs in the sliding area sometimes.. jus hope the weather calms down a lil.. seems like i gotta walk in the rain toml again... wats been happening.. we watched transformers! hehe it was good but i reckon the first one was better.. and those who disagree prob jus stared at megan fox the whole time.. lol but gotta admit i think she looked better in the second one.. wat else we do... oh n duncan had a karaoke.. havent sang karaoke in ages.. lol we oso got suffocated in smoke.... eeee.. saturday was a busy day.. lol.. the notti boys came over.. with a friend as well.. mark.. lol.. n den wei came over for a while n left and irene came over to drop off some of her cake she made.. lol thanks thanks was yumm~ n den i brought them home.. n den had dinner at their place.. n den met ppl at utopia.. poor cookz wasnt allowed to go out.. coz of the weather.. so i decided to go visit her.. wid her requested horlicks bbt.. we jus chatted and watched tv the rest of the nite... n omg we watched that movie called teeth.. its soooo strange -_-.. imagine havin teeth at ur punani and bitin dicks off when forced into intercourse... i only thot asian directors would think of such a story to film.. strange movie indeed.. sunday got adam to go have some fresh prata at willeton!!! guys u gotta go rostrata av to get ur freshly made prata... u kno how they make it by hand in singapore.. yes! bala recommended! hoho! im goin ther again :P it closes at 2.. its called goppi's curry somethin like tt.. lol~ the curry not tt great but prata!!!!!! superb! n den bala n the kiddies came.. n den they decided to follow us home n play wid the wii another day.. lol.. tt was the same day i went transformers.. so adam played wid them that day :D my adam is growin up.. im seeing some good changes in him~ yay! also i jus found out good news today that my popokehs are comin on tuesday 7/7... yay! isnt that great~ im excited xD - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - thers somethin i hav to talk about.. which may come to a surprise to ppl.. i think im beginnin to hav thots of someone else... n i think if i wanted another long dist.. i'd prob end up wid him.. actualli no coz i oredi decided long time ago to make him my brother sigh munki.. u told me the prob wid long dist in the olden times was the lack of communication.. yet that is our biggest problem now despite having phones... im starting to worry if something's happened to u... r u ever comin bak? all i can realli do is trust u... i better hear ur voice soon.... or thers no knowing what i'll start thinking.. or even grow to feel... he told me i was someone who he was comfortable confiding everything to.. he told me im the only true friend he's got.. one that knows him inside out.. from the heart n not from the mouth.. weird thing is i feel the same way too.. we're very similar i guess... n when we talked bout the end of the world.. he asked me wat i'd do.. i said i dunno thank everybody i kno for being part of my life.. but for him meetin me face to face to chat was on his list of to-dos... we both have unfortunate love lives.. mb we were both lonely n emo at the time i guess... n always ther for each other in times of need? mb its coz he's there n munki's not.. ahh actually.. i think its a totally different feeling i guess.. glad i got tt sorted out... u better make contact soon munki!!!!! my "ge" also sang me a lullaby... i guess i felt pampered.. grr.. munki u better be worth the wait.. i guess u still have my heart. Jasmine. Wednesday, June 24, 2009, 6/24/2009 11:29:00 pm ♥ tuesday was a blur.. i only remember walking in the rain with umbrella.. oh thats rite! we went to osbourne park Pathology lab to get my other tissue blocks.. the shed was so big.. kerryn - my supervisor ended up doin all the heavy work.. mb she felt bad coz i spent whole friday night doin it on my own.. =/ but i really dun care.. its my project.. i should be doin the work.. lol! but we got all we could faster with the two of us anyways.. after gettin the slides and blocks.. we headed to a qiagen seminar.. about the new technology in DNA analysis.. woah.. those robots/machines are so high tech.. u dun evn need to pipette and transfer substance so many times.. it does it for you.. PCR is gettin high tech orh~ neway they had free food ther .. so hohoho! yumyum.. sandwiches, party rolls, pies, fruit.. i had sandwiches and fruit.. oh plus quiche! hehe! i got to admit.. i fell aslp during the talk.. =x i think its jus the rainy weather.. and the dark atmosphere... perfect environment for a nap... only thing waking me up was the cold.. afterwards.. headed bak to subi.. n continued lookin for my blocks.. i finished jus in time to catch the last bus at 630.. walked in the rain bak home.. today! i kept on sneezing... n oso.. i lousai-ed.. it had carrots in it.. from last nites maggi mee.. mb coz i added chilli powder to it... but chicken maggi mee sucks.. the angmo version... is sweet... dun like it at all.. it rained again.. whyyy T_T... rain rain go away come again another day (hav u herd of that song?) lol we used to sing that when we were little staring out from the window watchin the rain.. with our pet turtles next to us.. hehe! after much work today.. got home.. rested abit.. i burned myself on mum's precious george forman while heatin up some prata for lunch.. so atm i hav some cooked meat on me.. (would u like to try?) u kno i think the weather was so cold today .. i had a dream of iceskating.. n the dream was veri cold too.. was also almost late for bus today.. i din brush teeth or wash my face.. coz i din hav time.. but i manage to drop a vit C chewyy in my mouth for some saliva circulation incase i had a stinky breath.... so sleepy today.. went to rach's we made curry puffs, spring rolls, samosas and also wontons! fried fried stuff.. but it was funn.. hehe reminds me of currypuff makin wid granma! pro leh :P there were 6 of us.. gerri, rach, mish, me, and two other guys.. it was kinda good no one else came.. coz mish n i managed to catch up abit.. lol.. felt like old times :) anywayy we got to bring home our oiley delights and kept it for yum times~ hehe! Monday, June 22, 2009, 6/22/2009 11:47:00 pm ♥ today was an eventful day. i woke up wid sinus drip on the right side of my throat.. was going to call in n tell them i wont be goin in to sing.. jus incase i have (god forbid) swine! LOL i think too much.. but neway i decided to go neway coz after some practice.. and vitamins plus cough lollies.. my throat was better.. lol! so i went to karinyup n ended up staring at the stop sign .. they had gastroenteritis again.. bleh.. this time i didnt go home.. but i stayed to sing.. but it's alright.. i should be safe from spread coz i made sure to hav minimal contact with the surroundings there.. the powerplug didnt work so sound system today was soft -with the only source of music from my laptop.. usually i hav speakers to giv a blast off effect~ so i thot i'd choose songs they've already know.. n it was great coz many sang along wid me :) on my way bak on mitchell to kwinana, i contemplated turnin into mounts bay or keep going straight to south.. i was still deciding onli about 100m from the turn.. n decided meh~ why not.. south it is~ called jevina, no one picked up.. eva n tim were prob havin fun at supergolf.. so i din bother.. jien prob workin on monday.. i msged evy n ama.. but ama was out wid mum.. and evy didnt reply.. so i stopped at SupaIGA in leeming and decided to call evy.. jus incase she din hear her fone.. n yay! she was free.. i hav someone to go lunch wid hehe! so off we went.. ended up at Jan's Cafe next to spencer foodcourt coz that was close and taurus too.. grr.. LOL! but the food wasnt bad i guess.. lol.. $10 meal.. quite good! hehe! after tt we decided to go get some snacks at the chinese shop there.. n embarked on our journey to ama lee's.. we watched the dreamcatchers series.. i think around 4 episodes?.. haha! we also reinforced ama's taste for looks in guys to have smaller head to body ratio.. HAHAHHAHA! (joking :P) neways after that ama n her mum had some court papers to deal wid.. so they left us for a while.. hehe.. when they came bak.. we had dinner.. thanks ama's mum for dinner~ was yumyum.. hehe! n den we headed off to bbt .. n chatted while drinkin our not-s0-satisfying bbts.. i asked for less sugar... but it was sweet ass! not only that but my pudding dissolved in my 'warm' drink.. grr! hazelnut disappointment.. its so sad easyway dun hav hazelnut flavour nemore.. i miss it.. neway like all bbt sessions.. we hav our gossips.. dropped them home n den went home n went to do some exercise.... im toning up but not losin weight.. grr.. guess it'll take some time.. hehe! muscle developing eh.. hehe! (hopefulli...) newayyyyyyy.... everyone's comin bak! something's been in my mind... stupid munki... one more week!!!... wat makes things worst is that someone else makes more effort than you.. how come wei can get a sim card in china n sms.. n u cant do the same.. let's see how u're goin to answer to that.. 难道你根本没想念我你所说的那么多！！！ ahh actually it doesnt realli affect me.. jus wanna see reaction.. hohoho! enjoy ur week nottis, jasmine. Sunday, June 21, 2009, 6/21/2009 05:24:00 pm ♥ its been 3 days since my last post.. highlight of thursday~ adam had his friends over.. so i went out to get some dinner with cookz.. we initially decided to go ipoh but was lured away by Lee Palace's Buffet deal.. only $15 for all you can eat.. it was very much worth it.. tho i must say maybe not for the stomach... while driving off.. eva spotted evy n vic.. lols so we decided to make a U-ey and sit down as if it were a normal organised meeting.. LOL.. i couldnt hold imy laughter in whilst we pretended.. i hid behind eva n laughed most of it out.. after some chit chat.. we went our separate ways and den spent abit of time at eva's n den went home for an early night.. the mornings were rains and glooms.. i thank whoevers lookin over me for i have not fallen ill.. lol.. been coughing but nevertheless i'd still consider myself a chubby healthy person.. lol! thursday was like no other day.. lab n back.. for friday, i stayed n did part of my research till 730 at night.. and becoz katrina gets off work at 830, i waited for her so we can walk to the train station together.. it was fortunate coz i had an umbrella which hopefully helped keep us safe from the windy rainy night.. our jeans were half-drenched tho.. it felt uncomfortable.. neway becoz my last shuttle bus from subi to nedlands was at 630.. i had to go to wellington bus station to get bus bak.. adam was kind enough to pick me up from the petrol station n bring me to home sweet home.. thanku yangon~ n later that night.. eva n jen came over to try the wii active :D LOL! they both agree that it was good workout system.. hehe! hope jen doesnt suffer the same fate as i did.. ahhahas! as we all kno unable to climb stairs, sit or walk without ease can really be of great burden.. saturday.. the two notti bois came again.. this time.. darrius kept losing so he told his dad to leave cyres here and they go home.. he cried so much... bala is a strict dad.. mb its not for me to say but i believe when someone as young as darrius n cyres does somethin rong.. it is important to explain why and what they did.. i dun think bala does that.. i find he expect them to say or do things merely by his command.. "shutup"..why? "say sorry"..why? "stop ur nonsense"..wat is the nonsense? .. i told him to explain things.. he said "they never listen.." i guess i dunno the whole story so i dun hav the rite to say nething on that.. but if i ever hav to mother a child.. i'd pay attention to my words and actions wisely n try my best to bring up someone to be proud of... which reminds me of an interestin conversation my supervisor and colleague had during our lunch break on friday.. i believe mothers/parents really deserve admiralty.. lisa, the colleague, is out of her wits over her son which she had known for a long time that somethin was off about him.. he has a condition where his sense of smell is to a degree of niltch.. as we've learnt in neuroscience, the sense of smell is important for taste, hunger stimulation and sense of ur surroundings.. without the smell, you wouldnt kno whether the food is off, whether somethins burnin in the house, whether or not ur hungry.. apparently he went 2 days without eating.. id be so worried.. also when he's with other children.. he feels like he's missin out on somethin.. simple things like candy.. anything he takes cannot hav additives or preservatives... or it'll taste different.. everythin has to be plain.. he can differentiate between white bread.. n he's been eatin jus tomato sauce over rice/pasta.. any meat he wont eat.. so thers no proteins.. he takes vitamins like biscuits.. ppl with this condition who've only got it at later stages.. once said that the things they loved before all tasted really different.. like.. chocolate/strawberry cake.. would taste like mud.. ne mixed taste would not be pleasant for their palates... doctors dunno what to do.. i could see that she was omost in tears as she tells us her story.. it was realli sad but insightful.. i really look up to her as a mother... saturday night, eva got dropped off at my house.. we had dinner (a chickn n fetta pide to share) at ararat kebabs in broadway and headed over to the uwa tavern where benny held his 21st~ it was a happy night~ we sat around and chatted.. oso had some friendly ppl come chat to us.. we helped michelle with the cake.. which turned out heaps good.. lol i want michelle to decorate my cake too! hehe!! she made all the party food in a day.. woah! so good too! lol! first attempt at sushi was impressive indeed! lols~ neway most importantly benny seemed like he was havin fun :D so i conclude the night was a success! saturday i missed out on dance class 1-5pm becoz i chose the notti bois~ but there was another one on sunday.. but i missed that one too becoz i thot i had to stay home... oh wells hopefully ther's another free workshop another time.. thanks rach for lettin me kno about it tho.. sunday morning i woke up and went to meet bala and his friends for some indian breakfast at the kardinya community hall.. lol.. i met a well known athlete who used to run for singapore.. it was a "wow!" feeling.. to have seen a person who's achieved so much at such a late age.. another person to admire.. met his wife, daughter and grand daughter.. he was in perth for holiday.. learn about the politics of singapore from bala's uncle - goppal.. n only discovered why singapore didnt hav a casino.. coz they believed it would hav led to a higher rate of divorced marriages.. quite logical.. for i myself believe casinos are places where the weaker people may be taken over by their own greed.. neway they had tohsai, roti canai, chapatti, and the different indian savouries and sweets.. it was good to be taken bak to when my granpa would bring me to eat these delicacies in the wet coffee shops in 'old' singapore.. it felt like a wake up call.. not to forget these treasured yet simple memories of the past.. after brekky, went to bala's to see the bois.. lol.. they found a supersoaker in the giant blue 'christmas' bag of old toys we gave them from our childhood.. so i taught them how to use it.. i didnt wanna leave yet.. but i went home earli jus incase evy n vic had finish lunch n was on their way.. but only found out later the nottis had forgotten bout the equipment.. aiyoyo.. i have blur friends who resembles so much of myself... i am indeed forgetful myself =x..gotta get some omegas in.. newho.. i spent the rest of the day watchin the tudors.. and now on the third season.. quite near to the end of it.. i hav a sharp headache.. so i better hydrate myself n do some exercise... have a good break/holiday uni ppl.. i woke up from a dream of you forgetting me... honestly, no contact for 2 weeks, it really makes me feel like we dun need each other.. because it jus seems like we're too independent, too occupied to ache for each other during separation.. we put priorities above each other.. tho thinking of not being wid u at heart.. would probably cause heartbreak... things u say like u see my pics everyday.. n things u do.. not calling.. makes me wonder... "wat am i supposed to feel right now?" do u onli say things u wan me to hear.. or do u mean it.. i've asked u this before, stared at ur blank face omost in tears n walked off before u could answer... now i wan to kno wat u had to say.. coz the only thing i know now is i miss you (prob more than u kno).. n it jus feels like im waiting... im always waiting for a phonecall..... for ur presence..... for you......... if i really dun need u den why do i feel like this.. so confused... jasmine Wednesday, June 17, 2009, 6/17/2009 07:33:00 pm ♥ oh yea i wanna thank jen and eva for coming over last wednesday.. coz i really needed company especially since parents went away hehe thanks thanks :D thanks for the sushi jien! haha! AH my PPP is hereeeeee againnnnnnnnnnn... grrrrr... somemore this mornin i was like.. when is my period comin arh? JINX! newayyyy i've been pooing alot.. im happy.. i was so angry monday night coz i havent been pooing and i've been eatin lots.. LOL so my daily apples are helpin me! apples!!!! ringo!!! zzz.. im gettin tired.. better go do my "huh huh ha hee" n shower n slp.. its onli 730+ o_0.. i'll go start at 8 den... lOL hope my legs are ok toml mornin after this.. ~ okidoki.. plom plom plom~ p.s. someone remind me (usualli dearest ama) .. i keep forgettin i owe $15 to evy or vic? ~ do i owe neone else $_$? dun try to swindle me arh!!!! T_T Monday, June 15, 2009, 6/15/2009 11:20:00 pm ♥ i've decided to blog before i sleep. today i must say was an eventful day. I had my usual singing.. and i felt i'd improve alot! no nerves, no croaks, perfect pitch. One of the ladies even told me that I should be in concerts. Boosted up my self-esteem heaps.. but really I have a long way to go in my singing capabilities... I came home and did everything I planned. 1) i had to get dog food as my poor babies hav jus run out.. this time i decided to surprise them with gravy dog food! u kno the ones where you poor hot water on the dry food and wahla.. gravy.. lol and oh mai.. u should hav seen them gobble them up like crazy.. number 2) on my list was to clear up dog poo.. yes.. my backyard really is graveyard of dead poo.. lol why i say dead poo.. well.. i onli clear the ones that are dried and shrivelled.. coz the wet ones number one.. hard to clear and number two.. stinks when u touch them.. occasionally we would make the mistake of breaking a live poo which gives u an aroma similar to what i would imagine disturbin a skunk would give.. lol! i wonder wat skunks smell like actualli.. anyway yes.. it's interestin to learn wher my mum dumps the poo.. at the nearby park :P how sneaky of her.. and ofcoz.. i learn from her and did that today... 3) i started my 30 day challenge on a monday which is today instead of sunday.. anyone who wants to get active and has a wii.. i'd recommend gettin the game wii active! $74 and trust me it's worth every dollar.. it's only my second day using it.. and i love it! really gets ur heart pumping and muscle aches.. i'd say the first day after the exercise.. i couldnt sit, squat and man i was too lazy to even get out of bed to go toilet.. and i had to get up 3 times because my bladder wanted to bully me.. of all days.. on the day my muscles decided to swim in lactic acid.. (but wah.. it's shiok!) after about an hour of exercise.. i did my abshaper.. lol.. i guess thers onli one disadvantage in the wii active.. abs are abit neglected.. but meh.. im realli jus targetin my legs.. working wonders atm! anywayyyy if interested on wii acitve, check out this link http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_whKvb2TDIc or jus go on youtube and search on Wii Active! LOL fun fun! 4) cleared my study area.. after exams.. my notes were everywhere.. and also.. was pure lazy chucking things in places.. not filing them.. so i did that after.. all tidied up.. and those were the four things i had to do today.. LOL! i also packed my bag ready for the early start tomorrow.. oh yea.. and i jus sent in a CV to the same SJOG i do my honours in coz katrina was asking if neone was interested in working.. coz they're short of one staff and havent been able to get any.. i said why not.. tho i can only work weekends.. so it's 3-9pm, $18/hr i think it was.. lol~ we'll see how that goes.. i think it's a good chance to experience wat lab work is like i guess.. and also meet new people.. oh! and that's right.. i hav to make a note in my diary to open my own bank account.. im the only one at home who doesn't have one... hmm so which one... commonwealth for the win! lols! let's do that this week.. (i'm tryin to keep myself busy so i dun go on msn.. LOL! - i said i would after exams/ paros leave) oh! and i've been watching Little Nonya.. it's true what the notti girls say.. it's really sad.. freaking hell they're like EVIL.. ahh.. thank god we dun live in those times anymore.. i really admire them... im goin to remember to ask my pohpoh to tell me stories of the war :D apparently the japanese loved her.. gave her lollies n that.. hehe lol neway at bala's angeline, auntie n i had a vote - which character was most goodlookin in the series - Of coz, it's Yamamoto Yosuke (Dai yangtian)! OMG he's lips are so cute.. they curl up like a teddy bear's! so 'grum'-able! hehe.. he's really tall too! lol.. - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - let's have a run down of last week.. - man it's only a week.. it feels like ages.. 2 more weeks before munki time! hehe.. okok! last week.. Sunday - Katrina's for lunch~ Sammi came! TOTAL JUNK FOOD DAY! lol.. we had cake, kfc and i brought pizza from dominos.. broadway pizza was closed T_T but yea.. n den we had a catchup session.. lol after that we all got in one car and went to get some bbt at easyway! lols! it was a fun day.. katrina went to the sexpo and got showbag free.. it was surprising how interest sammi was in seeing them o_0 and i dun get it.. those magazines are jus boob-showing girls.. i really dun understand how some guys can jus look at tt all day.. it's such a normal thing.. i guess as science freaks we see the anatomy of it and all in our textbooks and i guess its the scientific way of thinking.. we dun really get it.. neway sammi left.. n i stayed for a while for some karaoke.. n den left for home.. coz adam was waitin for me to cook carbonara wid him.. YUM! ------------------------------------------------ i think i'll save this as draft and post it another time.. gotta wake up early.. should slp now.. ------------------------------------------------ 17th June 2009 Wednesday ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh only 3 days without friend-contact and it feels like forever.. lol! i finished little nonya.. so sad.. it had a realli good story-line! lol! AHHH my muscles are still swimmin away.. i cant move (my legs)!!! nothing's been happening actually jus goin to lab and bak... i'm taking the BUS now.. lovely 97 shuttle services! .. coz parking ther is not worth it if im goin to be ther 4 times a day.. dun wanna spend$10 a day.. im not evn earnin nethin yet.. LOL.. oh! i can tell u bout saturday! i saw many people on saturday.. LOL jodie n lianna came over coz they had to microwave their lunch.. and the science place is closed or somethin.. lol and so i let them in and went upstairs... (why did i go upstairs??) oh! to re-format my CV. though it's lookin plain.. LOL! oh wells.. haha! i'll chuck in a beautiful pic of tommy :P neways after that the two lil kings came over to play their smashbros.. bala came with a dozen donuts.. o_0 CRAZY! lol.. ther goes my diet.. i had two donuts.. and the nottis onli had one each.. (i wanted to try the strawberry and the chocolate ma!) darrius kept gettin angry at the cyres coz cyres wouldnt stop tellin him each time when he lost.. LOL! even his angry face is cute.. he got so angry he went downstairs on 3 ocassions!!! lucky he doesnt hold it on for long.. i tried ways of distractin his thoughts.. like playing with the dogs.. and gettin him orange juice.. lol! and when they were playin.. i went to make some lunch for myself.. as i went up wid my bowl.. i could see darrius' eyes fixate on a fishball..LOL! so cute.. "is that fis-bor? i wan fisbor!".. i fed him while i said "but it's my fishball!" he just smiled while munching on it.. and then when i asked him if he wanted more.. "no.. nooder nooderss!" he ate more than half the bowl.. LOL! n when it was jus soup.. he was like "i wan nooder!" i say thers no more.. look! and he's so notti "den make more!" cyres didnt want any.. u can tell the lil one eats more.. lol he'd giv up playin games for food.. cyres on the other hand.. jus plays all the way through.. LOL! when it was comin to 5.. i gave them time for a few more games and den we went home to bala and had laksa and satay! OMG IT WAS YUM! thank you the the balas! wouldnt mind one now actualli LOL! auntie angeline put on little nonya on for a test run~ lol! my eyes stick to the tv like glue.. haha! neway in the middle of watchin.. eva called for help! lol.. she wanted to escape the small talk with house guest? after dinner.. LOL! so we met at utopia n called everyone out too~ tim went home early.. so eva n i stayed and continued tokin bout our usual and not long evyc came to join in.. LOL! i had forgotten to bring nonya home.. so i went to bala's to get it.. n den i went to eva's~ had cake.. it was yum!!! n very pretty too.. lol.. so nice rite? and den we chatted and watched tv after LOL! sorry cookz! i only remembered that u were up since 8pm.. should hav said somethin!!! yea neways.. that'd be it for today.. ahhhh... why is time goin so slow.. missing you guys! Love, Jasmine. Wednesday, June 10, 2009, 6/10/2009 04:17:00 pm ♥ i look like a total wreck right now.. my lips are scabbing.. looks as thought i've jus come out of lip surgery for fuller upper lips.. my nose is blocked and red... my eyes are swollen.. my hair's in a mess.. it jus felt like everyone left me today... i dropped my parents off.. n becoz they were here longer den usual... it jus felt like a sudden change again.. n munki's not goin to call bak for 2-3 weeks.. i knew but broke down on the phone.. on top of that.. i came bak to an empty house.. the whole ride bak i was thinkin to myself.. at least yang will be at home... but nope.. so i toked to the dogs.. dunno wat i'd do without them.. gotta pick up poo .. mb toml.. it's gettin dark soon.. gotta go read up on my research things later.. n yes.. saturday and sunday was very insightful.. i learnt alot from the lil kids, how they think, the life bala leads.. it was unexpected i guess.. but i wont go in to details.. well not today.. had an emo tok wid lili last night too.. we talked for hours mainli bout his gf.. i feel sorry for him.. ahh i think i jus hav no mood to elaborate on nethin now.. im gettin dull and negative.. (hopefulli it's jus today) but now and then i get the feeling that no one really cares or tries to understand... i'm so sorry.. emo blog.. i really miss you. Saturday, June 06, 2009, 6/06/2009 02:39:00 am ♥ done wid exams! (relief.) Things that have happened: mum bought a huge ass printer/scanner/photocopier.. yes.. those u find at libraries~ I guess u'll be seeing more photos once its up and running... mummy found box full of baby pics and old pics!! reminiscing.. (2 hours later) arhh~ i jus played texas hold'em with lili.. cant blog now.. too tired.. Saturday goodness plan: - hair cut for irene - play at the park wid cyres n darrius - movies with evy, vic and adrian Coolios! Nitenites! Thursday, June 04, 2009, 6/04/2009 04:15:00 am ♥ i swear i have arthritis......... my ankle and knee joints hurt during cold weather......... help!!!! does anyone get it too? i'll try keep it warm under blanket.. (even that doesnt help much..) GRR! nitenite!! xoxo Jasmine. Wednesday, June 03, 2009, 6/03/2009 09:16:00 pm ♥ yes.. continuin from this morning.. i couldnt slp.. it took me 2 hours of tossing and turning.. to find the most comfortable-lest spot to fall aslp in.. i remember the sun was out and i was still tryin to slp.. i should hav had that shower lol.. and that if you thot the sun was the only thing keepin me awake.. of all days.. today.. i had 2 calls in the morning... both looking for my mum.. so i had to wake up and tell my mum twice.. o_0 gRrrr!!! wait for them to finish talking and go bak to my bed wid my fone.. n tt took some time for me to fall aslp too.. i woke up at 1.. had my shower.. n left for uni.. i left uni at 630 when mum called for dinner.. we had dragon seafood restaurant~ steamboat buffet! since it's so cold today..~ we ate alot alot with chinese herbal soup and tomyum soupp.. shoulda got other soups.. coz they were both clearr soups.. but YUP very fuLL noww!! for the past few weeks.. tommy has been a very notti boi.. he wont eat unless i sit ther next to him.. and feed him one doggy biscuit at a time.. if i leave him.. he'll wait at the door.. when he sees you.. he'll look at you with his happy face and wag his tail.. we've really spoilt him this time.. my poor baby's gettin skinnier.. n now doesnt want to eat unless someone is ther wid him.. haisss.. so notti!! what should i do.. he'll onli eat if i giv him wet doggy chumps! i think mb now he expects it all the time... very notti! neway now jus digesting.. gotta go bak to study soon hehe! ciao ciao~ 6/03/2009 05:15:00 am ♥ ahh.. dead from study today.. it's past 5AM n this is what midnite studies look like.. the constant yawns and the usual head on hand gesture.... not so super now are you "super-girl".. dont ask why i have the time to actually blog.. this blog was left on the edit page since 3 in the afternoon.. so why not?? n besides.. evn tho i look hell dead.. once it's past a certain time.. you're practically awake for the rest of the day.. gotta wake up at 1 toml - go meet sarah and practice somemore spss.. i think i'm pretty set for that tho.. jus the theory work gotta try stick it in my head.. let's go library and look for that textbook.. grr it better be ther! hehe.. if not im going to murdoch! i thot it was wednesday this mornin.. lucky it's tuesday~ lols! the stress is still not here... but veri soon jas... it'll come.. 'when u least expect it' .. no actualli i expect it to come very soon.. in the days to come.. LOL! neways.. irene has made a hair appointment for saturday 12pm.. more practice with haircutting! yay!! hehe.. funfun~ oh goshh.. ok i wanted to shower.. but looks like i prob hav to wakeup earli to do that.. ahhh.. shouldnt hav started study so late.. was playin msn games with lili!!! n0o0o0o0o jas! remember no distractions!!!! we went out for supper to uncle billy's.. havent been ther for some time.. lol! had 3 egg porridge n beef stirfry in shallots.. yum! but i din eat much.. coz.. startin on my "weightwatchers".. i din evn hav chocolate today.. aint tt somethin to be proud of.. ok.. i shall not bore.. rollie pollies all the way to bed oh wait! i only jus found out from eva an hour ago that lady gaga is a hermaphrodite... u'd never guess! actually.. we always thot something was weird bout her.. lol.. oh wells.. her music is still awesomeenesssiiii~~~~ AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! bye. Monday, June 01, 2009, 6/01/2009 10:39:00 pm ♥ oki! so wat happened today.. nothin much~ LOL! the usual monday.. singing.. bala came for dinner.. so before that we did some shopping for his usual coke, vanilla icecream, and chicken.. lols! we had a feast.. LOL i made some yongtaufu soup... we had soy chickn from hungkeee, roastduck, roastpork, charsiew from good fortune.. n we ate at home.. lol i sat there and listened to the adults tok like usual.. n try decifer their 'language' of marketing and business and swine flu... also gossips among the doctors and reminiscing about the past.. they were tokin about tv films they used to watch as a youngster.. LOL! bala always hav sound effects and frequently burst into short songs ... haha its oweis interesting to listen to them... tt reminds me... my jab is due on thursday~ wee! and i've been lookin for a weekend job.. n so when i told bala this.. he said to bring his monsters out instead... so i'm officially bringin the two notti bois out on the weekends for outingss ! yay! funfun! since they've been lookin for me too.. LOL! one condition from bala tho.. "never take them shopping!".. ahha not like i shop alot neways... coz i omost applied for volunteer work as a giftshop assistant at king edward hospital in subi.. filled in the application but didnt put it thru yet.. but yea! i guess taking them out will be more flexible for my future time management.. hehe! i hav not studied yet todayy.. this stress thing really isnt coming hei.. but it's ok.. im stayin up tonight until i get my allocated stuff done.. ok.. tts it for today... study time!! jasmine. 6/01/2009 03:02:00 am ♥ i jus came bak from murdoch lib.. (eva was ther too).. got some work done but not the expected amount.. hopefully toml will be more ... well... 'fulfilling'.. still got till friday neway.. omg.. how relief would i feel after that exam~ since i only have one.. i should make sure i do well in that one.. but i reckon it's bad coz like the stress is not hitting me yet... i so happen to read ama's post.. and decided.. mb before i slp i should do one of those fear posts too.. prob done it before.. but it'd be good to blog it... hehe.. i cant copy n paste from ama's blog tho.. so i'll jus list my fears... So.. I fear... closed spaces heights deep deep water failure bf's mum rats jumping from high places crossing hanging bridges falling incurable diseases scary movies creepy noises in the night not accomplishing my dreams/goals I've prob already said this before.. but what i fear most is losing someone you care about... even the thought of that jus really scares me.. i remember tai.. used to prank sms me n say oh.. "this is david's dad.. david jus got into a car accident.." FREAKING HELL! i realli panicked tho i din show it coz i couldnt realli do nething.... but i could jus feel my heart suffocate... it really feels like time jus stood still for that one second as you gather all your thoughts together to comprehend what you just found out... ahh! have you ever felt that before? i really dun like it.. especially if you cant do nethin bout it.. i really dun see how ppl can scare ppl like tt.. topics which involve the feelin of losin someone..i dun think should be played around with... wat if it did happened n bakfired... wat if it happened to you n suddenly tt fwen u played ur tricks on? gone? i wouldnt kno wat to feel... only thing i'll be feeling is regret and i would guess anger at urself..? i dunno.. dun wan to think about it really.. ok! so let's wriggle away from such depressing topics.. munki called today so i'm happy happy!! yay yay! n tired now.. gotta go slp.. if not i'll yabber bout weird stuff again.. nitess!!! goodluck wid exams! love, jasmine.