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Monday, July 27, 2009, 7/27/2009 07:11:00 pm ♥ hello blog! im bak with baby black n it sure looks healthy! hehe! i do have a tinge of red and somehow managed to make it look like regrowth~ boo! lol! oh wells.. i'll experiment more next time hehe!! messy work coz my henna was not pastey~ n den i gave up on the red highlights.. n put the black powder in the red one n den it was still watery but oh wells.. i tried it anyway.. it looks orite ~ hehe here's the end result: yes.. i'm covering my pimple xD sooo what's in the recent days plus minus today!? first ever experience in a sauna! ama had free suites from her daddy so there was chama and jen. jen only met up wid us at night but she did also experience the dry sauna the next mornin... i wish i had one at home! omg burn fatties burn!!! lol!!! there was also a complimentary continental breakfast buffet for 4 in the morning which was very filling and yummy. LOL! adam has a girlfriend! the title says it all~ finger food made spring rolls and dumplings with pohpoh!!!! apparently adam n his gf gave up helping her because well not everyone finds it easy LOL... girl girl to the rescue again :P spring rolls!! jas VERSUS adam n co. (jasmine, 1 - adam, 0, yatta! LOL) tim the personal trainer eva n i are now having sore muscles thanks to personal trainer tim~ i guess that's a sign that it's working!!!! after one month we will have to see the effects of our changes in diet and lifestyle.. jiayou! Giving thanks section of today's blog goes to: Ama's dad for the stay and dinner delivery! lol! (salmon salad & 3 meats rice n vege!) Ama for the invitation to such a wonderful experience. Charm for driving ama here and us to the hotel n NB. Jien for driving me home. Eva & Tim for coming over to embark on our one month challenge in personal fitness as well as spending wii time with me. (ama i have your smooth groove in my wii!) PohPoh for putting up with my nonsense. HAHA! Upcoming events: Evy n vic are coming back toml! I should really do some uni work..... well, that's all for today~ takecare everyone! love, jasmine. Thursday, July 23, 2009, 7/23/2009 11:49:00 pm ♥ you know how sometimes it surprises you when you meet a member of the family in public? when i'm famous and seen everywhere but u took me for granted :P hahaah jkjk! lol! i had the same feeling when i saw my arms today~ LOL! yes.. u heard me.. HAHA! well it's a similar feeling.. coz you've lived with them all your life and after a while u jus get used to it and never notice it being ther.. lol well.. today.. i was shocked as i looked upon my arms, examining the roots of each hair follicle and how they lean on different sides and angles .. "omg u hairy sexy beast!" hahahha!.. no.. im jokin bout the sexyness LOL and yes.. i didn't notice them in a while.. not whilst changing nor showering.. and so i realised that appearance is now way down in my priority list.. buying new clothes just for the sake of it.. are now things of the past.. there are some clothes in my closet that i have never worn out.. maybe i'll get bak into shoppin streak when my clothes get too big for me.. who knows when that's going to be LOL! but i notice this shopping thing is very addictive.. and also very unecessary... there are many reasons why girls shop i think... 1) to look good 2) it's a stress relief 3) to show off 4) impulse - just want to spend on somethin! 5) for a function 6) for a new look my main reason for shoppin was - for a new look.. i like finding ways to change myself everytime.. i have who knows how many pictures of myself that don't even look like me.. u kno tts prob why i take so many pics of myself.. i find my face very interesting.. lol! also partly coz im... well i hate to say it but i... im vain! lols!!! i mean i dun think im perfect or nethin.. lookin in the mirror jus proves it! lols! but its good im gettin used to my body shape n comfortable in my own skin.. LOL (ok i think im gettin off topic) oh thats rite i wanted to say its so unecessary coz with the amount of clothes i have.. i can prob change the style everyday... let's work out the maths... prob have 200 tops probability x 30 bottoms x 50 accessories x 10 footwear = 300 000 different types of outfits... should be 200! x 30! x 50! x 10! x 15!dresses = tt would prob be more than 300 000 different combinations.. gosh.. i forgotten most of my maths.. newayyy yea.. point of this is the clothes i have now will last me a long time ~ but impulse shopping is so easy to do.. n addictive! - hope i can control! and again im fallin aslp very soon... it's become a habit to blog before slp... i decided not to talk so much about my daily life... but more on my thoughts on things.. but today would have gone somethin like this "oh i went to lab n finish early den i went to library, read some theses and den i went home n den pohpoh cooked dinner.. pinch n bully pops, den i went to eva's, they can watch youtube on tv now! and den utopia.. dan n jeral was there.. jen came.. n yea! fun day!" well it's interesting but i dun think i wan to know what i do everyday nemore... or whoever reads this blog in the future.. also leaves me no privacy at all... not that i really mind.. ah we'll see how the blogs go in the days to come.. mb i'll have no thoughts at all.. n i'll(future)/u'll hav to read my daily doings~ however now my thoughts are full of sleep and sweet dreams.. so nitenite! love, jasmine. Wednesday, July 22, 2009, 7/22/2009 11:29:00 pm ♥ it's raining very heavily.. i hope my fish "pond" doesnt overflow... i oweis have the image of it overflowing.. why..? i did a massive booboo today in lab... i waited about 2 n half hours for my IHC to be done.. but i rushed the end of it and put water into xylene once again.. i missed the dehydration step from alcohol to xylene.. ArgHHh!! im such a dunce.. i could blame the lack of food and the sniffing of xylene (alcohol effect - dizzy, confusion, headache) but i refuse.. only have myself to blame... ahhhh next time i should do things slowly... katrina was waitin for me to give her a lift as well.. that's prob why i was in a hurry.. i havent been this stress in so long.. gav katrina a lift home.. n went bak to the lab coz i forgot to do some minor things.. prob could hav gotten away wid it but i dun wanna seem like a "dun care" person.. im glad i did it coz the guilt was kinda eatin my heart almost like i imagine how acid disintegrates the flesh.. it's times like these i wish you were here to comfort me and tell me everyone makes mistakes.. tell me that everything is orite.. becoz i know if it comes from you - ther's a higher probability i'll believe it or prob forget about it.. but i eased my soul with frantic research on google.. whether puttin it into xylene affects nething... n im 90% sure everything should be orite.. ~ i got home at 9.30pm and was so famished i ate dinner in less than 5 min.. my own personal world record.. LOL yesterday i finished at 730 doing DNA transfering - i have a feeling the whole plate was contaminated coz the seal wasnt very tight.. day time we went to Osbourne park to do some dna extractions which kinda took the whole day.. frank came in for a while to deliver the methylation kit.. and it was good to see a familiar face.. omg! it can be so isolating there.. i jus feel so... inferior? especially under my supervisor ~ everybody else is ok.. ahh! wat's rong wid me! i should be afraid of no one!! i think coz she kinda controllin the exp to go her way... i'm so confused.... greg should make more time for me since he's realli the head supervisor~ T_T i feel more myself when im with them.. ND wants it this way, she wants it another way.. i realli dunno which one i should follow... ahhhhh realli needs more gettin used to i guess... please be worth it in the end! u kno i dunno whether i wanna take the phd course nemore.. nursing seems to be the best bet now.. pharm mb~ lol! u can do it jas! quick decide!!!! (mb i should take a yr off to decide.. ) OMG i dun like it how i cant decide.. i guess it's a hard decision.. my future.. ok eyes closing... think about it next time.. takecareeee.. swt dreams! love, jasmine. p.s. i miss you. Monday, July 20, 2009, 7/20/2009 11:05:00 pm ♥ i was fallin aslp in a seminar.. so bad.. person must hav thot i was rude but i din get much slp.. saturday had to wake up earli to bring my granma to her fwen's place.. n den to supa iga and den to another fwen's place.. she wanted to play mahjong.. lol! she lost $1.. while she was playin mahjong i was at eva's place.. stayed in bed all day.. n talked and we had some food! yumm! meegoreng! haaha havent had tt in a while.. LOL.. not long after tim came.. they were gettin ready for tracey's party.. so i left and went bak to ah kwan's house where pohpoh was.. had dinner ther... talked to ah guan n his wife for a while n den it was time to go home.. but before that we went to supa iga again to buy veges.. as wells as chin's noodles house to get charsiew.. good fortune is so much better.. den home home.......... at nite chama came over n we drove to dragon palace for karaoke.. the room was again polluted.. i really thot there was no smoke.. n i thot it was a family thing.. not a bruneian thing ahhaha! but oh wells.. ~ went home smelly too tired so i slpt.. sunday morning.. woke up in the afternoon.. did some exercise.. showered went to IGA wid pops and den.. i dun think i did much... i made custard.. coz the whippin cream i got for when i made custard puffs was goin to expire.. so yea i used tt to eat wid bread for today.. not bad.. LOL neway sunday munki called.. it was happy thing until i turned it sad n ugly when i said "i feel tt you dont know me"... ah.. i blame my hormones.. lol... it ended with him sayin thankyou.. he never thanked me before.. for waiting.. was quite touched i guess.. we said our goodbyes really sadly this time... i still feel bad for that today... sigh.. this feeling sucks.. today mum asked me to go hk in nov.. we'll see wat happens.. ~ the weather realli sucks today.. it hailed 3 times.. each time the hail stones got bigger.. the world is realli changing.. jus like our moods.. grrr.. no singing today.. so sad..i called in this mornin to tell tt i couldnt make it... i hope the receptionist told them.. dun wan them to wait for me.. stayed till 730 doin DNA extraction preps~ the strong winds killed my umbrella.. it was a good umbrella as well.. guess i need titanium ones for longer lasting LOL! watched iceage last nite.. n the hangover plus bruno.. lol.. they were all quite orite~ lol iceage was the best out of the three tho~ lols! watch watch =) and my eyes are failling now.. nitenites! love, jas. the wind outside is scary... Saturday, July 18, 2009, 7/18/2009 03:24:00 am ♥ evy and victor are leaving in a few hours .. so sad... but exciting for them i guess! lols.. 10 days.. should be a breezeeee like eva and tim's~ i'll try not to miss u guys too! lol this week... immunohistochemistry... test of patience.. and results: i have patience when it comes to something important.. i want everythin to be done exactly and as lil error as possible.. yes, i m a perfectionist (in certain conditions). highlights of the week: monday bluesss~~ n den bought tiff pressies with rach n eva.. n den rach had to go so eva n i shopped till stores were closing.. she managed to get some clothes for her parties.. hehe! n i got a walleet n a cool acessory. LOL! tuesday - we had a surprise party for tiffany at moon cafe~ felt like old times! i miss it... thanks rach for organising it~ tho i din realli get a chance to talk to her.. wanted to tho... hope everythin is goin well for them.. ~ she seemed like she had a good time.. i guess tts wats important =) evy later called for porridge but i was too full to go out~ thanks for askin neway :) wednesday - accompanied eva to make her invitation mail deliveries~ lols! it was quite fun! n den i ended up stayin till 1130.. watchin tv lol thursday - we stayed in lab till 7ish.. kerryn gave me a lift home coz i missed my last bus.. thanku! friday - dna extraction prep for monday's training~ i think im goin to hav to giv monday singing this comin week a miss.. ~ got a new HRM machine training.. i guess tts my priority atm.. bus n walked home.. saw the notti pops~ lols! n off we went to leeming.. i dropped her off at her fwen's house... while i went to ama's house for dinner.. it's so nice to hav family gatherings.. i dun think we do that much except for chinese new year LOL! i actually envy that :) thanks for the invite! i got my fortune told by asile's dad.. i guess everythin was good.. except the mole on the neck.. LOl! went to bubble tea to see the evyc for the last time before they leave for singapore~ hav fun guys! jus watched the proposal.. u kno that scene where she fell into the water and he helped her up the boat and hugged her... i cried.. it kinda felt like she prob has never been hugged for ages! 18yrs or more! i could kinda relate to how she feels coz it feels forever since the last time i was in his arms... or nebody elses for tt matter.. i can oweis hug my pop's but the feeling is different.. she's in my arms... n i miss those random kisses my mum seems to always give me (even tho i think they are sometimes violently done wid pain).. ah.. love stories make me go all sappy wappy.. weepyy... i dunno how long i can take this distance.. my P is late.. mb im gettin into one of my moods again.. someone should invent a bolster tt hugs u instead of u huggin the bolster.. it'll prob make sleeping easier for everyone :) agree? ah.. im actualli fallin aslp as i type this.. so prob cant remember wat i typed toml.. might sound weird this blog.. but~ nite!!! evy jus logged off. n prob headin to the airport~ hav a safe trip nottis!! muacks! Deprived. Sleepy. Jasmine. Sunday, July 12, 2009, 7/12/2009 08:05:00 pm ♥ i dream of munki again.. except this time.. i was arguing that he was there but wats the use coz when i wake up he's gone again... he managed to convince me that i wasn't dreaming... -_- so when i did wake up... i was tellin myself... TOLD U IT WAS A DREAM!... i actually believed he was bak for good... n den i went bak to slp n i met him again.. except this time... i was tellin him about my dream... LOL! errr yes... it was a.. interesting dream.. lols he called today xD yay! wat a surprise! i thot he was goin to call next week.. but realli he called from china to tell me that he'll be callin next week from HK.. lol! notti boi.. hehehe newaysss~ show n tell! my CUSTARD PUFFS! lol~ while i was taking the pic of myself (example above).. when i stood up n look to the tray.. ther was only one left!!!! T_T oh wells.. yes.. made the custard n put it in the puff~ yum yumm! thanks adam for helpin me too! it was fun! they were humungous coz adam put such big blobs on the tray prior baking.. i gave him a table spoon bigger den usual.. partly my fault LOL had bbt last nite wid the crew last nite too! lol.... today was jus get fit, relax, sort out some house matters.. relaxin day.. ~ nothin much on my mind atm.. i'll go prep for singing xD hehe! love, jasmine. Friday, July 10, 2009, 7/10/2009 08:30:00 pm ♥ ahh havent blogged in a while..!! lol has this got to do wid eva being away? or isit coz.. i'm more occupied hehe!!! well.. i mite not realli remember wat happened.. but now eva's bak!!! n my pohpoh and ahyipoh are back too! and the string of questions never seem to stop... which is good i guess.. pohpoh brain is still active lol! i realise its easier to stay home when there are more ppl at home.. not only that.. but i cant wait to go home after lab nowadays.. lol! usually i wouldnt mind stayin in the lab till late... but recently i find myself rushing home to pinch those cheeky cheeks... hohoho! and also learn how to cook of coz.. i've cooked a few dishes with the aid of pohpoh of coz :P it's actualli very easy .. lols! either that or im jus naturally talented :P hahaha! to feed my cravings... im making cream puffs toml! hope pohpoh dun mind i invade the kitchen for abit ~ LOL~ toml morning.. we're wakin up at 830 in the mornin n goin to the markets! hehe~ funfun! ehehe! today.. pohpoh asked why is that we always bite her n that johnny is also the same.. coz.. i 'bit' her cheek, n den not long after... adam 'bit' her ear.. xD AHAHHAA!! i told her bite is love~ haha.. why else would we bite her :P so grrruuuummm!!!! yesterday nite was katrina's celebration of gettin australian citizenship.. lol! i sneaked out after making sure my pops was sound asleep... met some new people.. some interesting ppl... it felt good to socialise.. neway omg ate again.. i oredi ate at home... boo neway sang karaoke after eating... n ate somemore haha i took away some food for lunch today.. coz usualli i hav nothin to eat in lab =/ been eatin crackers... well for the rest of the week.. nothin much but the ordinary happened.. i ended up leavin in time on tuesday to pick up the two pops because i could n had nothin much to do the rest of the day at lab.. so that was good.. hehe! i noticed there were alot of hugging as ppl came out of the arrival hall.. we jus never had that practice... the first thing i did was.. pinch =x hahahahhaha!!! n den took over the trolley LOL! n questions away~! hehe! on that note... i also notice that when i lie next to someone in bed.. i like to play with their face n pinch pinch here.. pinch pinch ther... n den.. random bites and kisses.. AHHHHH! gosh.... im so weird n annoying.. thank god only the few less fortunate (or fortunate :P) will experience the wrath of me xD ehhee! (it's such a different side of me.. ) monday~ one plus hours of singing!!!! hehe it was realli realli fun hehe! coz there was no bingo~ i came home.. made some fried rice.. its so nice to be asked to cook.. u must agree that its a good feeling u get when ppl eat ur food, meanin they appreciate ur work n effort... so happy~ n evn tho u kno its not the best thing in the world.. haha.. they still finish it! hahaha! (sorta like my singing) after eating not long.. chama came wid three hongkies and we toook the tarago to cottlesloe beach.. n den coz i forgot to get my wallet before they left... i made adam bring me to leeming to get it.. n we had nishi for dinner plus bbt xD hehe.. sunday i stayed home all day.. it was lots of exercise on this day lol~ n when i got out of shower.. munki called.. ~ lols.. happy day xD saturday.. the notti bois came.. lol.. i got my lunch from bala.. some beef rendang wid coconut rice! yum!! n den he left.. so after playin the wii.. i took the boys to a playground near by on hackett dr.. jus before the sunset... so it dun get too dark.. wow.. havent played so much in ages.. lol.. on the car drive home.. they were naughty so i forbid them to come this week.. lol! neway.. some scary stuff happened at bala's place.. but wont say.. lol! neway.. i stayed there till 1am watchin tv.. friday... i went to emily's birthday without knowin who was going.. LOL.. i got ther a lil earli so i stayed on the fone wid munki until more ppl were visible.. i was the first high schooler to attend.. lol.. so i walked around aimlessly smiling at everyone who passed me.. hahaha!! yes.. i would say i looked abit "sotong" .. jen forgot about the party.. so sad to be forgotten.. i reckon she still coulda make it.. but mb she had better things to do that nite... neway.. after a while.. bojana, sarah hoskin and liesl arrived.. n that was pretty much it from high sch.. lol! but it was good.. got to chat with them n got to kno them abit more.. lol.. nice ppl~ we also played fool's ball .. lol! n i emily's speeches were realli good!! i think i wan speeches in my birthday too (: we'll see.. they also had fairy bread! havent had tt in a while... LOL.. but neways.. we all decided to go home at the same time.. ofcoz tts after cake n dessert n sparklings lol.. happy 21st emily! while goin home.. i felt like goin to eva's.. hahahaha but she's not in neway! cheh! i think it became a habit... lol! oh wells! not a problem now hehehe! the rest of the days in this week were i guess... quiet? lols.. not very exciting.. jus lab n bak.. lol! neways.. i think my laptop battery is dying and im sittin in between the pops while they slp.. =x i will impose no more.. hehe.. pops is still awake tho.. still can remind me to buy popiah skin toml.. lol! ok la i shall tok to her now.. till next time, keep warm n stay out of the rain.. :D love, jasmine.