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Tuesday, September 22, 2009, 9/22/2009 04:09:00 am ♥ i prob wont have time this week to blog so i better now i got friday off from lab ~ hehe! supposed to write up for thesis.. but i ended up doing nothing but online ~ it was cocktail night.. i heard some roudy stuff was goin on.. but gotta clarify that :P neway i had dinner wid jason n chong at makan2.. dunca, jasmine n another girl was on another table too~ lol we had yummy tomyam rice, nasilemak, rendang prata, and indomee goreng...n ofcoz TEH TARIK! hehe jason gave very wise advice about career choice.. but part of it.. i dun agree.. he said.. u dun particularly hav to enjoy wat u do? but wouldnt that be... miserable? n thn u take bak the misery home n den boombastic!? he suggested i take the year off.. jus traveling and working.. n den figure out wat u want to do after.. because.. alot of ppl working now still dunno wat they wanna do~ the example was chong.. n he doesnt like wat he's doin now.. hais.. neway we moved to iceyice - long time no go! hehe.. had lychee ice wid sago.. chong had mango ice wid strawberry and jason had a reddate tea.. which wasnt veri nice =x lol! we successfully converted him to iceyice fan-si! steph gave him bad experiences.. =x neways we ended up playin 2 games of scrabble and drank a whole bottle of rose champagne (jus the jelees drinkin).. it was fun ~ tho i onli realised how tipsy i was after i got home n got off my car.. couldnt walk or stand straight.. remind me again not to scull down alcohol in a hurry to go home.. we left chong at 2am.. saturday~ picked jevina from the esplanade train station hehe.. n off we went for tony roma feast.. gosh.. the bill came up to 100+.. i think we ate too much =x lols!! oh wells once in a life time yea.. we had two entres and one maincombo to share LOL had yummy cocktails too~ hehe! one from tony's and one from tiger lils.. yes we decided to test trial the place.. after that we headed to utopia for some karaokeness! lols 2 hours~ too tired after all the food and alcohol.. so we went home.. watched hannah montana movie on my laptop.. n den.. fell aslp o_0 so we din end up finishin it.. the next morning we couldnt get off the bed till 12ish..den went to emma's for dimsum =D after dimsum.. i dropped her home n decided to go to murdoch library.. i did some work before munki called.. lol! he called to tell me he wont be comin down to hongkong -_- had that gutt feeling.. neway the library was closing and i found the 24 hr area a lil crowded.. so i decided to go disturb ppl ~ and the 'lucky' disturbee was ama lee LOL! they were making scones.. so cute! they were quite nice =D tho ama had mention that it had a very strong after taste of the self raising flour.. lol she also was stressed about her party and invites~ that reminds me.. i hav to send out invites the comin weekend.. i've invited more ppl.. jus to be polite i guess.. dun wan ne awkwardness meetin them after? :) thanks ama& her mum for dinner again~ LOL! yumyum~ munki called again during dinner.. ~ he actualli made it bak to hongkong~ yay! so we talked for more den 2 hours :D made him miss his train tho.. hope he din hav to pay for the next one =x it's so hard hanging up~ no.. we don't have a you hang up no you hang up kinda love.. LOL its like.. j: "ok go!!!!" m: "ok im goin now" m: baii j: baiii m: baiii j: baiiii m: baiii mm (fading whispers) beep beep beep he always hangs up.. oh wells~ oh did i tell you we have our very own public outdoor gym lookin into swan river.. quite cool.. tho the equipment has no resistant so.. u'll hav to be on them for a long time to actualli work some muscles lol! mum n coachy are bak today.. i picked them up after singing, droppin my stuff off at home.. n den left to airport wid adam lol! after pickin them up from airport we had to make a zigzag trip while lookin for lunch lol! first we went to burswood. but couldnt get in.. coz we werent in the rite attire to do so.. n den we drove past makan which was closed.. n mr mo at joy cafe was closed too.. hahah so we ended up at sizzle mania! lol veri much like pepper lunch in singapore.. hehe oh! evyy introduced a very nice series called GLEE.. i watched the first three episodes of it and i really enjoyed it hehe! it's as she described it~ a teenie highsch musical series.. definitely suits my taste hehe! oh! and i did do some thesis work today :) planned it out nicely.. i'll continue toml if i dun get called into lab.. :) ive been calm lately which is good =) hehe! den later at nite took coach n mum to kimchee house for some steamboat n pancake.. lol! we were talkin bout my two brothers.. how their characters are very extreme at times.. we talked about how mum doesnt greet ppl... she said it wasnt necessary and that it was better coz they can do wat they wan? i guess that's where we learn our snobbyness from =x n den we had bubble tea at tea fusion talkin about her interestin patients n how she handles them... this was while waitin for takeaway porridge from uncle billy's for adamm.. i find my mum really capable.. im learning.. i think i jus need more confidence.. n when we got home.. she asked me again wat i was goin to do after uni this yr.. talked about opening a health business.. n i made a self-discovery that.. i will tell another time.. once i think it through and decide on it.. i realli dislike how im so wishywashy n not kno wat i want.. gosh its 5.24.. i feel so awake tho.. must be that run.. neways i'll continue this another time~ din evn put up pics.. LOL! well paros goin to syd toml for a day so i better slp n be readi to bring thm to airport =) take care n keep warm guysss love, jasmine. Friday, September 18, 2009, 9/18/2009 09:16:00 am ♥ yes.. im bloggin so early today because i got woken up by his voice so I'm stress.. mb i should tell him not to call me anymore.. rather listen to him on email.. he really doesn't need to.. but i guess he means well.... i got today off to write up instead but not goin into lab stresses me more.. m i wasting time? mb i should really calm down... had the worst day yesterday... i think the reason being its gettin to almost the end of my honours and im stressing out.. i do the dumbest things.. contaminated my precious DNA stock.. because i put the reagent in the wrong tube.. =_= so i spent half the day de-contaminating it and recovering it.. also i found out i left the freezer door open not closing it properly the night before.. n so it was defrostin the whole night.. i hope i din destroy all their mastermixes... mine worked fine yesterday.. hopefuly it's alrite.. so i apologised to ppl and also wrote letters to those who weren't there... they told me not to stress about it coz i didnt do it intentionally... n i feel bad that they're all nice about it.. i deserve some sort of scolding and anger from them? which would probabli make me more stress.. so i guess im grateful.. on the brighter side of things.. i did try and make some happy time for myself.. tuesday i finished early.. so kat n i caught the 4.45 movie at carousel for UP 3DD how exciting! .. it was draggy at the beginning with no talking but as the story built up.. can see all the important morals of life.. to let go.. to help n be there for ppl.. how relationships are made... determination.. belief... i guess.. life is an adventure.. mb the moral of the story is things happen for a reason.... things come ur way most of the time if u keep a good heart.. yeah.. another movie i watched was.. The Soloist.. last night... its my new favourite movie.. it's always the most talented that have psychological problems... if you have time go look it up at Mr Ayers and Steve Lopez in youtube 60 min.. (made it a link) its based on a true story about these two.. i really liked it.. found it inspirational, about friendship, love and life.. it led me to join up for volunteer work at salvation army.. i've always wanted to meet the homeless and see what they're like as a person.. happy, angry, sad, trying to make their way?.. or experience homelessness one day.. i kno cyrus has... for that i really look up to him too.. i hope i get the soup run position.. apparentli alot of ppl volunteering.. so i mite not be able to do much.. but i'll jus wait.. last weekend was actually quite joyful.. saturday was a busy day for me.. started off at ikea wid evy hehe we met up wid ama, her mum, her auntie and jodie and asile~ her auntie paid for lunch which we never thanked her for, we were really tryin hard to pay our own bill.. i'll thank her when we next see her.. after that we hung out at ama's for a while.. started in the car coz ama no keys.. LOL! and den after that.. we went inside hehe use some facilities.. talked abit.. and i had to leave for freo.. lol lucky sammi didn't leave yet.. coz.. i got a ride from her.. hehe! we were 45 min late to meet hope and kat.. lol i asked sammi how come she so late she so cute she told me not to tell them.. but she went to her auntie's house n pretty much lazed around.. haha she's as notti as me :P yups.. we had churros and premium shakes n talked about my party.. everyone's excited.. hahaha sammi din kno bout the theme.. n so we were like.. u hav to wear somethin silky... n she's like noooo!! hehehe u're lying!!! n hope was telling her in honesty sammi yes thers a theme.. hahaha!! n den she said "are there any guys ther?" HAHHAHAHA!!! so she's only dressing up for guys.. so notti!! lols!! we stayed in freo till late at night, hope had to go after san churros tho.. after tt we took some neoprints ate at kailis for dinner.. n den sat somewhere and waited for kat to go.. but she ended up followin me down with sammi to my car.. n went home got changed n we went to Eve's Club.. saw jade austin and kylie ingham.. lol they remember me.. evn got a hug LOL! but they went toilet n i goin out of toilet.. LOL! the night was fun.. ended up droppin kaye wid some guy she met 2 weeks ago for a min.. he works in the mines.. like chuck.. n 2 years younger then her.. apparentli now she's got a 60 day before sex rule.. LOL! goodluck to them! sunday.. didnt do much but online and went to eva's did some pilates.. n den badminton at leeming rec wid eva, serene n ama.. LOL!! ama so monkey like while playing badminton.. it's so funny to watch and distracting LOL.. eva won all her matches.. she's realli good at baddy ~ serene was gettin competitive haha!! but yeaaa overall it was a good work outt... LOL munki called at night.. which was good.. coz i had someone to spill all my complaints to =x hahas!!! n i was sooo stressed as well.. but it's exciting because i get to see him soon =D hope this birthday turns out good unlike my other planned ones alone =) and yes i did have a dinner night with johnny... he's the same... still playing his psp.. but yes.. i sat there complainin about adam n johnny was like "why is that boy like that arh? still the samee" we talked about the future and also found out he plannin to do MBA after NS... it was a good catchup =) he left yesterday.. we din hav time to bring him oso :( so sad.. well at least he got his fwens =) oh yea he wanted mum's eftpos card so he could spend... i was shocked to hear the words "they got alot of money neway" from him.. n told him he can't say that.. n that money we or parents got is very hardly earned..... sigh... johnny prob doesnt evn think of wat itd be like if we werent so lucky to have been brought into this family.. he's taking full advantage! grr! (you kno wat im less stressed now) might watch another movie and den try n do some thesis writing.. goin to check out the new science library at uwa.. heard it's very modern like singapore.. ehhe! ahh i got stuck at youtube.. Hhhahaha enjoy ur weekend guys =D jasmine. Monday, September 14, 2009, 9/14/2009 02:50:00 pm ♥ ive been waking up with the immediate feeling of what i would describe stress.. i hope my body doesn't turn it into a habit everytime i wakeup.. that would really suck.. so abnormal.. i shouldn't be stressing anymore.. im in lab.. once again.. waiting for my gel runs.. which take about 30-45 mins.. so i thot it'd be a good time to blog and past some time.. lol! hopefully no one comes in and catches me.. i guess Dimbi won't mind if i do.. LOL~ so wat happened last week... helped out with the triple S science fair again this year. It was fun :) explainin to the little kids how our muscle generate electric currents when we move them.. had a long talk with Greg and he thinks pharmacy is good in a long run..~ and he also understand wats it like for mum to be hardened to jus giv her company to someone after developin it so well.. i do agree with alot that he says.. i guess my decision is startin to shift towards pharmacy again now.. i haven't eaten home in a while.. kept goin out for dinner... i think i'll continue this blog on my weekend when i get home.. which mite not be too late today.. :) hopefully. Wednesday, September 09, 2009, 9/09/2009 08:31:00 pm ♥ 9/09/09 sigh this stress is realli eating away my shield... i try to breathe in and out.. it works for a while but i hate that feeling... my hearts burning and gettin heavy... my supervisors don't agree with one another.. i have no idea wat i should be doing.. i don't wanna take sides... this experience is really... traumatising... his voice is ringing in my head! i realli dun like it when he calls.. its so stressful.. not only that.. he talks for ages... n i try to cut him short but he continues talking.. while listening i get annoyed at how i cant do nething about not liking it.. i guess my patience only goes so far.. i don't like gettin reminded of how i don't have time when truthfully, i think i do have time to finish this honours.. i jus planned my lab days out.. and i do have time.. well at least this self-comfort has kept me calm for now.. thanks munki for listenin n comfortin me too.. 11/09/09 ok.. now i don't have time.. but i spoke to greg last night about it.. and he says i shouldnt worry too much becoz he says i wont be expected to finish anyway but i do hav to do more PCR for other samples.. thing is.. the bisulfite conversion kit to convert C nucleotides to T in DNA is sooo not workin!! lol but goin to optimise it next week.. hopefulli with glycogen or somethin... ok prob not goin to understand wat i'm sayin but it's wat im thinkin atm.. parents gone home today.. i din evn hav the chance to say goodbye or bring thm to the airport like i always do.. depressing.. all the time in the lab.. i guess i onli realli hav one more month.. u can do it jas!! lol~ n den u can sorta enjoy hehe! at the moment im in lab.. waitin for PCR ... hmm.. i'll prob be here till 530-6 today.. grrr! i havent been slpin.. havin nightmares of terrible outcomes of my experiments.. research is so hectic~~ ah.. i'll get thru it eventualli.. it's friday.. what should i do? oh that's right.. johnny is bak for a week.. he looks realli darkk.. and also.. toned up everywher.. evn the face? lols! not to mention veri shaved hair! mb one day we'll go out for a meal n catchup.. but knowing him.. his weekends will be full of outings.. lol! ok.. stop being such an emo la! mb i'll try to go out tonite.. lalala we'll see what happens..~ Tuesday, September 08, 2009, 9/08/2009 10:12:00 pm ♥ Jev to Singapore jevina went bak to singapore ~ so sad.. i had no one to go dimsum wid on sunday.. no one to call when i was so bored... i think she's the only one i can really talk to and blabber for hours on the phone.. lol Chicken at eva's, BBT after lab.. i was starving.. so i called eva up to see if she wanted to hav dinner~ we ended up eatin chicken and potatoes at her place~ yumm!!! lol.. reminds me of johnny's cooking.. except his followed the nude chef's herbs and spices~ we den had bubble tea at the usual place.. wid ama n two other nottis~ jen couldnt make it coz she was out at carousel? lol! but that's ok.. eva met boon pu in person LOL! that made eva cry wid laughter! lol!! funny! neways we had maccaz and did pilates at night.. i got home around 2, showered and went to slp... Sleep-Karaoke after lab.. went to get my last gardasil jab and den visited the notti bois hehe.. n dennnn picked up amanda and eva and den karaoke! i jus felt like a mic hogger x= lols! we sang for omost the whole of the 5 hours.. evy n victor sang too jus without the mic.. hehe! yay!~ it's nice that they're willing to be there to spend time with us as well as share our lil fun nights even tho they dun karaoke muchh... i dunno but i feel like thanking them... if tt makes sense.. lol! oh ya ama fell aslp.. lols~ eva n i kept going .. i think we were falling aslp too while singinggg! lols.. newayss dropped eva home n slpt over at ama's~ Happy DimSum went dimsum wid ama n her mum~ lol!!! i realised ama n her mum are very similar.. in the way they think... lol u wonder why ama is sooo ama.. HAHA x= but it was nice to get out n eat wid them.. we talked alot about a certain person.. some scary stories... also talked about michael.. i guess.. no one realli knows him.. but i'm sure they'll love him like i do once they do meet him =) well not the same way as i do.. but yea u kno wat i mean lols! i was also very touched when ama's mum told me that she always treated me as her own daughter.. n she's like a godma to me~ i think i felt loved.. lols! thanks so much for everythin auntie.. :) n ama :P Babysat... =x darrius sat on my lap and i bit his ear! ah... i think i grum too much... it was the funniest reaction: "hey! you bite me!" LOL he was so cute! lols today i asked him if i could bite him.. n he got angry =x hahahahahah!!!! so cute~ Family duck lol one day drivin to lab.. i saw a family of ducks crossing mounts bay road across from uni to the other side where trinity college is.. the lil ducklings were so cute!!!! lols hopping around.. lol.. a car had to stop for them.. but they looked very confused and hopped around followin mummy duck not knowin which direction to go.. the mummy duck was very confuse too.. but it was such a cute sight! i hope they found they're way home :) Change ama has been very affected by someone's hard heartedness... i guess.. ppl do change.. that's prob if they undergo traumatic or psychological damaging events in their life.. i wonder if nethin happened in the past.. i wouldnt be surprised at how it all panned out the way it has.. someone that doesnt have good relations wid family yet depend on them... i can oredi tell this person is not appreciative of what he's given.. tho i wont say nething more coz i dunno the whole story.. Experiments mum's bak for a few days.. we made wonderful soap today! hehe i wont share the secret techniques we used but it's a combination of goat's milk soap, olive oil soap and a tinge of rose essence~ i jus used it for shower and i would say it's a success.. nice soft and smooth =D SUKIYAKI finally! we had sukiyaki at Kido's Japanese Restaurant on Broadway! lol it was YUMmmmmm-MmMmeeeee! lol~ for those who haven't tried it.. i recommend it.. LOL.. brings bak memories of singapore.. we used to hav sukiyaki when we were lil.. sooo yumm.. n never found it in perth at ne of the japanese restaurants until this one!! hehe.. one day i'll take you there.. if neone can actualli be bothered coming up to nedlands... for those who don't knowww~ sukiyaki is a kinda like a japanese steamboat only thing is.. it's not soup.. it's sauce.. but yummy sauce =D n u dip ur beef or filling/vege into egg and eat it.. its super yummy~ must try peeps! hehe! OK i fell aslp a few times while writing this not knowin wat time it actualli is.. i better slp if i wanna wakeup toml.. oh that's rite my confirmation form jus went in today so toml i'll jus wait for the email to confirm everythin n walah! confirmation of the party is done! hehehe!!! okiii nite ppls ~ love yas hehe baiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii :) Sunday, September 06, 2009, 9/06/2009 01:40:00 am ♥ baby gave me a surprise call today from china.. hehe! he misses me! tho tt prob cost him heaps T_T $9/min.. we talked for about 20 min... sigh... so bout $200.. that's like 1/3 a ticket to perth.. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh this distance sucks... yay he callin again toml when he's in hk! yay yay! ok.. that's all i have energy to blog for now.. LOL.. will continue when i wake up :) Jev to Singapore Chicken at eva's, BBT Sleep-Karaoke Happy DimSum to do list for morning: - tiger lils confirmation form - fax bills.. - familiarise bisulfite conversion protocol for dna - thesis work Wednesday, September 02, 2009, 9/02/2009 01:23:00 am ♥ really don't understand how people can do this.. i find it so much easier to sing n dance~~~ maybe i need a script.. or sunnies? or MAYBE even put on an accent! {inspiration from Peter CHaO!} Just another FAIL VLOG!!!!! lalalala~~~~