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Watching you
Sunday, July 25, 2010, 7/25/2010 12:47:00 pm ♥

There are so many things i wanna talk about but it makes me almost too lazy to type it all out..

1. 4 days wid bibimon
2. coachy's birthday
3. melbourne trip wid cookerz

I guess i learn so much more when he's over and i'm glad that when he's back.. we genuinely hav fun no matter wher we go.. be it at movies, eating icecream, dinner wid parents, going to new places, spending time wid fwens and watchin the sunset.. i miss ur munki faces and hugs..







first time i saw a full rainbow

yummy food at tong86

watching the sunset wid u



I lost track of times and dates that i've forgotten coachy's birthday.. n we dun usually do much other den dinners for birthdays but this time we got a cake and a card for coachy~ forgotten how a cake and card can make so much difference to someone.. especially at age 69.. so i thank him for bringing that little bit of happiness into our family :)


Melbourne was fun! i forgot to bring my camera but i took some on my fone.. hehe cookerz got most of them :D upon our arrival we were greeted by two hot air balloons in the air :) something we dun usually see in our daily lives.. hehe.. tiger flight was quite uncomfortable on the way there but i think it got better coming back becoz i guess we kept ourselves occupied wid cards..





the exotic foods and places to see were a new experience~everything was bigger.. melbourne i found was very artistic in her views.. everywhere we went had great architecture designs for buildings and the little lanes we walked thru had very nice artistic graffiti.. shopping was cheaper at some places too.. kinda like this fashion style in singapore.. or villains at belmont.. i guess we went at the rite time coz the sales were on :D lucky girls! the trip was sensational.. :D

however, the people there were less friendly.. i guess ther's oweis pros and cons for newher we go~ neway the highlights for the trip were
  • shopping sales! and factory outlets!
  • beautiful "hotel" apartment we stayed at n the interesting hosts xD
  • the soup place (we loved!)
  • tim burton's exhibition
  • mini burgers at lord of the fries, tapas at roccoco, shanghai dumplings, buffet at kitchen workship and yummy beef ribs at meat n co.
  • chocolate chocolate and more chocolate oooh n cheeesecakes!!! yumm..
  • amazingg city lights
  • bubbles!!!! AND GALACTIC CIRCUS!!
  • eureka skydeck88
  • icebar at -10degrees (another drinking nightmare)
  • swim, spa, sauna, and steamroom relaxingggg
might go into detail next time :D i gotta get ready to go joggin soon~ put on 2 kilos on that trip.. flabs are bak! and bad!! LOLS!

okii~ gtg!




our relationship
7/25/2010 12:39:00 pm ♥

This song sounds like you..

We're back at it again.
No need to pretend.
Just another fight
This don't feel right. No.
You're yelling on the phone.
You say you can't do this anymore.
You're sick of it.
About to quit. But.

Girl I know it's get hard sometimes
But we gotta stop fighting.
Just gotta keep trying, flying.
Girl I know it feels like you can't do it.
But here I am, just take my hand.
Cause together we'll pull right through it.

Because we're made to be together.
There's no one I'd rather be with.
Baby just stay with me forever.
It's only you, girl believe it.
Baby just trust.
Ain't gon give up.
Cause I got you.
All we gotta do
Is love.

Girl I know it's hard. It's like
Distance is tearing us apart.
But I want you to know.
That I'll never go. Oh.
Cause I'm so in love you.
Baby you're my dream come true.
Can't imagine my life
Without you by my side. No.

I couldn't see myself in love with anyone else.
Gotta keep this thing going.
My love for you's still growing, flowing.
Forget the past and just look ahead.
Cause whether you're mad, sad, or glad, I'm...
Gonna fight til the end.




MJ reminds me...
Monday, July 05, 2010, 7/05/2010 11:55:00 pm ♥

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone





do you think you're pretty?
Saturday, July 03, 2010, 7/03/2010 10:06:00 pm ♥

my answer was "i think i'm average.. i wouldn't say i'm ugly"

you know a few years ago.. my answer would hav been a straight "no".. i used to think i was fat n ugly and no one would want me... becoz that's what my granma would threaten me with everytime i reached for a bar of chocolate or hav more rice... of coz being the little rebel.. you'd take it evn tho the results would mean tt.. (tho i've never been called ugly.. jus fat..) apparently i always replied "fat den fat lor.. i dowan a bf".. but now that i think of it.. i was really a big fat liar.. haha! but yes.. i dunno where this boost of self-confidence came from or whether it's a good thing or bad.. but i've notice a change.. :) i think seeing the people around me and the confidence they hav had also rubbed off on me :)

i'm slowly getting stronger... but at the same time i feel like my "big" heart is jus rotting away now... i dun care as much... but that's how i'll get thru in this world i guess... my illusion that everyone cares... jus isn't true... i was hopeful.. but as danny had said once.. people change and we never know what happens in the future whether we still stay as friends or not.. but we can be hopeful.. i know these unjust, unhappy ppl existed but it only hits u when u meet them face to face.. i guess the belief that a smile is contagious becomes just a myth for some ppl.. some ppl jus like keepin it real.. ur angry means ur angry.. who cares about the ppl around u? but then ther are other ppl like i saw a lady struggling to keep her tears in while i served her at the check-out... to be honest... it was hard to watch... i smiled... she smiled but as her tears kept rolling.. i knew it was fake.. reminds me alot of myself when i'm upset.. i felt like askin what's wrong, i din evn ask if she was a club member but instead i sent her off sayin "take care" instead.. sometimes i think it's best not to ask...

a guy at work asked me "why isit that you're always happy when i see you?".. gosh i think my responses are gettin lame nowadays coz i replied with "oh i think there's too much happy drugs around me" wid a hehe.. but at least it gave funny weird smiles.. mummy had a conversation wid me about the feelings u get after entering a shop... for example, hav u been to broadway pharmacy? the pharmacist is so unhappy looking and the staff don't really care about you... conclusion: i feel scared... i vowed never to be like them.. coz i do think it's important to pass nice feelings to someone :) (remember in a very long ago blog how i said that everyone affects everyone n that we're all connected.. well this is how i want to affect ppl) i used to be too scared to say nething but now i'm really glad that it was a requirement for customer service to be top priority in our pharmacy... because i've learnt to be louder and more welcoming? gosh when i first started out.. i found it hard to yell out HI! how are you and ask whether they needed help.. coz i myself thot that when ppl did tt .. it felt uncomfy and also coz of my lack of knowledge.. i was afraid of not being able to help after askin if they needed help.... but as a result i made sure i remembered and learned very fast.. neway now i find that some ppl do actually appreciate it when you ask.. i believe you can transfer some positive energy to ppl.. whether they like it or not.. doesn't matter.. u tried? LOLS i guess what makes it easier is that ppl at work are so fun to be wid.. sometimes it doesnt evn feel like work.. using portable vacuum to suck the annoying insects... hitting each other.. playin with balloons and toys, gossips, making creative signs, people fightin over me :P haha! gotta love that.. n i jus feel it's a happy thing going to work despite the early cold mornings :) it really beats doin nothing at home and not talking.. :)

i think work's become such a big thing in my life.. it's like i've been adopted into another external family.. it's like having so many older sisters plus one strict daddy watchin over us n ordering us to do things... LOL! we get so tensed when he's around LOL it's quite amusing.. xD

on another note.. marriage has been a topic i've been thinking about... ppl around me gettin married n tokin bout weddings.. makes me feel like having one too? i've nv been the type to think of these things.. and to be honest i don't think my mind's matured enough to be at that stage... i'm not ready... he knows yet he brings it up...i think that's part of the reason he's never offered for me to see his parents.. he knows im not ready =/ i wish he hadn't talk about it wid me.. even tho it was jokingly now it's in my head T_T n also im the type of girl that doesn't want to know when the guy will be poppin the question? i wanted it to be surprising haha.. now im goin to be thinking.. "this is the year..."... well at least he told me he wont bring it up again... thing is.. my granma wants me to get married n hav babies.. n i like to fulfill that wish for her (but not that soon).... but it'll make her so happy.. hehe.. n i dun wanna regret nething... but thn again we cant predict the future~ and my stupid mouth said that "we can get engaged but i dowan to get married" i only realised later that engaged means gettin married... omg how..... "revealing" of my true feelings? were they true?.. why did i say that?! ( mb i'll ask my mum for advice.... ) aiya... we'll see wat happens.. such a stupid munki... and i really miss my popokeh...

<3




Thursday, July 01, 2010, 7/01/2010 10:05:00 pm ♥



hehe! we got a new kitty added to the family. she lives in singapore with parents :D
~aww i can't wait to see her!!! :D


awww sucha kuity!!! can see the nottiness oredi hehe~

:D