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Thursday, April 28, 2011, 4/28/2011 02:44:00 am ♥
mummy's birthday in 2 days! woot!Emo
4/28/2011 01:52:00 am ♥
this rainy gloomy weather makes me emoeverything nowadays makes me emo... dunno if anyone's noticed my change in behaviour coz i have! like evrything is bleh.. and i'm just in no mood to do nething.. i'm so straight forward it's terrible.. i always scold myself after doin it.. and i dun remember always being this way.. i used to be the cheerful type u know, person that admired the little things, filtered the weirdness in ppl.. wat changed.. stress.. repetitive disappointments.. i guess "im sick of it" sometimes i think i need psychiatric drugs to keep me from constantly battling with myself.. isit normal to always think about why stuff happens, how i let it happen, why i let myself feel the way i feel, not understanding myself or other people's actions.. sometimes the matter isn't even about me but i get worked up so much that.. i just can't concentrate on anything else.. and my poor friends hav to listen to me complain~ ah! why... i also feel like i'm losing friends.. there's only a few people in my life right now i can open my heart to.. actually they're the only ppl who really asks how i am n wats goin on in my life... whereas i used to trust everyone else back then.. i guess after a while you know who really listens to you or really care about you... n because of this.. i also have to learn to keep other ppl's personal issues to myself and not tell other ppl.. *jasmine is goin to try not to be a blabber mouth* :) today i went to broadway to get dinner.. fairway was pitch-dark.. windy n cold too hence great stab spot.. i deliberately took the darker way slowly as it was also the shortest way around to the shops hoping that someone would actually come at me.. and stab me.. (too much stabbing scenes in scream 4 - i think it got to me) i really wanted to feel how tt felt.. to be stabbed n really feel that pain from inside - i really wondered wat i'd do.. stand ther like an idiot or go to someone's house.. dun get me rong i dun wanna die or nething but if some disturbed soul wanted to stab me -oh help me lord i can't do much about it~ it's happened.. i say this now but i know if i do get stabbed one day.. i'd regret i asked for it~ i think that's all i have time for today... shower n slp time! didnt manage to finish all my medchem notes today.. but i got one left for toml~ argh this study break is going so fast yet slow.. as always the case.. no motivation.. random rants. love, jasmine. sucha loner...
4/28/2011 01:43:00 am ♥
Being with you is lonely.My friends say that I should leave you behind And stop wasting all of my time They tell me that I'm outta my mind But I know that what we both share is real And I've been willing to deal With the way that you're making me feel 'Cause if being with you means being alone And never knowing when you're coming home Then I guess I'm better off on my own But I can't move on 'cause that means forgetting Forgetting everything we had Instead I keep running, keep running I keep running back Jessica Mauboy's - Running back. Tuesday, April 19, 2011, 4/19/2011 12:24:00 am ♥
why do ppl just always leave me...ppl always tell me "no one really gives a crap..." i'm starting to believe it only now... my biggest challenge in life now is to live... |
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